On Edge

I am under water again, death by water is so elegant. Imagine floating under water while all the air is being pulled out of your lungs. Complete peace, "No, no ,no what are you doing here?" And just like that I woke up. I looked all around my room walls covered in lavender paint, and decorated with my poems. My dresser adorned with my dance throphys and writing certificates. I laid there in my bed for awhile untill my mother busted through my doors. I always admired my mother she is beautiful with her light brown eyes and red hair, she is short though about 5"3. "Morgan it's time for school first day of senior year if I might add" she said her words laced with excitement. I honestly think my mother is more excited than I am about my last year at high school. "I'm up Mom, I'll be ready in a few" I replied softly. "Aren't you excited Morggie, you are a big kid now"and with that she hugged me, I'm quite surprised I'm still breathing. "Ok Mom you can let me go now" I said being suffocated by my mother's quote and quote love. I got up and entered my bathroom, my bathroom is quite big I have a tub and a shower so I assume that's why. I entered the tub. 1,2,3,4..... I went under and everything went dead all the voices good and bad, silence. There is the quote that Silvia Plath had in her book 'The Bell Jar' "It wasn't the the silence that depressed me, it was the silence of my own silence." I got up from under the water and actually cleaned myself. I stepped out of the bathroom and into my room again. I stared at myself, I'm not pretty, I'm ok but not pretty, I got brown eyes and black curly hair and my face is ok I think; anyways I always seem to do that go off track. Time to look for clothes. I found some sweat pants and a off the shoulder black long sleeve shirt and my black and white checkered vans. I took my backpack up and sat at the dining table but just as when I was supposed to start eating I heard the car horn so I just bolted. "Well here goes nothing" I said as I opened the front door. "Shittttttttt!" said the light skinned, curly haired boy with then hazel eyes sitting in the driver's seat of a Nissan. That person would be my best friend Richard. "What" I hissed "Damn girl you fine, beautiful, you are so beautiful" he responded with the biggest smile ever. "Shut up" I blushed and went into the passengers seat beside him and punched him on the arm. "Ouch?" he said as if to mock me. "Don't push it" I glared at him. He shrugged and started the car and we were off. We started talking about school and life I couldn't stop blabbing. When we pulled up to the school parking lot Richard grabbed my leg and said "You okay ?, and I mean really ok Morggie " "I'm good munchkin" I smiled. He removed his arm from off my leg and out the car and into school we went. Milly Groove High School, I dread coming here, the school is huge and the principal is cool but the drama, the drama is paracitic. I remember the day when- "Sorry" I heard as something or someone crashed into me. I fell to to the ground but bounced back up and infront of me stood Robert. Robert is about 5"8/5"9 and had a body to die for he always had a serious look but always smiled so much, he's like so omg. His waves memorizing and his vibe is just uh. I was so consumed be my thoughts that I didn't even realize I hadn't responded to Robert as yet. "It's okay" I finally responded shyly and tried to walk away "Hold up Morgan" he said while touching my arm, God that felt good. "Yea?" "When was the last time we talked?" he smirked. "I don't know" "How about you actually respond to my messages when I text you later. The truth was I don't like responding to people I never know what to say and there was something about him that made it even harder. "Okay" I smiled "Sorry about not responding by the way, I'm kinda weird," why in the world would you just say that Morgan, why. "Alright, later then". "yea later". I finally caught up with Richard and my face was as red as can be. "Who got you looking like that?" Richard smirked. "Shut up", I hissed "I love making you squirm", he laughed and started poking me in the side. Then came the rest of his band Brandon, Jason and Darius along with some of his teammates Trevor and Kyle they all said there greetings and we were chilling again untill- Brianna, Brianna and I were really close untill one day she started dating to Richard and stopped talking to me as much. I honestly don't know what I did to this day. But when she and Richard broke up it became even worse. "Hey Richy " she said, she sounded like a chipmunk to be specific Alvin. "Sup", Richard replied. "Hey Morgan", she said with the most plastic smile ever I bet plastic asks her for tips. "Hey", I rolled my eyes. "I just wanted to say hi to y'all you know and let Richy know I still miss him", she said. Just as I was about to say something Richard grabbed me by the waist pulled me closer and told me to behave so I just laughed it off. And just when I thought I was about to blow little Miss Brianna was saved by the bell. I have never been so happy to go to physics class.