Breaking Barriers

We are official!

It is Sunday morning and I just woke up. As usual I check my phone and wondering that I did not receive any message from John. I felt guilty that I did not meet him last night so I decided to text him. “Good Morning John, I am sorry if I did not go there last night. I just need to see my friends. I will make it up to you tonight.” However I did not get a response from him so I decided to get up from the bed and do my morning routine. After that I cook breakfast and do the chores. It’s Sunday and Papa don’t go to work today. So that means I have a lot of time for myself since Papa can look after my siblings as well. I am done with house work and decided to take an afternoon nap since it is already 2pm. When I entered my room I check my phone and read text from Jam “ Lyn John is sad because you were not able to meet him last night” I also receive a text from Kiven but I did not receive a text from John. I am so worried that John really felt disappointed last night. I get out in my room and talk to Papa. “Pa can I go out tonight to hang out with friends?” Yes you can but remember to go home on time.” Papa said. “Thank you Pa” I replied. I go back to my room and texted Jam “ Jam can I go with you and Dianne tonight?” Jam replied “Sure! I am happy to hear that” I take a nap and wake up at 4. I prepared everything to cook for dinner after that I called Papa and the kids after I am done cooking. We eat at 6pm and after that I take the kids to shower when all is set I go to my room and change. I am walking to Jam’s home now and when I am already near I saw Dianne and Jam is already waiting for me. The three of us now walking on our way to the hang out place we take a tricycle now and when we reach to our destination we get off from tricycle and we saw the boys from where we are. I really got nervous right now while we are walking near to where boys are. I saw John on his blank face he seems so cold to me. When we are already near we heard the boys teasing John. Seems like one person here is so happy but pretending to be not. “Justine said” Lyn you make our friend happy today “ Marco is smiling” Jam and Dianne sit beside Marco and Clark while I am sitting beside John. I am looking at him while he seems like trying to ignore me. He must be mad at me. I really need to make a way on how to turn his mood or else he won’t talk to me anymore. Even if it is awkward, I whisper “I am sorry” at first he is so hard to get. I really need to do something to lighten up his mood. I hug him in the back, seems like I succeed he is smiling now and ask our friends that he wanted to talk to me privately. They nodded in reply so John guided me to stand and walk to the place where we talked from the last time. He is holding my hand and smiling at me. I felt so awkward because people who pass by will look at us. He guided me to sit on the grass and he sits beside me. He is looking at me now so I look away because I cannot look him in the eye. “Where did you went last night?” John said. “I hang out with my friends because they also wanted to see me. I am sorry if I disappoint you. It is not my intention to hurt you. I said. “Oh I see. Are your friends are all girls or Boys?” They are all Boys because the girls are not around last night” I see” he said. He is currently holding my hand right now that makes the atmosphere heavy because he is so near me. “ Lyn I badly want you to be my girlfriend. I wanted to hold you tight, hug and kiss you. I love you. Will you be my girlfriend? Please say yes” John said. My world stops after hearing this word from him. I just stare at him to make sure that he is serious about what he said. However I saw sincerity and love in John’s eyes but I am still in doubt. I am scared to get hurt but my heart is opposing. My heart said to accept John. I am so confuse now I don’t know how to decide so I close my eyes and cry. After a minute I open my eyes and look at John which is currently looking at me. His eyes is begging and he is waiting for my answer. I made up my mind and decide to let go of the past and be happy so I said yes to him. I am so shock with his reaction because he hug me tight and said “I love you Babe! I am the happiest man on Earth now.” We remain on that position for a few minutes. I can’t imagine how fast things happens recently. I did not thought that we reach to this point. We notice that our friends are looking at us and smiling so we just ignored them. I bet they already know what is happening. I can tell on how they look at us. I wipe my tears and face John who is now kissing my hand he looks so happy and now I am asking myself if I deserved this man in front of me. He pull me close to him and put my head near his chest. I feel his heart beat so fast. He smells my hair and kiss my head and it felt so good. John make me feel safe and secured in his arms. One of the things I love him the most is his shirt smells fabric conditioner and he really look good on a white tshirt. I started talking to him now “What would be our endearment?” “I want to call you Babe” He said. I am about to laugh because I don’t want endearments like Babe, Honey, Love and Sweet. I think I should agree him this time. “Alright Babe.” I answered him. He is now touching my hair while my head is still on his chest. “You know what the first time we met I already felt something special I just don’t know seems like I always wanted to be with you and touch you. I really felt so bad when you did not show up last night” John said. “ Please forgive me Babe I don’t do it again.” I said. Suddenly I am getting interested with his previous affairs. May I know how many girlfriend you have before? I ask. “I have into many relationship and most of them are not serious. I even have one night stands to some girls I’ve met before. I only have one serious relationship to a girl before and her named is Emma. She is my childhood lover we are Schoolmate since Elementary. I courted her and we are in a relationship for 3 years but things did not work out.” He said. How about you?” He asked. I suddenly swallowed my saliva because I am not ready for his question. Well I might mentioned you before that I broke up with my first boyfriend already 5 months ago. Michael was my first boyfriend and we are closed friends before we became a couple. Due to lack of time to see each other after a year of being in a relationship I decided to broke up with him to save our friendship. I don’t want him to stop herself seeing for another girl because we cannot see each other often.” I saw John staring at me. Seems like he is checking if I am still affected because that’s my first relationship. I smiled at him so that I can hide my emotion.

I looked at my watch and I can see that it is already 9pm. “Babe it’s already 9 I still have 30 minutes. “Alright we need to return where our friends seatted. We walk while holding hands when we are already near Clark is talking “Seems like both of you are official now, do we need to celebrate?” All of them are laughing. I look at John because I am already blushing. It is so awkward. John is holding my hand and answered Clark “Yes we are official and I am so happy. Let’s drink to that” My friends are happy now after hearing this from John. They are drinking like there’s no tomorrow. And I am on the other side just drinking soda because I don’t drink liquor or beer. After a few minutes I bid goodbye to my friends because it’s already 9:30. Jam and my friends are still having fun so I will go home alone. John take me to the highway where I need to wait for a ride home. He is tipsy right now and he ask me if I can just go home with my friends. “Babe as much I wanted to stay but Papa will be mad at me.” I understand. He said. Will I be able to see you again tomorrow?” I said yes. Tricycle stops to let me take a ride back home. Before I open the tricycle door he pulled me and kiss me on the lips. It’s just a smack but seems like I am travelling to the outside world. It is my first kiss and I was so shocked of what he did. I am blushing but I need to compose myself and wake up from that moment. The driver is already waiting. This man showing too much affection in public. John said Goodbye to me an open the door for me. I said Goodbye to him and luckily I reach home on time. I go to my room after I do my night routine. I send a text to John “Babe I am home now. I love you!” He responded right away “ Sleep well Babe. I love you!” I am lying on my bed but still cannot sleep. I am still thinking of the kiss John gave me for the first time. Later on I fall asleep.