Chapter 19The downside of all this was Maya once again thought Luke shouldn’t be around me as much.
“People with bipolar say they’re fine and then go and drown their kids,” she insisted on the phone. “How do I know you’re really better?”
“That’s ridiculous,” I said. “I would never hurt Luke. I’ll see him with you so you know I’m fine, but then he needs to go back to visiting me again like he regularly did.” Once again, lawyer visits were planned in my mind for if she wouldn’t be more reasonable. I didn’t go to my lawyer right away, though, because in the back of my mind I still wondered if I was fit to take care of him. Not that I thought I’d hurt him. But I thought I might be inattentive or something in another way. I was insecure about my parenting.
Sof came to visit me two days after
