Blinded by love and Pain

Chapter 10: The Wedding

Zelda POV

It has been three months since I moved back to my home town ‘Haven rocks’, staying under my mother’s roof. I am unemployed, 5 months pregnant and I am dependent on my mother. I have been spending most of my time indoors trying to avoid the locals from gossiping about me. I can see the headline, ‘Zelda Brown a university graduate struggling to get a job, can’t keep a man and pregnant out of wedlock.’ My mom and most of the elderly people use to praise me and urged most of my peers to be like me. Now I am afraid to face the shame I have brought upon myself. I only go out when I have to go for prenatal care check. I make my mom drive 100 km to the next town ‘Montana.’ I honestly can’t face anyone, not yet anyways.

Every time I go for check-up, the gynaecologist always complains about my constant decrease in weight, saying it’s not good for the babies and I. She always refers me to a psychologist, but I continuously refuse. Yes I am depressed. I feel like I have no reason to live. More than once I considered killing myself but I could not. My babies deserve to live and I deserve a second chance in life. Other than that everything else regarding the fetus growth is going well. I won’t lie I dreaded going for my appointment because I feared bumping into someone I knew, worse, my belly was imposable to hide.

We were driving back home from my 5th month check-up, when my mom decided she had to make a quick stop. I tried to protest against it, but I lost. She pulled over and parked at the supermarket. She told me she won’t be long, she needed to buy a few things. She left the windows fully open and luckily she parked in a secluded area far from all the other cars. Immediately after my mom left, I decided to lean back on my seat and closed my eyes.

“Zee, is that you?” I opened my eyes to look at the person who called my name. I could not believe my eyes, it was Triston Grey, the last man I wanted to see me in this condition.  I forced a smile and replied. “Yes it’s me Triston, How are you?” he moved closer to my window and assessed me. “I am okay dear. What about you?” I looked down hoping he will walk away, but he waited for my response. “I am okay Triston. If you don’t mind please I would like to be alone. I am sure you came to buy some stuff here, so why don’t you run along now?” He smiled and said, “I see you still haven’t changed, by the way congratulations, I hope he is treating you well.” He was looking at my stomach. Tears started falling from my eyes without my permission. “Pregnancy hormones,” I said, before he could ask anything. “Yeah right!” He looked at his watch and was about to continue talking, but I beat him to it. “Yeah, it’s hard but I am managing.” “Look Zee, your mom told me what happened and I think the guy is a d**k. You are a catch and it’s a shame he did not see that. His loss.” I smiled feeling better hearing someone complimenting me after a long time. “If you are not busy on Sunday, will you allow me to take you out for dinner?” I know he was asking me because of pity, and probably my mom asked him to.  As if he read my mind, he answered the question I did not ask. “I am not asking you out because I pity you. No! We are friends and I would love to be there for you and your baby.  Plus we have not seen each other in a long time, it’s about time we catch up.” My mom responded for me, “She will join you for dinner Triston.” He gave him my new number and we all went our separate ways.

Nathan POV

It’s been three months since I last saw Zelda. I wonder if she is ok wherever she is. She changed her phone number and moved out of her place. I have been hoping to bump into her so I could apologize for everything I did and said to her but I have not been lucky. Ethan told me to forget about it and focus on Lilly who loves me dearly. But I can’t, I really miss her and sometimes I wish I meet her before Lilly. The way she wiggled her ass when my c**k was buried inside her, taking the whole of me without complaining and moaning my name in pleasure. I miss the lying on the bed with her joking around, cuddling while watching movies with her and mostly her cooking. “Uhm!” I signed when realized I was doing it again, thinking about her.

I will not lie I have been down and mostly snappy since she left, Lilly also noticed, but she thought it was work. She is always away, how will she know. We have not been intimate for three months, because I am always tired and I mostly left early for work before she woke up and I come back when she was already asleep. We only saw each other in my office when she came to discuss the wedding plans.

“Nathan its time, let’s go in.” Ethan snapped me out of my thoughts. We walked in the wedding venue and stood next to the pastor. I could not help but wonder if I really wanted to get married to Lilly or not. I have thought about breaking our engagement during the past three months but I could not do that to her. We have been through so much together and she has been nothing but a loving, honest, supportive and a dedicated partner. I can’t walk away from her because I think I might be in love with Zelda. Who knows maybe she moved on too.

The pastor cleared his throat, repeated what he was saying. “Do you Nathan Grey take Lilly Black to be your wife in sickness and in good health, through the ups and downs of life, till death do you apart?” I hesitated before I said,” I do!” When did Lilly come in, I was so lost in my thoughts I missed most of the stuff that happened. She looked really beautiful in her plain white princess dress. She made the dress look so different than its actual plan nature. Man this woman can turn a rag to a new fashion trend. As I looked at her and listened to her reciting her vows, I remembered why I feel in love with her. She was truly beautiful. I hoped we will have a happy marriage.

The reception was great, our family and friends wished us the best. Lilly and I danced to our favorite song ‘Thinking out loud by Ed Sheeran.’ My mom and dad were so happy, I had never seen them this happy before. My sister Lucy on the other hand was looking around for a potential husband from my business associate. Somethings never change hey. My younger brother could not make it. I never bothered asking why, we were not really on good terms. We only meet during Christmas for a family lunch. Other than that we did not bother speaking to each other. We left early so we could catch our fight for our honey moon.