her sweet chains

Episode 13

Carl and Dean were lounging out in their living room their long forms stretched out as they played some ridiculous shoot em up game.

“Hey princess,” Dean said without even looking over his shoulder.

“Hey” I said sitting down next to Carl who shuffled along the sofa to give me more room. “Have you Guys seen Derek?” Dean laughed,

“God princess you’re lucky I have a good strong ego or I would be offended by this. I mean what was it three seconds before you were bored with us.”

“We thought he was with you.” Carl said his eyes intent on the screen. “I mean he was here this morning to get some clothes and then he left.”

“And he smelt just like you.” Dean put in though still not looking up from the TV screen, where it looked like the two of them were shooting zombies.

“Well thanks for all the help I guess I’ll just go look.” Carl waved vaguely but Dean didn’t respond as I slowly walked outside. I squinted in the bight sunlight the second I emerged from the boy’s house. A quick glance around showed that I was in fact alone, good as this was rather an embarrassing thing to be seen doing I slowly knelt and closed my eyes pressing my nose to the warm stone I slowly breathed in seeking out Derek’s scent. A million mingled scent trails hit my nose I wasn’t in wolf form so my sense of smell wasn’t as acute but still I could still distinguish Dean, Carl, Roger and Jamie’s scents. I swept my nose across the stone until I found Derek’s freshest scent which still showed he’d been gone a few hours but it also showed me he was heading towards the trees. I jumped up to my feet and headed towards the woods I gave up following my nose as I didn’t want to walk around with my nose pressed into the grass. So instead I just did what I did best as I got amongst the trees I broke into a slow rhythmic run. This steady pace where my only focus was on moving my limbs breathing steadily, this cleared my mind better than anything else. I kept my eyes open looking for Derek but I knew that if he was still here and if he was in wolf form I wouldn’t find him.  The wind whipped strands of hair that had worked free of my ponytail around my face, I stumbled to a stop.

“yuck.” I muttered pulling the stray hairs from my mouth, and froze. I instantly dropped down to a crouch and began shuffling forward. The wind had again changed direction and had brought me the ghost of a scent. I couldn’t see or hear anyone so that left one conclusion – I was being stalked. I shuffled forward again cursing the small noises the leaves under my feet crunched. I froze as whatever magical sort of sixth sense I had sensed a movement off into the trees. I held my breath eyes scanning the trees. Suddenly a huge dark grey wolf burst though the foliage knocking me off my feet, but I was already prepared and my legs were curled into my chest and I kicked hard into his chest it wasn’t hard enough to usually have an effect but in this situation momentum carried him on and he flew several feet past me skidding on the foliage. I leapt up to my feet and before he could regain his footing I pounced colliding into his side knocking him over again which called him to slip and tumble down a small slope behind him. But as he slipped he snapped out and grabbed a mouthful of my jacket dragging me down with him and I rolled very ungracefully down the slope landing on my back at the bottom. The huge grey wolf obviously recovered more quickly and was instantly there his paws pinning me down.

“Fine you win.” I said grumpily, he leaned down and licked my Cheek. “ew Derek that’s gross.” I squealed, Derek gave a sort of growl that I interpreted as a laugh, as I reached up to wipe my face. “I was looking for you.” I said simply Derek put his head on one side as if considering me, “I need to talk to you.” He kept his head on the side before he jumped back and walked into the tangle of bushes nearby. I pushed myself up to sitting and continued to brush my hand across my face still cringing, as the sounds of Derek’s shifts filled the background.

“You missed me already darling?” Derek said emerging from the foliage in human form mud spattered across his naked skin which was slick with sweat. I looked up from my shoelaces which I had spent the duration of his shift untying and retying.

“What where you doing out here?” I asked vaguely.

“Skiing.”

“You know what I mean.”

“And you know what I was doing.” He retorted softly, I shrugged

“Okay bad opening line.” I said sweetly, Derek smiled as he took the few steps forward and sat down on the warm earth next to me.

“and since when do you need an opening line darling?” he said a considering look on his face which was so much like the one he had worn as a wolf it amused me. “Why are you nervous?” he asked frowning,

“I’m not.” I snapped too quickly to be believable. Derek’s frown intensified but he didn’t say anything he just considered me. “Stop looking at me like that.” I snapped, he smiled but still with that annoyingly thoughtful look.

“Like what sunshine?”

“Like your inside you head it freaks me out.” His smile widened,

“I just know you Jess.”

“Not as well as you think.” I muttered

“Well enough.” He said with a placid smile, “What is it we needed to talk about.”

“Um.” I said shuffling back slightly as Derek was leaning closer than I could cope with.

“Yeah that was critical.” He said with a smile,

“I’m starting at university in September.” I said brightly.

“I didn’t know you had applied.” He said with a tiny frown as if he realised there was more to come.   I shrugged,

“I didn’t know if Darius would let me go and anyway it wasn’t something I’d been planning for long. I’m going to study law.” I stumbled,

“Why didn’t you tell me?” he asked he didn’t look angry just a little confused, but it was my opportunity I took a deep breath,

“Because I knew you wouldn’t like it.” I said in a rush

“You studying law?” he said suddenly seeming even more confused

“No I, I mean I. fuck.” I said harshly breaking my eyes away from him and staring intently at my knees, “I…I enrolled at UCE.” I told my knees as if I found the denim captivating.

“Um…what?” Derek said with a sound remarkably like laughter behind his voice.

“UCE the University of.”

“I know what it stands for.” Derek growled

“That’s where I enrolled” I said gently “it’s in.”

“I know.” He snarled with so much venom I actually flinched, “Darius is going to let you go?” he said a calmness suddenly enveloping his voice so quickly it was shocking. I just nodded not trusting my voice. Derek laughed for a second before he reached over and grabbed my shoulder so tightly it hurt, and forced me to turn around and look at him, his eyes instantly capturing me pure gold irises stared. “Is he insane? Are you? Does he know what will happen if they find you?”

“Who?”

“You think we catch every rogue that trespasses? This is a big territory for us to patrol you know that. If their quiet and quick we don’t even bother to try. Do you know what would happen If they found you.”

“They wont no one out of the pack will even know where I am and anyway I’ll have Jay.” I halted what I knew was a second too late as Derek's fingers dug deeply into my shoulders which truly made me wince.

“Jamie is going with you.”

“Um Darius wanted Jamie to look after me…in case.” I added the last two words with a hopeful sort of smile as Derek continued to glare.

“How many naturals are in this pack Jessie? Do you know how many natural females that there are total in this county in all the packs?”

“Ten…ish”

“Total Jessie ten compared to how many males?”

“Damn it I don’t know.”

“Jessie there are nine males in this pack alone. Like it or not you are special and so we have to look after you. You can’t go running away from me to somewhere that’s two hundred miles from everyone you f*****g know.”

“I’m not running from you.” I said weakly

“Cut the crap Jessica and for once be honest.” He snarled his fingers gripping even tighter I felt blood begin to trickle down my arms.

“It’s not about you.” I said firmly,

“Then go to same school as us down the road. I mean do you know what they will do if they found out you are out there alone. Jamie won’t be able to protect you they won’t stop, they’ll all want to f*****g rape you or kill you I mean your Darius’ sole heir.” His voice was a pure animal growl now and his golden eyes were flashing with anger as his fingers bit ever deeper into my shoulders causing blood to soak into the sleeves of my thin white sweater. Derek had defiantly noticed as the smell hung thick in the air as well as the obvious fact that it could clearly be seen.

“You’re hurting me.” I said hating how small and weak my voice sounded, Derek shook his head biting his lip but this was clearly through exasperation as his intensity didn’t ease up in any way.

“I’m hurting you Jessica.” He said gently releasing my arms his fingers were now coated in a thin film of blood. “You are the most precious thing in my world. Your nothing to them Think what they are going to do to you.”

“I’m not helpless Derek.”

“Your not?” he said quizzically, I glared Derek pushed me harshly and I flew back landing heavily on my back the wind knocked out of me. Within seconds Derek’s weight was pinning me down and he held both my hands above my head anchored to the ground. I lay perfectly still looking directly into his eyes as his grasp on my wrist so tight it hurt. “now I could kill you rape you or just hurt you in any way I want which would you prefer?” he asked his voice harsh but I wasn’t scared of him I had grown up with Derek I knew him too much to ever be scared of him.

“Derek you want to talk about cutting the crap you try it to. That all of this is not what are f****d off about and you know it.”

“Yeah right I’m not concerned about you being abducted raped and f*****g killed.”

“You think Darius hadn’t considered that.” I snarled temper rising despite of my ridiculous positioning, “you think he would let me go if he thought there was any danger of that. I will be in pack territory with an enforcer. I’M NOT GOING ROGUE AND I AM NOT YOUR f*****g MATE SO YOU CAN JUST SHUT THE f**k UP BECAUSE I GET YOUR OPINION AND I DON’T f*****g CARE.” I hadn’t meant to start shouting but halfway through deciding to use the calm controlled approach I just found I couldn’t stop myself and the volume of my voice began to boom out.

“You don’t care about you or you don’t care about me?” Derek whispered his tone again perfectly controlled but his irises were still pure gold.

“Of course I care about you but we… I need something else this is all I've even known and I just need a bit of oxygen …I cant breathe….we need something…or before we know it another seven years will have passed and we’ll still be fooling around on the kitchen counter when nobodies there to see.”

“You don’t want that?” he said quietly his lips so close to mine that I was finding coherent thoughts hard to manage.

“I can’t want that.” I muttered before Derek pressed his lips harshly against mine on the verge of being too rough. Derek kept holding both my hands down with one hand the other slid down my side until he reached the waistband of my jeans and which point his hand simply grabbed the fabric and pulled it savagely down over my hips. Within seconds his hand was back slipping under the waistband of my Panties before he growled in frustration and just ripped them off flinging them aside.

“Derek.” I growled trying to fight the urge to just lie back and let him do whatever the hell he wanted to me as the taste of his mouth urged me to, as did his naked body which was strong and firm pressed up against me.

“Don’t please.” he muttered his kisses moving onto my throat. “Don’t make me stop.”

“Derek.” I murmured trying not to react to his expert fingers which had already learnt what places I liked to be touched. I began to pant desperately as Derek’s fingers began to slip into me. “You…I…you.” I panted the chance of releasing a single complete coherent thought destroyed by Derek’s gentle teasing fingers. “Yyy you have.” He cut off my stammering with a deep passionate kiss and I felt myself melt into him. Derek realised my wrists evidently now convinced I wasn’t going anywhere. Which was pretty much confirmed as I slid my hands around his neck roaming them up to lightly run them through his hair he pulled himself from me just a little so his free hand could entwine in my top attempting to pull it off but It caught and Derek’s sharp yanks suddenly tore the material he growled savagely as he pulled at my bra to release my breasts and dropped his lips to kiss a gentle path to my n****e. “D D Derek.” I panted as my hips helplessly twisted under his hand.

“Don’t you feel this? Do you not feel it? I know you feel what I do.” I suddenly shouted out as Derek plunged his fingers deep inside me.

 “No Derek.” I panted “we…we can’t .I can’t do this your Angry at me.”

“What?” Derek grumbled.

“I don’t want you to be angry at me.” I said biting down on my lip to try and keep my thoughts coherent, which was proving near impossible with his naked body pressed so closely to me. Derek growled savagely but didn’t say anything he simply removed his fingers and eased himself off me and sat himself down next to me. “Don’t.” I muttered quietly, “please.”

“Don’t what?” Derek snarled shooting a sharp glare at me. “Don’t what?” he echoed “please what Jessica? Don’t be angry at you? Deal with the fact that you’re running away from me despite knowing how I feel about you? Revel in your desire to put yourself in needless danger rather that risk kissing me?”

“This is not all about you.” I snarled.

“No its not is it. It’s about you I mean lets face it, it always is and your pretty f****d up.” He said with the vaguest hint of a chuckle in his voice. “I mean I was you best friend and I know what you were scared of, and I mean really scared of. You were terrified of becoming your mother.” He said with a horrible mocking smile. I bit my lip but what so I say to that especially as he knew as well as I did that it was absolutely true “I cant help but find that funny as lets think about what your mother did.”

“Derek.” I said sharply I didn’t want to talk about what my mother did it was an issue the whole pack just didn’t discuss. We were very good at doing that ignoring aspects of the packs life or members of the pack that didn’t conform basically we were very good at ignoring any issues it was easier than dealing with them.

“I mean she was mated up right,” Derek persisted as I bit my lip biting back tears (I have refused to cry over my mother since I was five yeas old) “with Darius and she still left him because she was a self obsessed slut being loved by her mate her partner wasn’t enough, being the centre of Darius’ world wasn’t enough for her. You were afraid of being a vengeful, self involved slut like her isn’t that ironic.”

I knew that Derek regretted saying this even before I slapped him, but I still slapped damn hard as he knew that would hurt me so I hurt him, and I knew I’d succeeded as Derek’s face flinched just a little and I saw his fingers twitch as he suppressed the urge to rub his cheek where a vivid red handprint had appeared.

“I’m sorry.” He said lowering his eyes honestly looking ashamed.

“No your not.” I snapped “you never are you don’t shout and rant that’s me. You…you never say a word you don’t mean.”

“I’m angry but I shouldn’t have said that.” he said gently still addressing his feet.

“Why not its what you think I’m a what was it a vengeful self involved slut.” I said my voice sweet and seductive.

“Jessica.” He said simply

“No.” I snarled Derek had said the one thing he knew would affect me above all others the chance of me controlling myself – it wasn’t possible.

“I just don’t understand. I don’t understand what you doing.” He said his voice was calm but I could see behind it he was fighting to keep control of his temper a skill I’d never really been very accomplished at.

“Well I’ll spell it out. I AM NOT YOUR f*****g MATE I NEVER HAVE BEEN AND I NEVER WILL BE,” I lowered my voice I hadn’t meant to shout and now he needed to know that my words were considered and not just rage. “And you know what I’m sick of it. I am so sick of forever having to apologise to you. So you know what I’m done with this with you I’m done.” Derek raised his still golden eyes to me.

“And what does that mean Jessie.” He said gently I reached out and gently took his hand he yielded to my gentle pressure, trying to grip my fingers as I eased them away. “Jessie.” He said his voice little more than a whimper as he open his hand to see the sparkling silver chain and purple chain that I had placed in his palm.

“I think until I leave we should just avoid each other.” I said gently my anger destroyed by his small whimper.

“Ok Jessie I give up.” He said gently “I’m not chasing you any more if you decide you want me you know where I’ll be.”

“I am not your mate.” I said slowly though gritted teeth as I felt the shift spread through my limbs “but I guess I might come f**k you.” I said sliding my jeans off and smoothly moving to my feet “I am my mothers little protégé after all.” I snarled turning away and striding into the trees unclipping my bra as I felt the strong tug of my shift taking me.