A Lie So Beautiful

20. Vulnerable

Jace's Point Of View.

Jace: Mia, what's wrong? Come on talk to me hmm?

And I tried to get out of the hug so that I could look at her and talk but to no avail. She just hug me more tightly and keep on crying.

And no matter what I say she just cling on to me more and more and Continue on crying. Making me more and more scared, but seeing as she couldn't form any words and is crying so bitterly. I just embrace her in a warm hug hoping at least this will help a little.

Jace: Shss, its okay now, its okay. All of us is here now, you are safe. You are fine now.

As I keep on murmuring sweet nothing on her ear while hugging her and softly patting her hair while kissing her on her head from time to time for a while, I feel her calming down just a little bit.

I keep on hugging her as tight as I can, hoping that I could at least bring her any kind of comfort. Its kills me to see her like this and me not being able to do anything to soothes her pain drive me insane.

She is shivering by now and her body is becoming colder and colder scaring me more and more. So I tried talking to her again so that she can get treated.

Jace: Hey little angel, slow down will you, everything is fine now okay?

No words come out of her but she just cling on to me more and more. And I could do nothing else more than assuring her again and again that everything is fine now. She must have been terrified, so I just sit there giving her as much time as she needs to come out of her terrified state.

But as I keep hugging her in the middle of this chaotic place where all of them are running around trying to treat all that are hurt as quick as they can and all hoping for the best of their loves ones, I heard my angel sob slowing down and her breathing finally becoming a little bit steadier making me sigh in relieve. At least now she can share whats bothering her so much so that at least I can listen to all her fear and problems. I might not be able to make all things alright again, but I sure as hell know I'll try my best at giving her all the peace he need

Jace: Feeling a bit better?

Mia: Ummm.

Still in the hug, she just push her head further to my chest and give a nod making a little sound which I would have missed if I was not this near to her.

Jace: Come on, we have to get you treated now. Your wrist, you hurt it again don't you?

When I say that she didn't respond at all but just snuggle more into me like a small cat, making me chuckle.

Jace: Come on little angel, everything is over now. You are safe.

When I said that she sniff again while hugging me tighter and tighter. But what Iam worried about is her wrist, she is not moving it at all and wince everytime her hand made even a little movement. And its bandagged up pretty roughly, she must have done it herself.

Jace: Its okay, everything is okay now. Shusss, everything is fine. Iam here now aren't I?

Now Iam pretty much trying to coo her out of the hug so that she can talk to me. So I with a little force made her look at me by cupping her face in my hand and wiping her tears. But as soon as she meet my eyes, tears brim in her eyes again and she was ready to cry again. She look so frightened making my heart break.

But to my relief she finally spoke.

Mia(shaken) : I was so scared, why didn't you come sooner?

My relief was swept right away by how scared and broken she sounds. She was looking up at me with such pain that it make me speechless for a bit but I quickly compose myself.

Jace: Okay! Its all my fault. I should have come here faster.

When I say that she quickly nod her head in complete agreement looking like a cute angry kids. Like I have mention before, she really have a baby face.

Mia: Umm.

Jace: Iam sorry my angel, I should have find you sooner but now I have come, haven't I? So don't cry anymore alright? Everything will be fine now, you trust me don't you?

Outside I look calm even to myself but on the inside I was shaking in fear that she might close up to me and was desperately praying for her to open up to me and share everything she is afraid of with me.

Mia: Of course I trust you.

That automatically put a smile on my face although it pain at the same time. But now was not about me.

I carefully untangle her from me while she make a sound of protest but I didn't give in this time, as I need to check for injury and she doesnt even seem to have the energy to protest otherwise. But she did have the energy to glare at me with total dissaproval.

Jace: Come on, we can't delay on like this. Your hand will get worse if we continue to keep it like this. See its all swollen now. Are you hurt anywhere else?

Mia: I don't think so, other than the small scratches and my hand; it doesn't seems to hurt anywhere else.

And she was checking herself while I do the same looking for any injury or open wound. While we were searching I realise her hand palm is badly bruised and hurt like a scarp from scratching on a hard surface or something. But other than that everything seems fine as all other part are covered by the turtleneck she wear and a very ripped blazer I think.

Jace: What happen to your blazer? Are you hurt in your back its all ripped up.

And I was about to check her back, I mean if her blazer is that ripped apart it must have hurt her body as well. I was about to move to see her back when she stopped me making me look at her confusedly.

Mia: I ripped it myself and Iam not hurt anywhere else I swear.

Okay Iam more confuse.

Jace: Why would you ripped that?

Mia: I needed bandages and the quickest and most easiest thing to tear that I can find was my blazer.

And she give me a simple shrug as if to say no big deal. Typical Mia, never thinks of herself. And how does she even managed to treat all those clidren with her hand like this? Cause when I think about it, I saw many kids with her blazer colour bandaged.

Jace: Mia, Iam not saying that you are doing anything bad but please remember you can only take care of others if you take care of yourself first.

When I say that, she look at me and smile and for the first time today I can see peace in her eye.

Mia: Iam safe now, I have Jace to lecture me again. Iam gonna be alright again.

And she close her eye and happily sigh in relieve making my heart nearly jump out. How can she trust me this much, it baffled me just thinking about how loyally and highly she love but yet she meet someone so unworthy like me. How scary!!

But I quickly snap myself out of that thought, its no time to think of this. Focus Jace.

But besides anything looking at her smiling peacefully again as if the fear in her eye just a moment ago was not there at all, make my heart beat normally once again. She is now looking at her arm while Iam rolling up the sleeve for her, as just a moment ago with me right beside her, she tried to bite the sleeve and pull it up with her teeth. Mia and her ridiculousness.

But when I roll her sleeve there are many scratches there too so I was trying to carefully roll up the other sleeve as well to see if there is any small injury too besides the very broken wrist of course.

Justin: What are you weirdos searching when all people rushing to get treated.

When Justin suddenly comes up, it shock Mia to a great deal making her jump up and in the process moving her broken wrist making her wince in pain. This guy is really tasting my patience now.

Jace: You okay angel, does it hurt more? Is it bearable?

And I take her hand and hold it in such a way that it won't move. But she look all shaken up again, all scared. Oh No.

Justin: Should I just kill myself this time, I don't even have any excuse anymore.

Mia: Treat it you doofoos, it hurt like hell. You think I'll let you die that easily.

And once again tears brim in her eye, okay her emotion is getting too unstable . This is worrying me more and more. And Justin also seems to have catch on.

Justin: Okay, okay sorry, I'll treat it as quick as I can. So pease don't cry, my Mia Pia. It will be fine alright.

And yes we are back to me hugging her.

Mia: It was so painful, why didn't you come quicker?

Okay, we are back to square one now. This is bad, her emotion is too unstable. Normally she is not the type to cry about things like this, she is a very calm person. She must have been so terrified.

Jace: Come on angel, no more crying alright. If this continue you are gonna get sick. He is here now isn't he, we will just make him suffer later for coming late.

She nod but she seems confuse by herself and it look like she will burst into tears any seconds now.

Jace: Come on angel, its all over now. We are all here for you aren't we, you trust us right?

When I say that she look at me intendly and said a quick yes making me sigh in relieve for the hundredth time today as she seems fine again.

While we were conversing, Justin seems to have look at the condition of her wrist.

Justin: I think it will be better if we treat her hand in the hospital with proper equipment. If not we have to fix it again later which will probably hurt more. And her first aid is pretty stable so its better we open it up when we have all the tools instead of doing it again and again.

Jace: Okay, so shall we go...

I was cut in the middle by a very worried looking Chris running up to us calling Mia.

Chris: Sweety, how are you holding up.

And he kneeled down to where we were sitting and this time the worst I expect of Mia's condition is her saying; why her dad came that late, but I was completely proven wrong when she started screaming.

Mia: Fire, fire. Make it stop, its hot its too hot, make it stop.

And she was trying and trashing around shocking all of us and making us all much more worried again. But after a while of trashing around and us trying to get her attention she goes completely limp in my arm.

Jace: Justin the car, quickly!

When I say that he quickly run away to get the car while Chris is trying to wake up Mia and simultaneously checking her pulse.

Chris: Sweety, Mia. Come on, get up little one, don't scare your old man like this.

He keeps on talking to her while he look more and more pale as each minute pass and he can't seems to figure out what's wrong with her.

Jace: Shall I?

He quickly give me a nod and run besides me as I quickly carry her in my arm trying to get to the car as quick as possible. Justin drive the car as close as the made up road permit while I ran the other half to reach him.

After a few minute, Justin comes with my car. I quickly sprint in with Chris hot in my tail.

Chris: Boys I have to stay here and and look after the patients here. They can't effort missing two doctor right now. Jace please take care of Mia for me will you?

Jace: Of course, don't worry about her. I'll call you as soon as I got something.

Chris: Okay no time to waste, go on.

And he kissed Mia's forehead lovingly and hesitantly step down. This is why he is a great doctor, caused if I was on his shoe, I know I'll never be courageous enough to think of others in such a situation.

And with that we speed away reaching the hospital of Litan in about twenty minute. After we reach Justin quickly take Mia out of my arm and run in to the emergency ward with her leaving me behind in nothing but fright.

I was sitting in the waiting room nervously taping my feet and even pacing from time to time. Its been about half an hour since Mia was brought in and even Chris have reach by now. So all of them are inside while Iam here, being useless.

Currently Iam sitting with my heads down supported by my arm with elbow on my knee.

That is when a girl come up and introduce herself.

Lexy: Hello, Iam Lexy. Iam one of the passengers of the bus.

I awkwardly introduce myself as well cause Iam not very sure what to talk to her about.

Jace: Oh, Iam Jace. Mia's boyfriend, nice to meet you.

Lexy: Nice to meet you too, I just came over to ask whether Mia was alright?

Jace: She is still under examination, nothing is sure yet.

I tried to keep it as brief as possible cause honestly Iam in no mood to talk right now.

Lexy: Oh, Iam so sorry. I hope for a speedy recovery.

When she said that I just give her a small smile and mumble out a small thank you.

She also return my smile and has started to walk away but then she suddenly stop and turn back again.

Lexy : I just thought that if you don't know this, it will just be too regrettable.

Jace: Of course.

And I look at her expecting her to say whatever she was going to say.

Lexy: Mia treat everyone of us and did not leave even a single tiny wound unattended. She did not even flinch let alone shed a tear in that scary situation and continue to comfort the kids and even carry them with a broken arm. She really is a brave one.

That put a smile on my face, of course its Mia. What else can we expect from my angel.

Lexy : But when you came and as soon as her eyes meet yours, it was like the woman I saw just a moment ago was completely gone. When you came, it look like everything has changed for her, it was like she was finally home where she is most comfortable. Comfortable enough to show all her vulnerability while not being vulnerable. Its not a lot of time we see such pure love, innocent trust and blind loyalty in just one action. I know its completely out of my line but I just wanna tell you that, that woman really loves you a lot and she have find her home in you and its my hope and prayer that you guys stay happily together.

And with that she give me a warm smile and walk away but once again turn back and said.

Lexy: Please tell her everyone is alright from our side as well and please convey my gratitude for all she has done for us.

And I just nod, not exactly knowing what to do. When she said she find a home in me, I completely freeze. How has it reach this far, why had it come this far. How can she love me this much, how can she trust me this much or worst why does she only see the best of me, when all the good thing about me is just hardly one percent of me as a whole.

But worse, how can I do this to her, how do I tell her when she finds out, how do I make her okay when she find out. What do I do?

But worse off Iam more than worried about her, I thought I will be fine but seeing her in any kind of pain make me feels like my heart is being ripped out and shredded to pieces. So I selfishly pray to let my sweet angel be always be happy and contend in everything she do and desire. And that even when all things are revealed, I hope that she could be alright. Cause at the end of the day, the only thing I could give her was my prayer other than the pain.

I really hate the fact that I will only be able to apologise to her and the only word I will have the courage to ever say to her will be that 'Iam sorry'.