The Dangerous Affairs!

"Urghhh.... f**k boys! f**k love! f**k feelings! f**k me for being so dumb. f**k you, Noah!" I growled angrily with hot tears streaming their way freely down my face as I threw my bedside lamp against the wall across the room and watched it splatter to the floor. I cursed as I fell to the floor and wept bitterly. I can't explain the pain I feel right now. I know I was the one who ended things with Noah, but it doesn't make it hurt less. He never actually loved me the whole time we were together. I wasted the whole year dating someone who never loved me. "f**k you to the pit of hell Noah Adams," I screamed as I continued to cry. "Oh my God Lari. I hate seeing you this way." Stella, my best friend since childhood said in a soft voice as she pulled me into her arms. "I'll go call one of the maids to come clean up the broken glasses." Zion, best friend since the middle school announced in a low voice before walking out of the bedroom. "Ella, I just feel so stupid right now. I feel used and angry at myself for thinking he loved me when he never did. Noah never loved me." I ranted as the tears continued to stream their way freely down my face. She pulled me into her arms and then hugged me as she listened to me ramble. At a time like this, my older sister should be by my side and comfort me since she's my sister but she isn't. She is never there for me. After crying and rambling for minutes, I finally stop and was calm again. "You still haven't told us what happened. Why did you break up with Noah, Lari." Zion began to say. "Why I broke up with Noah?" I mumbled to myself. I don't like lying to my best friends. It bothers me when I keep things from them. I wish I could tell them the truth, but it isn't my truth to tell. I don't think I'm in the position to tell them what the reason for our breakup is. Heck, I can't even bring myself to say it because it makes me embarrassed and it's also going to make me look really pathetic. I didn't even tell Noah why I broke up with him, and I would not be telling him until the time is right. I inhaled in deeply then looked down at my fiddled fingers, "I don't wanna talk about it." I said in a small breaking voice. "I don't want to talk about Noah. I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore. I never want to speak to him or about him again in my life." "Of course bestie. If that's what you want then we won't ever speak to you about him or bring up the reason for your breakup." She said then turned to Zion and raised a questioning eyebrow. "Right Zion." He shrugged slightly, "Sure. Of course." "Thank you," I muttered. "Hey, but you're still going to see him in school. I mean, you realize we take some classes together." Zion said again. Oh s**t! I didn't think of that. I heaved a heavy sigh and then looked up at him. "I guess I'm just going to have to do my best in avoiding him. We've got a session left to graduate, so all I have to do is avoid him till graduation. It's not going to be easy. I know that. But it's the only thing I can do right now." I said to them. Zion and Stella heaved a heavy sigh and I could see the pity in their eyes as they stared at me. Ughh... I hate when I look so pitiful and vulnerable. I hate when people see me as weak. Everyone thinks I am thick skinned. The atmosphere in the room made the air on my skin trickle and I began to feel uneasy. "Hey.." I jumped up from the bed and began to talk. "Come on. What's up with this tension. Oh sheesh!! Did someone die or what? Why's everyone so quiet. Oh, come on! It's just a normal breakup. It's not like we had a divorce or something serious." I let out a burst of small laughter. "Geez...Aren't you guys supposed to be comforting me and help me take my kind of whatever it is that's bothering me?" "That's what we're doing. Or aren't we?" Zion said innocently. "No, you're doing the exact opposite of that besties. I mean, the atmosphere in this room is even sadder that my breakup with Noah." I clicked my tongue and shook my head. "Your silence isn't making me feel any better." "So tell us, your highness. How do we make you feel better and take your mind off Noah Adams." Stella crossed her arm and asked. "You want us to go beat up that jerk for breaking your heart, fill his locker with rats or curse him out till his ears bleed. Anything you want your highness, we're going to do it." Zion interjected. I let out a small chuckle, "That sounds like a pretty good idea, but no, that's not what I need to feel better. Although, filling his locker sounds like a really tempting idea. I don't think it's going to make me feel any better or even take my mind off him." "Then what do you need to get your mind off Noah Adams for the night, Lari," Stella asked in a level tone. What do I need to forget about Noah for the night? Hmmmm.... Let's see. I stroked my chin slightly as I paced up and down the bedroom, thinking of the best way to get over my breakup. "How can I take my mind off everything going on right now?" I mumbled to myself as I continued to pace up and down the room and racked my brain for what I needed to do to feel better for some minutes. "I got it!" I paused and chirped in excitement as an idea popped into my head. I turned around and walked back to my two best friends with a sneaky smirk on my face. "I know exactly what I need to get my mind off that jerk for that night." Zion and Stella looked at me with a knowing look. They know that whatever follows after my smirk is always something reckless. "That look... Another reckless idea just popped into your head." She said tiredly. I shrugged lightly and chuckled, "Well, it's not really a reckless one." I walked back to them then wiped the dried tears off my face quickly and smirked again. "Let's go clubbing." I poured out with a sneaky smile on my face. "I knew it!!" Zion blurted out. "Nothing good follows after that sneaky smile. "Are you crazy Lari? Go clubbing? You realize that you're grounded and can't leave the house, right. Do you want to get double grounded by your mom and dad ?" Stella lectured. "I don't care Stella. I really don't. And besides, when have I ever listened to my parents." I rolled my eyes slightly. "I don't care if they double ground me. I am going to do whatever I want. So are you going with me or you're not?" I crossed my arm across my chest and said firmly as I stared at both of them. Zion and Stella went quiet as they shared a knowing look before finally turning back to look at me. Stella let out a small sigh and shook her head. "I don't know how you always get me to give in to your crazy ideas." She said in a low voice and a wide smile immediately appeared on my face. "Because you love me too much bestie. I love you too." "Tch.." she rolled her eyes and smiled. "I am going to go the club and have lots of fun then mess with the first guy that comes my way so I can finally stop thinking about that some of a thousand father," I muttered to myself. I turned around then walked towards my wardrobe mirror and stared at my reflection inside it. My face was so puffy, and my eyes were all red and swollen. I looked horrible. Geez! I'm going to have to fix myself with some make-up so I can look more attractive to the guys at the club. "Stella and I are going to come to get you by seven thirty pm," Zion said as he stood up from the bed. "We'll be waiting in the next street so your mom doesn't see us leave." I nodded in understanding. He walked closer to me and pulled me in for a bear hug, "We love you so much, Lari. Even though you are the craziest human we have ever met. We still love you." I smiled lightly as I relaxed into the hug, "I love you too Zion." I said then pulled away. "Thank you so much for always being there for me." "We better leave now Lari before your parents get back so we don't get you into more trouble," Stella said as she walked up to me and gave me a quick hug. "Yeah.. I'll see you guys in the evening," I said. "Byee." "Bye bestie." They said in unison before making their way out of my bedroom. It was the last weekend before the beginning of senior year. There was no way I would be spending my Saturday night inside my bedroom sulking over my breakup with some immature kid. Our relationship might’ve seen perfect in the eye of everyone. Hell! We had a perfect relationship. He was the sweetest, caring, romantic and nice boyfriend one could ever wish for. We looked really happy together, but in reality, he wasn’t happy in the relationship apparently because he was going through somethings and couldn’t let me know. I would’ve preferred if he had told me himself than finding out what it was that was bothering him by going through his stuffs. I regret poke nosing into his affairs, because if I hadn’t, we would still be a couple snd then I wouldn’t be going to the club to drink and try to forget about him. But at the same time, I’m glad I found out about it earlier. I can’t imagine even him breaking up with me after figuring out what’s been bothering him. I could go nuts. So I decided to break up with him instead without any explanation because he doesn’t deserve any from me. “Stop thinking about that dickhead already, Larissa.” I groaned in slight frustration then inhaled and exhaled heavily. “I’m going to go out and have fun so I can finally get myself to stop thinking about him.” I said to myself as I stared at my reflection inside the mirror. The black mini leather skirt with chains around it hugged my thigh tightly with the black strappy top that revealed my cleavage tucked into it and a black high knee boot. I straightened my hair and went with a dark eyeshadow and mascara, and also a glossy black lip gloss. I looked like an emo girl. Black is definitely my color. Damn!! Noah clearly lost a gem. Urghhhh... Will you just stop thinking about that jackass already Larissa Grace Simmons. “Damn!! I look really hot.” I muttered and I smirked then turned around to check out my a*s in the mirror. My phone beeped and I took it out of my purse then read the message from my best friends that were informing me they were already waiting at our meeting spot. I immediately typed my reply before putting my cellphone back into my purse. “Time to go have some fun.” I chirped excitingly then walked to my door and locked it from inside. I turned off the light then headed to my balcony and made my way down gently with the ladder that leads to the garden. I can’t go out through the front door because I am apparently grounded and should take the time to reflect on my actions according to my mom, but f**k it! I don’t listen to them. They have no right to dictate how I live my life. I am going to do whatever the hell I damn well please with my life. I successfully landed on the grass without making a sound and looked around to be sure no one had seen me jump down from the balcony. Once I was sure the coast was clear, I smoothened down my hair then hurriedly ran out of the compound and went to meet my best friends in front of our neighbors house. “Hey.” I greeted immediately I sat in the back seat. “Well, hello there hottie.” Zion said as he checked me out through the rear view mirror. “Are you ready to leave?” He asked. “Hell yes I am.” I beamed. “Let’s go enjoy our last night of summer break.” “Whooooo!!” We cheered in excitement and Zion ignited the engine and drove out of the estate. We arrived at the club in about twenty minutes, and I wasted no time in getting down from the car and hurried into the club without even waiting for my friends to follow behind me. I was hit and welcomed by the strong smell of expensive booze and the loud music. Freaking loud music. “Yeahhhhh..... This is what I’m talking about.” I screamed at the top of my voice and made my way to the bar to get myself some alcohol for my system. If I really wanted to have a fun night and take my mind off everything that’s bothering me, then alcohol is definitely what I need. “What should I get you?” The cute bartender asked. “A shot of tequila please.” I responded with a seductive playing at my lips. “Starting really strong I see.” He said. “What’s the essence of starting weak if I’m going to end up drunk either ways.” I shrugged slightly then smirked. He returned a small smirk at me and began to pure tequila into the shot glass. “Here you go.” He slid it over to me. “Thank you.” I smiled then picked up the shot and poured it down my throat in less that a second. Fuck! I cursed and grimaced slightly at the burning sensation it sent down my throat. “Too strong to handle?” The bartender asked. “More like too weak for me to handle.” I retorted with a smug smirk on my face. “I want something even stronger. Mix me a cocktail. The strongest.” He smirked again, “Sexy, feisty and knows her alcohol well. A complete ten.” He complimented as he began to mix me a cocktail. “Well, thank you.” I responded in a courteous manner as I watched him mix all sort of drinks into the cocktail glass before sliding it over to me once he was done. “There you go. The strongest cocktail.” He said. “Thank you.” I mouthed with a smile then took a sip from my glass. “s**t! That’s some strong hot right there.” I groaned slightly as I felt the alcohol hit my system. “Exactly what you need?” He asked with a sneaky smirk playing at his lips. A smug glow of self satisfaction appeared on my face as I held eye strong contact then brought the glass up to my lips again and took another sip from the cocktail. The liquid burnt my throat, but I was trying to be mature in front of this cute and really really sexy bartender, so I bit back the grimace that was trying to make its way to my face and smiled immediately. “Exactly what I need to have the best night of my life.” I responded in a low voice. He winked then flashed his set of perfect white teeth as he smiled before turning around and began to mix drinks for the other female at the other side of the counter. Messing with a bartender isn’t on my to-do-list so I won’t be paying attention to his flirting. “Please tell me you are not trying to get yourself dead drunk Lari.” Stella said as they both appeared to my side. “What? No! Of course not.” I responded sarcastically. She crossed her arms across her chest and gave me the questioning look, “Lari... You know you can’t handle alcohol.” “Oh come on Stella! Don’t mom me.” I said in slight frustration. “Just let me have fun tonight. Please. And besides, I have you guys watching out for me, so I’m safe. Just relax.” I picked up the cocktail glass form the counter and poured the entire liquid down my throat.. “Oooffff!! That did it.” I let out a small laughter as I felt the alcohol hit that crazy spot in me then got down from the stool. “The sexy bartender over there is going to make something strong to get you in the mood.. As for me, I’m going to have a good time.” I said as I walked past them and made my way to the dance floor then began to sway my hips along to the rhythm of the music.