Her Humanity

Do you know what it feels like when you want to disappear from the world, but you're so much of a coward that you can't even hold your head holding a knife or even be able to push through your decision, then end up just crying by yourself? Do you know what it feels to know that you need a break from the world but you still chose to push through? Only the house knew the side of her that she never showed to her loved ones. When no one was at home, the house always wondered, 'What is she thinking this time?' . All the house knows is that the young girl does many things behind her loved ones' backs. When left alone in the house, the girl hides away with herself. 'Why does she look so free when she's alone', the house wondered again, following the girl across the house. The house sometimes desires to understand the young girl only to conclude that it should stop. I don't even remember when I lost my courage. All I remember was it took just one moment for me to lose it. Was it when someone took it from me? Or was it me who lost it? But what does that matter? That's not important, is it? After all, I still have my desire and love. They are all I need. I don't want to need other people, what I would only want and ever need is myself. I'll be fine. I AM FINE. At least that's what the house would never understand, let alone hear from the young child, nor will any of the family. -- HER *END OF CHAPTER 1*