Scars On Heart

Episode 4

Scars on Heart

Chapter 4

Crystal's Point Of View,

I made my way back to my room, after talking to my mom I was feeling much better, I know after what happened to me I still found myself in lucky people as having a mom like that is nothing but a pure blessing, and now when I already have a cute, little sister I am feeling so blessed and happy, I went to my room and slowly opened the door of my room and saw Anna was trying hard to sleep but she could not sleep, her eyes were closed but I know she was awakened,

"It is okay if you can not sleep at this time, I will help you to get a good sleep in the  night", I said and she opened her eyes and just forced a smile,

"How did you know that I was not sleeping, I was not even moving", she said and I laughed so hard, she was so cute, I know because once I was at the same phase of the life where she is today, she is so small to have such a bad life like this, maybe I was too,

"Well, I could know it by looking at your close eyes, now tell me why you could not sleep, are you not feeling comfortable here", I asked her and she just made a sad face,

"Are you mad, what else could be more comfortable than this bed", she said and I just chuckled,

"Yeah, you are right, but still I could see a type of restlessness in your eyes", I said and she just put her hand on my hand and took a deep breath,

"Yeah, it is because it is all is so new for me, and I just can not believe that I am here", she said again this thing and I sighed,

"It is okay, you will be fine soon", I said and she just hugged me and I happily wrapped my arms around her, she is just like an angel, cute and sweet,

"Okay, so now you should have some rest and I should complete my assignment", I said and she nodded and jumped on the bed as a kid and I smiled at her, I got up from the bed and walked toward my study table, I just have to finish this assignment today, so that I could submit it tomorrow, I suppose to submit it today, but I already left the school early so I was saved today, or else I do not want to know the teacher that I did not finish it, I do not want to make a bad image in my new college, so I am gonna finish it today at any cost,

I opened my bag and pulled all my documents and copies out, and started writing it, it was good to study all my favourite subjects after such a long time, I was writing it peacefully just then Fin's face appeared in front of my eyes, and I stopped writing, the way he saved Anna today, I know he is a nice guy and now he is also a family friend of mom, that means he is a family friend of mine too, I just smiled a little more after thinking this, and I quickly shake my head,

What the hell is wrong with me, why I am thinking about him like that, yeah I know he is a nice guy but I should not think about him like that, I have to focus on my studies, but my mind was just could not stop thinking about him, I just took my phone out from my pocket and opened i********: to search his name and here he was, top on the list, his account was open and I quickly tapped on it, and saw his handsome face, wait, I just called him handsome, I mean yes he is handsome, but I just can not think about him like that, I saw his pictures and then read the comments on it, every picture was having thousands of comments, and most of them were obviously from girls, they were crazy about him, he was popular, and I just thoughts that he is just a random guy, I should have known that he has a great fan following, then why he would he waste his time behind me, that does not make any sense, I just closed my phone and put it aside,

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, then why he is showing that he is interested in me, why he was following me back then and asking my name, and in the library, what was all that, I again shake my head so that I can stop thinking about him, maybe he was just curious to know my name so that he could make fun of me as others do, I know in this college no one made any trouble yet, but I can not forget my precious memories, I am trying hard but it is a little complicated,

I just dismissed all my stupid thoughts away and again started writing my assignment, I know I am just thinking too much, but I promise I am trying my best to get over these things, I have a great new life, I can not waste it by thinking too much about my stupid past, so I tried to smile and finish my work as soon as possible, I looked towards Anna she was sleeping now, I felt good that she could sleep, it took me two hours to finish my assignment, but I am glad that I could finish it before time, I was about to get up from the chair but mon knocked the door and came inside without getting any reply, I chuckled a little as my mom works like a super-fast machine,

"Oh honey, you were here for too long so I just thought to get a check on you, and here drink this juice, you are eating so less lately", she said and handed me the glass of juice,

"Oh, she is sleeping, I got one for her too", she said while looking at Anna's sleeping figure, I could see that she was genuinely happy for Anna, I could see it into her eyes, they were shining like they got some kind of tressure, I am so happy for Anna,

"It is okay mom, she will have it later, why do not you drink it, you are working all the time these days, so you also need some energy, and also now you have another one like me, so you need extra energy to handle us", I said and made her drink that juice, and she chuckled,

"I am ready to do work all the time, even more, as long as I am having such angels in my home", she said and kissed my head, I closed my eyes for a second, it was the purest love, I never know if my real mother could love me this much in this life,

"Thank you so much mom, I just love you so much", I said and she smiled so brightly,

"Kids should not say a thank you to their parents okay", she said and I just nodded with a smile,

"Mom, see I finished my assignment before the time, I am so happy", I said as a kid and I saw admiration in her eyes for me, and she looked at my notebook and checked it, her eyes shine as she looked at me,

"Oh, honey, you did a great work and also I am just loving your handwriting so much, how did you learn to write like that", she asked me after seeing jy curvy handwriting,

"I used to learn it in the orphanage from kids notebook, no one knows there that I was learning it", I told her and I saw a proud smile on her face  I smiled back and she patted my back with so much love,

"I am so proud of you my honey", she said kissing my cheek,

"Oh you are already up", I said as I looked at Anna who was looking at us as a long lost puppy does, and when she saw that I was looking at her she quickly shifted her gaze,

"Oh, yes, I woke up just now", she said softly,

"How are feeling now honey", mom asked her the same way as she asks me, and I am so glad that mom started doing her efforts to accept her as her daughter soon,

"I am feeling so good now, m", she was about to say mom, but she could not speak it, maybe she was still not sure that mom is ready to accept her, she hesitated to speak, and my mom noticed it in a blink and she made her way towards Anna, Anna sat on the bed and mom took a place beside her,

"See, Anna, I know you are still not comfortable here properly, and I know it will take time, but I want to tell you that stopped thinking about anything now, I will never let you go now, you are not only my responsibility, but my part of the life, and also you can call me mom now as Crystal does, okay, I am with you no matter what honey, please try to cooperate, as fast you will accept your new life, it will be good for you", said my mom and placed a soft kiss on her head, new tears build up in Anna's eyes after hearing the words of my mom, but they were happy tears, and my mom wiped her crying face,

"It should be the last time when I am seeing tears in your pretty eyes, next time if I see you crying I am gonna punish you okay", my mom scolded her but softly, Anna chuckled and nodded her head as she wiped her face with tight hands and took a deep breath,

"Thank you mom", she said and my mom hugged her,

"Good, always smile like this, I am going get you a glass of juice, okay, you go and wash your face", my mom said and Anna nodded her head as mom walked out of the room, Anna was looking at the door, and then she looked at me, and smiled a little,

"I can never thank you enough for this life", she said to me and I glared at her,

"Not again Anna, dare if you say something again about this", I said and pushed her inside the bathroom so that she could wash her face, and I just packed my bag and put my assignment in it carefully, I was glad that I finished it, now I have nothing to do important, I need to see the lectures I missed when I was in the hospital, but I am not in the mood to see it at this time, I can watch it later, or maybe tomorrow in the library,

"Are you coming with me", I heard, and then I looked up,

"What", I said and Anna glared at me,

"I am asking you that are you coming with me downstairs", asked Anna and I nodded  my head,

"Yeah, I am coming", I said and I just smiled a little, I sometimes get too lost in my thoughts, I put my bag on my table and got up from the bed, Anna passed me a smile and we both walked out from the room, and made our way towards the kitchen,

"Oh, glad to see you both like this", my mom said, and we both smiled,

"Now you should get a habit of this", I said and my mom smiled and handed a glass of juice to Anna, and she took it,

"Drink it, do not think too much, okay", mom said and Anna nodded her head,

"Mom, the sun is about to set and dad will come anytime soon", I said to mom with a worried face and my mom just gave me an assuring smile,

"Do not worry baby, I told you that I will handle it, and I am so sure that your dad will be mad with happiness", mom said and I smiled, and nodded my head, Anna did not say a single word as she was drinking her juice peacefully, I am thankful about this,

"Okay now you guys go and do something, or also you can go out for a walk too, I am gonna make dinner", said mom,

"Let me help you with dinner", I said and my mom just looked at me,

"Do you know how to cook", my mom asked me and I nodded my head,

"But you never told me this before", she said as she was looking at me, and I just forced a smile,

"I do not know why I did not tell you, maybe because you never ask me", I said and just scratch my neck, and my mom just smiled,

"It is okay honey you do not need to take stress, but I will manage, you can go out with Anna", she said and I shook my head,

"No, mom, I also want to help", said Anna and we both looked at her with wide eyes,

"What", I said and she just smiled,

"Do you know how to cook baby", mom asked her and she also nodded her head,

"What, but you are just fourteen years old, how did you learn that ", mom asked her as she was so shocked to hear that, and I was also shocked to hear that,

"Yeah, I learned it a long ago, I mean in the orphanage I need to make food for myself and sometimes for others too, so now I know very well how to cook", she said and my heart again clenched in pain after hearing her words, she is so small for all these things, but the cruel world was not treating her right, but now I will not let anybody hurt her, she is my sister and my responsibility,

"Aww, my brave girl, you are gonna rock the world from now", I said and patted her back and she smiled,

"Yes, a girl like you deserve universe my angel, and from now I will help you to get it, and you do not need to cook, now it is the time when you will only eat, and that would be the food of your mom's hand, you are gonna love it", said mom and placed a soft kiss on her head and I smiled, Anna looked at me and smiled,

"Are you happy Anna", I asked her and she just jumped on me and hugged me so tight,

"I can not express how happy I am, and it is all because of you Crystal, you also deserve a universe, I swear, and you will have it for sure", she said to me and I also placed a small kiss on her head,

"Aww, my baby sister is just so sweet", I said and mom chuckled,

"Now, you both go and do something, as I told you before, you guys can go for a walk, there is a park near our street, and there are a lot of girls who come to play, you can go and make some new friends too, it would be fun", mom said and I just felt a little scared, it is been long that I did not make new friends, it scares me, after my past, it is so hard to trust anyone for me, but I know I can not stay holding my past forever, it sucks to be like that, my mom is right, I should go and make some new friends, I need to learn to be happy, I can not cry all the time, there would be no difference in my dark past and this lightful present if I could not change myself, and also now I have Anna too if I would stay gloomy all the time what she will learn from me,

I know she is trying to hide her pain and fear, but I know it eats us from inside, and I will not let her happen the things which I already bore once, I will remove all the pain and dark memories from her life, I will give her a lot of happiness, and I am sure that she will forget about her dark past, I know it will take a little time, but now I am ready to do anything for a good life, and also my mom and dad suffered a lot because of me, I was s**t in the past, she took me home and she took care of me, she gave me a better life, so now it is my turn to return all the love and care, I will make them the happiest parents on the earth,

"Okay mom, we are going to the park, you can call me if you need any kind of help, and also call me when dad come", I said and my mom nodded happily,

"Let us go, Anna, it is time to be happy", I said and hold her hand and we both headed out,

"Be careful okay", I heard mom yelled,

"Yes mom, we will", I replied and we walked out towards the park, it was so irritating when people were looking at me, and Anna, I know that I should not care about people, but it is a little strange, but I know I will learn it soon to ignore them and be happy,

"Did you ever visit this park before", Anna asked me with so much excitement, and I just shook my head,

"Well, no, I did not, but if you like it, we could come here daily", I said and she nodded her head happily, we headed inside the park, and as mom said there were a lot of people there and some girls too, some of them were playing badminton and so many were skipping and playing, it was refreshing to see them, and the  cold air was relaxing my body,

"What are you thinking Anna, did you like it", I asked her and she nodded her head with excited eyes,

"Okay, so how about you go and make new friends", I asked her and she shook her head,

"But why baby", I asked her and she again shook her head,

"I am scared, I want to be with you, these people scare me, please, I want to be with you only for now", she said and I cupped her face, as I could see she was panic,

"It is okay baby, it is just fine that you do not want to go, I am here with you okay, just relax", I said and she smiled,

"Do you like swings", I asked her and she again nodded her head happily and I smiled,

"Okay then let us go, I also love that", I said and we both headed towards the swings, there were already so many people, but there was an empty swing, and I made Anna sit there and started it, she was smiling so brightly and I was so happy to see her like that,

"Hey Crystal, is that Fin", said Anna and I  followed her gaze, and it was Fin, and my heart started beating so damn fast,