The Beta’s Alpha Mate

Fourteen

(warning: s****l content)

Julien’s POV

I couldn’t believe this was happening. I had worried I’d be rejected, and instead, Grayson had accepted me as his mate.

His beautiful green eyes met mine as he smirked at me from above. He had me pinned down, my wrists above my head, and feeling the pressure of his weight on me was making me slightly delirious. He released me only to command me to undress, helping me take off my shirt and jeans, before pushing me back to the bed. I bit back a whine of anticipation, feeling his hips just above mine.

Suddenly, his hot breath was against my ear. “Juls, I just want to be clear about something,” he whispered. “You might be the pack’s Alpha wolf, but here, with just us two, you’re not going to be the only one giving orders, understand?”

Fuck, he sounded so confident. I was throbbing at the thought of surrendering to him. I wanted him so badly. All I could do was nod at him. I’m not sure I remembered how to form words anymore anyway.

He smirked even wider at me and nipped my ear, making me moan. “Good,” he said approvingly, and released my wrists again. I watched as he sat up and pulled his shirt over his head. God, he looked so good. My hands traced over his chest and down his abs, feeling him, trying to memorize the contours of his body.

I could see the bulge in his pants, and I desperately wanted to touch it. My fingertips were practically sparking with need. But… then I felt Grayson’s warm mouth on my neck, kissing lower and lower until he found my n****e, swirling his tongue around it and biting while I moaned at the new sensation. He repeated his actions on the opposite side, before continuing to kiss lower and lower - down my abs, across the waistband of my boxers.

“Oh f**k. f**k,” I muttered, trying not to lose my mind completely. With a quick tug, he pulled my boxers down, giving me a second to kick them all the way off from where they tangled on my feet. Then his lips were back on my skin, warm and wet, kissing my thighs, my stomach, my hips. I was half-drunk from the sensations, moaning loudly. It had never been like this. Nothing had ever felt like this before.

Suddenly, I felt his mouth slide over the tip of my c**k, teasing. His tongue flicked around the head briefly, before he engulfed me completely in his mouth, taking my length all the way in.

“Oh f**k, oh f**k, oh f**k,” I repeated, trying not to c*m instantly. What had happened my vocabulary? I couldn’t convince my mouth to form words. “Grayson! Grays!”

My hands tangled in his hair as I tried to catch my breath. Did he even know what he was doing to me? Was he aware that this was single-handedly the best moment of my entire life?

“Grays, stop, I’m gonna-… Grays, please,” I whimpered. He smirked up at me with his mouth full, those intense green eyes challenging me, and I couldn’t hold back any longer. I came hard, groaning as I released into his throat. It felt unfuckingbelievable.

Grinning at me, Grayson licked his lips and kissed his way back up my body slowly before pressing his lips to mine again. Then he fell back to the mattress, leaving just a bit of space between us.

Both of us were panting, laying on our sides, staring at each other. I couldn’t believe this was happening. I wasn’t even sure why I couldn’t believe it. Was it because I never imagined doing anything s****l with a guy, but this felt a hundred times better than my experiences with she-wolves? Or was it because I thought the day I’d actually get to have my mate in my bed would never come? My feelings were kind of a blur.

He gently brushed my hair out of my eyes with his right hand. His other arm wrapped around my waist, holding me close to him.

“You okay, Juls?”

“Mmm, I’m better than okay,” I told him honestly. And I was, even though I had a lot of swirling emotions. Overall, I was content. “That was so much better than anything I’ve imagined.”

“Oh, were you spending a lot of time imagining me?” Grayson chuckled.

I blushed. “Maybe occasionally. In between stressing out about whether you’d ever accept me.”

Grayson was lazily trailing his fingertips in small circles on my hips and it was driving me insane. I was starting to get hard again. “Hmm, I wanna know about these fantasies of yours. What exactly have you imagined me doing to you?”

My face turned crimson red. “I-… well…“ I trailed off. “Maybe I’ll tell you some other time.”

Grayson raised an eyebrow at me. “Aw, are you embarrassed?” He grinned at me, and I growled back.

“No, I’m not!” I lied. My blush was even darker now. I would need approximately five to ten years to recover from my mortification. “Why don’t you be useful and go get us coffee?”

“Sure thing, babe, but first, I’m going to show you how you’re making me feel right now,” he smirked again and stood up to take off his boxers before crawling back into bed. Grabbing my wrist, he guided my hand down to his waist.

“Juls,” he growled, as I tentatively wrapped my hand around his erect c**k. Touching one besides my own for the first time was kind of strange but it felt right. I stroked up and down, feeling him get even harder as I moved. f**k, was he even bigger than me? I thought I was already pretty above average in that department, but damn, Grays.

With a shove, I pushed him onto his back and climbed on top, straddling him. I had no idea what to do with a guy, really, but I tried to mimic what he had done to me. After scooting down a bit to be more comfortable, I leaned over and kissed his thighs, grinning at the way he squirmed when I touched the ticklish spots. Experimentally, I lowered my mouth to his length and licked from the bottom to the very tip. He groaned loudly, so I did it again, and then another time, before he fisted his hands in my hair.

“Juls, goddess, stop teasing,” he growled, as he positioned himself at my parted lips. I slid my mouth over him, taking as much as I could until he hit the back of my throat. Trying to think about what I liked, I swirled my tongue around him as he continued to guide my movements using his grasp on my hair. I don’t know what I was expecting giving a blow job to feel like, but f**k if it wasn’t one of the hottest things I’ve ever done. The way he was squirming beneath me, the sounds he was making. I felt like I would c*m again just from the sensory overload. I just wanted to keep pleasing him forever.

“Oh s**t, Juls, you’re such a natural at this,” Grayson grunted, tugging on my hair again. “And look how much you love it… do you feel how hard you are, babe? Is that for me?”

I nodded, with him still in my mouth, and he groaned again. His lust-filled words were pushing me back towards the edge, too, and I couldn’t help reaching down to help myself.

Fuck, why did I never realize he was this hot?

“f**k. So good, Juls,” he hissed, his hands tightening in my hair as his muscles contracted and he filled my mouth. Once he had finished, he wrapped his hands around my arms and pulled me up, so I was laying next to him again. His kisses were slower and sweeter now, like he had all the time in the world with me.

And then everything went wrong.

“Goddess, you are such an i***t sometimes, Juls,” he laughed, while playing with my hair. “We could’ve been doing this ever since the night of the mate ball if you hadn’t lied to me.”

I bristled at that. It was easy for him to say that. He was openly gay, and had been for a long time. Grayson didn’t have to worry about what the pack would say, or his parents, or his friends, because they were more than used to him hooking up with guys. I had none of that confidence; this was all new for me.

“Look, sorry I haven’t f****d every unmated guy in the pack, and I just needed a minute to adjust to the idea of this,” I snapped, gesturing at our nakedness.

Grayson narrowed his eyes at me. “Seriously, this again? I was going to give you the benefit of the doubt about saying that to Kade a few days ago. After I found out we were mates, I assumed you said it because you were just jealous. That you couldn’t have me and you didn’t want anyone else to have me either.”

“I was!”

“But now you do have me, and you’re still implying that I’m some kind of disgusting manwhore and you’re better than me. I’m not going to be shamed by you for my choices.”

“What’s that even supposed to mean?” I yelled. All thoughts of our morning together were gone. I was mad now.

“I bet you have no intention of publicly claiming me anytime soon. I bet you want to keep this secret as long as you can.” Grayson stood, pulling on his jeans and shirt quickly. He stomped around the room, picking up my clothes and tossin them at me as I sat in silence. “You think you’re too good to be mates with another male wolf. And you insult my past to try to prove you’re better than me.”

“I don’t think I’m better than you,” I said, softly. That was all I could really refute. I wanted everyone to know Grayson was my mate, but… but maybe not yet. Wasn’t I allowed that? Couldn’t I have a few days to get used to being with him before we added the pressure of the pack’s judgement?

“Juls, you have to decide if you want to do this or not. If you think so little of me that you would have me be a secret rather than openly admit you’re with a guy, this won’t work. You’re the Alpha of this pack. You know they’ll respect your choice no matter what it is.” he said. He gave me a sad smile before adding softly, “I’m going to head out. I’ll see you at our meeting with Moonstone. Sort your feelings out and decide if you can really go through with being mates. Just let me know.”

He slammed the door as he left, and I fell backwards on the bed, rubbing my fists against my eyes in frustration. It was always so damn complicated.