Breaking Barriers

Fixing

I am on my deep sleep when I heard my phone alarm. It is 6 in the morning. I jump from the bed and rush to the bathroom to do my morning routine. I need to wake up at 6am every morning to cook breakfast and prepare Papa’s lunch. I look at myself in the mirror and I can see that my eyes are swollen from crying hard last night. John did not do anything but I really felt that something wrong yesterday. I am really wondering on why he did that to me yesterday and who are those ladies why John acted weird. I know that there’s really something wrong but I am not to brave to ask. While cooking breakfast in the kitchen I am reading John’s message yesterday.

“I hope everything is fine Babe.” “If you wanted to ask something please feel free to ask me.” I don’t know what’s running on your mind. Please answer my call. Another message is “ I am so worried about you please answer my call.”

I did not response to his messages. Until I also receive another one this morning. “Babe if you are not going to talk to me today I will visit you at your home.” I got scared when he texted me that. I know that it is possible because he can ask Jam my home. I hurriedly responded to his message. “I am sorry if I just responded to your message my battery was dead last night and I charged it overnight. I am so tired yesterday that is why I sleep early. He responded to my message and stated that he wanted to talk to me today. He wanted to meet me at the hang out place at 2pm so I agreed to him.

After eat lunch with my siblings and I prepare Love for an afternoon nap so that it is more easy for Anne if Love is sleeping while I am not around. I take a bath and put on my jeans and black shirt and a sneakers. I put on a light make up so that I won’t look pale. I bid goodbye to Anne and Joy and walk to the terminal to get a ride. I need to talk to him to clear things out so that I will feel better this time. I don’t care anymore if what he is going to confess me I just need a clarification from him.

After a few minutes I already reach to my destination and when I get off from the tricycle I saw John sitting on a bench. As usual he is so handsome even he is wearing a simple home clothes. The hang out place is just a few steps from their home. This time I did not focus on how he looks because I have this heavy emotions inside of me. He is currently smiling at me and I just smiled back at him after that I look away because I cannot look at him in the eye. I am sure that he will read my emotion thru my eyes. When I already near to him I sit beside him and to my surprise he hug me so tight that I cannot even breath. Now my tears are threatening to fall but I just hold it back.

“Babe please don’t ever think of breaking up with me I cannot afford to lose you. You don’t have any idea how much I love you.” John said. He kiss my hair while hugging me. I don’t understand what I feel right now. The heaviness I felt earlier was gone and I decided not to ask John and let him open up if he decided to talk about it. What he told me earlier is already enough to prove how much he loves me and I don’t have to worry. I told John how much I love him and I give him an assurance that I won’t ever break up with him.

Every weekdays we go out on a date and we’ve been doing that for 2 weeks. We are both happy and our relationship is deepened. We are both comfortable with each other and we are enjoying each other’s company. We made sure that we are responsible in our actions.

I did not able to go to our hang out place during Weekends because they are so busy already for the upcoming basketball tournament. Jam and my other friends are still going there almost every night. I heard that they are going to play tonight and my friends are very supportive to their boyfriends. I cannot go there tonight to support him because Papa is not feeling well. John on the other hand seems like feel bad that I cannot watch their game tonight. I explained to him what happen to Papa and he understood.