Unconditional

Journal Entry 2, Life Prevails

*I waited for him to return. I waited day and night...the tears streamed down my down my face the bad visions, the night frights...*

Patricia wrote in her online blog that was followed by many glasses of wine and tears. At most, she would pump out 3 poems or songs and feel so proud of herself. Yet when it came to missing Daniel, or knowing he was in trouble, her thoughts would trail off into the deep end of horrific thoughts. Those thoughts would lead her to mini prayers, and those prayers led her to write a few more words at a time. Patricia had books upon books, that were dedicated to Daniel and Destiny, but there was one notebook, blue with calligraphy on the cover, that she called "The Lost Tears of a Soldier," that's was strictly for Daniel.

One poem, she wrote about a female soldier. *she might have everything he wants, same job, banging body...only one to look like a goddess in fatigues what if he drank her down like she was a hot totty....The cool to his inner parts while I'm the BOOM in his system...she's side by side on the battlegrounds with him while I stay by his side, rooted within in him these strong roots of my love, the reason for his growth...*

The female soldier wasn't a made up character like in Patricia's short stories, though. She was a colleague of Daniel's. Same one who kissed him. Same one who always competed against Patricia, even after marriage. Patricia knew that if she continued to engage in the "my breasts are bigger than yours" battle, that no one would wind up satisfied except for the antagonist. Bound and determined to not allow her newly found and started, marriage to teter, Patricia found her outlet in writing, and her passion within Daniel's heart.

"When are you coming back home from Germany? Destiny keeps screaming about you, literally!," said Patricia to Daniel. She had put down her pen, dismissed herself from the notebook and heard the Skype jingle. Daniel had called her and just simply needed to see her and Destiny and the tummy with the twins inside. Destiny ran into the room, eyes twinkled and lit up once she saw her Daddy Dan Dan on the screen.

"Hiiiiiiiii! I lub yooooou daaddy Dan Daaaaan! You lub meeeee," Destiny screamed in excitement as she carried out every vowel in her words.

"I miss you all more than this whooooole universe could begin to explaiiiiiiiin and I looooove yooooooou my little Princess," Patricia realized, the carried on vowels coming from Daniel were just as bad as Destiny's, so she smiled brightly, happy to be with her loved ones even though she only saw Daniel on a computer screen. She still felt closer to him, from just the sight of his almond brown eyes.

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