If my wings could fly

I want to trust you, make me fly, close your eyes. I want to be higher. I'm not afraid of heights. Raise your hand and touch the sky. I push myself harder, even harder. I get hurt and hurt again, call me stupid. I’ll just smile. There's nothing for me here. I'm lying. Something I still maunder on the path of my past. I regret the time where I had no big worries when I was just a child. I rue the time I could lie to myself into thinking that these wings could make me fly. I went down roads I wasn't supposed to. I did things that made my mother cry. I wished for things that I couldn't have. If you can call me stupid, then I'll just smile. I don't want to be successful, do things I don't like to do. I want to be loved. My back hurts, longing for my wings to come out. I want to believe in me. I have faith in you, even if my smile shatters with time passing by. The end is near, I can feel it. It would be great if it would just finish. I want to fly. Fly, up to the sky. Lose myself in the clouds. Fly, higher always higher. I'm proud of you, for the path you choose. I believe in you, for who you are. Don't be scared now if it's your first time. I want to fly. Take me to the sky. Bring me higher than the sun. I want to kiss the moon goodnight. I know that my wings are frail. It's time for me to be brave. Look at life in the eyes and accept my faith. I'm not a child anymore. I won't cry for help anymore. My hand will reach the sky, sooner or later. I will find a way to meet you up there. I'll spread my wings someday if my wings could fly. Call me stupid for trying. Then again I'll just smile. My tears have dried since that time I was a child. If my wings could fly, I'll meet you there. Don't wait for me. I'm not ready. If my wings could fly, I still have time to live my life. If my wings could fly…