Dawn of an alpha.

The Feels

Dawn Daniels.

“How?”

“Your wolf is the part of you that makes you the werewolf that you are, you don’t need too much to shift, just a constant communication between yourself and your wolf. To shift, you just speak to your wolf and maintain a firm connection to it, then from that point onwards, it flows. You’ve done it before so even if you can’t remember right now, you will eventually because it’s just like second nature.”

He came close to me and said, “I don’t want you to feel uncomfortable but how comfortable are you nude?”

“Excuse me?” I said giving Kieran a stare that screamed, what did you just say?!?

“Um because of your clothes. You either take off what you have on and shift or you lose them when they get ripped apart during your shift.” He quickly replied.

“Ohh, I almost forgot that part,” I said quietly, thank heavens it was dark and he couldn’t see my face. “I’m not comfortable.”

“Should we rain check till there is another female werewolf present?”

“No, I will do it tonight. Can we do it with you turning your back to me?”

“Sure thing, as long as you are comfortable.”

“Okay, please turn your back.”

Kieran turned his back to me then I took off all articles of clothing and placed them on the sand beside me before letting him know I was ready.

“Alright, Dawn. The key is to not think about it, just do it.” He said, still backing me.

“Okay.”

I let out a long breath then I closed my eyes, I could feel a stirring in me and I could tell it was my wolf, Silver, I could feel the excitement, the excitement emanating from her. I spoke to her, called her by her name’

“Silver.” and for the first time ever, she spoke to me.

She called my name.

“Dawn.”

At that moment we felt like one, me and Silver, Silver and I. Then I began to feel a sharp pain as the transformation was happening then I remembered my first transformation and the pain I had felt but I could also hear Kieran's voice tearing through the cloud of pain, reaching me.

“The first few times always hurt. And it’s okay to feel it, just let it all out.”

And then I was in my wolf form and being it was so easy because we are one, it felt beautiful. Engrossed in my change I didn’t notice Kieran until I saw a familiar wolf walk in front of me, it was the wolf

Silver sniffed Kieran and kept making us walk around him, it seemed like we really liked Kieran and I did not mind it but from what I began to sense she seemed to be flirting with Kieran. She growled a bit and kept growling, I kept trying to keep her behavior under control but she was stubborn. I panicked and just like that everything went blank, next thing I know I open my eyes and I am in Kieran’s arms.

I closed my eyes again, it felt too blissful to be in his arms. Then it hit me that I was back to my human form and that meant I was naked.

“s**t!!” I shrieked as I jumped out of his arms and fell on the wet sand.

“Please calm down…”

“NO, I told you I am uncomfortable when I have no clothes on.” I snapped as I hurriedly dressed up and then walked to where the bike was parked.

I did not look at Kieran’s face when he joined me and got on the bike because I had no idea what I was going to see in his eyes, I just wanted to hide.

“Ready?” he asked.

“Yeah,” I muttered. Then we rode off, the ride back home was quiet. There was so much I wanted to say but I had no idea how to put the right words together so I just remained quiet till we got to the house.

After getting back from the beach, we got down from the bike and I gave Kieran the helmet I used and literally dashed into the house. Getting in, I saw May who offered me a nightcap which I declined before we said our goodnights. Walking into the room, I close the door behind me, then I leaned my back on the door, close my eyes and sigh. I was feeling very embarrassed because of how I had acted even though my wolf, Silver started it.

Taking off my clothes, I took a quick shower, maybe that would wash away all the embarrassment I was feeling at the moment. I could not control my wolf and that led to what happened, I have to do something fast or I was going to keep feeling inadequate. So far Kieran has been nice and considerate. Thinking of him gave me butterflies in my belly, I wonder if the crush I have on him, maybe the reason Silver acted the way she did? It was definitely the reason I acted the way I did. I was not a sad pitiful girl anymore, my experience in White moon pack is the reason why I need to fix up. I cannot go around acting like a naïve little school girl the first time a man gives me some attention, especially if the man is the Alpha who saved me.

After beating myself up for the way I had acted, I said a prayer to the goddess, and then I went to bed, hopefully, tomorrow would be a better day.

******

Kieran Arnell

After getting into the house, I met May and got an earful for not coming around for dinner and also a warning to not miss breakfast. After assuring her I was not going to miss breakfast and giving her a forced goodnight kiss on the cheek, I go to the bar, serve myself some white wine then went straight to the study. Comfortably seated in the chair I brood over the night I just had.

The night had ended in the most awkward way ever, I did not have experience with ladies like Dawn. I was used to experienced and sophisticated women who knew what to do, but she was different and the night had been an eye-opener for me. I did not want her feeling uncomfortable around me and I also did not want to force a connection between us so I was going to have to slow down.

She had a lot to learn and from what happened last night she was going to have to start her training and learning classes with someone other than me, I am thinking of Hera, she is my best bet. I chuckled as I remembered Dawn’s face the moment she realized she was naked and, in my arms, it had been chaos from that point. I felt guilt and frustration then because I had already hidden the fact that she is my mate and I could not even say the truth at that time because I did not want to look like a creep.

I know it will come to light eventually but for now, I am focused on her growth and her healing from her past experiences.