43. Lifeless
1088 Words
Jace Point Of View.
I went towards the stair to see Justin standing in the common room looking all confuse.
Justin: What happened? Mia just storm out looking livid, didn't even answer when I ask where she is going.
I just sigh as he ask that.
Justin: Jace?
Jace: I don't know. I don't know what happen, I don't know why she is angry, I dont know whom or what she is angry at. And when I ask she won't tell me anything.
I sigh once again trying to calm myself down. Mia is someone who will never ever hide stuff or kept it to herself. Mia is Mia because of her openness. She always just come and share everything with me, be it good news or bad. And even if she is angry she just come and vent it out on me. And I love that about her, she makes everything so simple and easy.
But now seeing that she is even hiding about it and being angry about it. Something bad must have happen, but what?
Did I do something wrong for her to do this? Is it something that I do, that she is angry about. But what is it that I do?
Justin: Jace? Jace?
With a glare I look up at him, now what does he want.
Justin: First you are the one who don't listen to me and now you glare at me.
Was he speaking?
Jace: What?
Justin: Mia was in bad mood from before and then you shout at her and then Chris left again. All this combined must be why she is in a bad mood. Give her some time, she will come and open up by herself.
I want to believe that as well but like Mia said before, she forgive me for shouting at her and that is the end of that. Angel is a simple person, she only says what she means. So that's not it.
And about Chris leaving, if she was feeling down about it, she will try to cling on to us, not get away. She also try to compensate her missing Chris by being with us and keep talking with us. Thats her way of dealing with it.
Jace: She is not angry about those things.
Justin: How do you know?
Jace: Cause she told me so.
Justin: Hmm, she usually says things which she means so that's out of the question. Anyway where did she go, shouldn't we follow along or something.
Like I won't have follow her already if she had just storm out.
Jace: She went to the hospital, night shift.
I hate that she have that as an excuse to went away. If she is here, the problem would have already be solved by now.
Justin: Oh!
But it keep on disturbing me that she keep on asking if I hide something or lie about something to her. Did she find out something? If that's why she is angry, I won't even be able to do anything anymore even if I want to.
Forget about doing something, I won't even be able to be near her anymore. If she did find out anything she will probably hate me rather than being angry about it. How scary!!
Justin: About Claire, is she gonna stay at the clinic?
Jace: What else can we do other than that, any progress on your part?
I was so desperate to hear something, just anything. I seems to be in this situation a lot.
Justin: Nothing, other than waiting. We can do nothing.
Waiting, once again. We don't even know if she will be able to make it till tomorrow, forget tomorrow, even tonight is a challenge for her. Yet, we can do nothing but wait. And that too with no hope that something will turn up.
Jace: Iam so tired, I wish I could just rest.
Why am I even talking about this with him. Of all people; him, he would be the one who will hate this the most.
Justin: I don't care.
I chuckle hearing that. But that is a truth, why should he care? I don't deserve it in the first place.
Jace: I know right.
Justin: Be tired, be angry, be frustrated or even be sad. I don't care, but none should be ever at Mia. Never ever, cause you don't have the right to be angry at her.
Jace: I know right. What was I even thinking shouting at her.
Bastard! She was only trying to know what was going on with me and yet,I shout at her for it. When in the first place I don't have that right to be angry even when she did do something wrong.
Justin: Exactly! You have already done enough. At least for now, the least you could do for her is letting her be happy. Cause that's the only way you could ever try to be sorry to her.
Do I even deserve that?
To make her happy is so easy, she is happy with every little thing. Even though its just a slice of cake, if I offer even that much. That can make her day more brighter. I hate that.
I wish she could have been harder to please. I wish she could nag me and use me in every way possible. I wish she could have many orders and things she want, so that I could have a hard time fulfilling them. I wish she could have been more greedy and complex so that at least, even me I could suffer even if its a little bit.
I wish she could love and care less about me so that I can feel lonely and hurt too.
But she will never be any of those, there is never a time when I need her and she was not there. Rather before I even ask or tell her, she will already be by my side ready to do anything to take away my pain.
Iam curious as to what she did so wrong that she had to meet someone as cruel and selfish as me. The world really is unfair.
Jace: How beautiful would all this have been, if we all could meet in a different situation. I could have even call you a brother if it was so, let alone a friend.
Justin:But none of us are selfless enough to give up our happiness for that. So why even dream about it? It already painful enough without it.
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