“Larissa… No no. That’s not it. I swear.” He said immediately as he uncontrollably shook his head. “I really did love you. I swear I did. I wanted to build a life with you. I wanted us to be together forever. I loved you so much, Larissa. And I still do. I still love you so much and want to be with you. I only want to be with you.”
I huffed and sniffled slightly to hold back the tears that were forming in the brim of my eyes. I don’t even know which one hurt more. The fact that he isn’t denying that he has been gay all his life, or the fact that he keeps lying about having loved me when I clearly remember what he wrote about me in his diary. Those words would never leave my memory. They would forever be engraved in my heart and I would never forget them.
“I wish I didn’t have to do t
