Loving the Obsession

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I came home from training when I heard a noise in my parents room. I'm not the type that loves to eavesdrop but there's something with the noise that I want to see. Their room is usually noisy but at night, not in the middle of the day. Well, they are a lovely couple so it's normal to do what couples do, despite our status.

I walked without a noise and peek in the hole. Enough to see what's happening inside. And what I saw enough to make me lifeless and shattered.

There I saw my otousan's body, lifeless body lying to the pool of his blood. There's a sword pierced rigt through his heart, eyes open towards his lover. And I knew that he cried because of his tear stained face.

My okaasan is screaming for her life but never heard because a cloth is put in her mouth. Ojisan is above her pounding really hard and fast, that I feel the pain my okaasan is feeling.

I covered my mouth to keep the sob to my self. I'm just watching her slowly dying from her hope of getting help. The dignity and grace she longed held. It's all vanished from her beautiful and magnificent eyes. A once beautiful and majestic, woman, wife, and mother, is now hopeless and lifeless.

I look around to shout for some help but nobody is here.

Which is coincidentally, no one is here.

Then, I saw it. He stabbed her using his sword. Right where her heart is place, just how my father was stabbed. They both die in the same way. And i thought maybe it's better he killed her after what he did. I don't want to prolonged the pain and agony my mother felt. I am already old enough to handle myself. But my young heart still ask and need a parents, despite my rational mind accepting everything. My young heart aches from the sudden loss of my parents. At this exact day.

I heard before, ojisan has feelings for okaasan but she loved my otousan more than anything. That she's over the moon, when they knew she's carrying me. The fruit of my otousan and okaasan's love. Then, later on they got married.

That's where all started.

Ever since I was born, my ojisan's hatred, envy, and jealousy, grow more as years passed. He was and he is still consumed by it.

I didn't live the life I am supposed to be. Instead, I live in a hellish life.

My happiness is taken away from me when I was just six years old.

Years had passed, and I'm now sixteen years old. I no longer celebrate mg birthday since their death.

It's my birthday today actually. And I'm mourning instead of celebrating. The day they were killed is the exact day of my birthday.

June 19th.

Inside the room of my parents, where I choose to be my room. I celebrate my 16th birthday.

It's been 10 years, but what happened that day is still vivid on my mind like it happened just yesterday.

Cold air hit my face. After hours of crying I decided to go to sleep.

Couple of hours later, my mind woke up but I didn't open my eyes.

I felt a hand touching me everywhere. I don't like it. Slowly, I open my eyes. I looked at the window, it's still dark.

And I c****d my head towards the person who's keep on touching me. And I felt like air has left my lungs.

There I saw my ojisan, kissing my private parts. His hands is sliding up and down to my legs. He didn't notice that I'm awake. He just keep on kissing my private parts. And he smells alcohol.

He's drunk.

I don't like the feeling of his mouth in my p***y. It's disgusting. And what's more shocking is I'm naked.

What the fvcked!

I kick his neck and strangle him to death. But even though he's drunk he's still strong. He got away from my hold and punch me in my stomach.

The pain makes me weak especially I'm still fragile because I'm mourning just a few hours ago.

He climbed on top of me. Holding my two hands above my head. He attack my lips and kiss me roughly. Then drop to my jaw and neck, then to my breast.

I feel so dirty. The man whom I got to know as my uncle. The same man who killed my dad. The man who abused my mother. Is the same man who assaulted and molested me.

A sob escape my lips. Getting louder each second.

After he heard it, he got off my top and walk away. I chanted thank you many times to the God who helped me.

After that night, I trained so hard. Aiming the goal of becoming the strongest woman in this clan. Because of that night that drove me to become stronger.

And I thought that wouldn't happen again. But I was wrong.

That keeps on happening to the nights I didn't expect. That I became wary every night. But when I turned 18 and he almost succeeded, just an inch away and he was able to enter his dirty manhood inside me. So f*****g disgusting!

That night, I thought of killing him to give justice to my parents but that's an easy way out. I want him to suffer beyond what he did to my parents. Nobody knew, I was there. I witness it all.

I did what I thought was good at that moment. I fought him back with all my might. But I'm no match. So, I just knock him off.

I attacked his neck to make him collapse and put a poison in his mouth to paralyzed him.

I packed all my important belongings and get some of the golds in the hidden vault that only me, my parents and ojiisan knows.

I get 10 pieces of gold bars and put it in my bag. Maybe this is enough to fend myself until I get a job.

I said goodbye to my grandfather and told him that I love him so much. And I need to do this. But I will be back soon. I'll get whatever belongs to me.

I'll just let him experience how does it feel to be on top. I don't have anything to be worried about. My parents already do what is needed to do the moment I was born because they knew in the future something like this will happen.

And uncle can't use grandfather because he make him retard accidentally. I already bonded with my grandfather long time ago. Making our time together worthwhile and enough to cherish those memories of us together. I won't have any regrets.

And with that I runaway home. And face the cruel world, all by my self.

I came back to my senses when I heard a car sound behind me. That's when I knew the lights turn green and I'm blocking the way.

I drove off fast not knowing where I am. I just stop when I saw a bar, again.

I'm still in the city though.

In a broad daylight I entered the bar. It's not that crowded since it's still early. I haven't even got home to atleast take a bath and change my clothing. I don't care.

And i think, it's my advantage. Nobody would dare come near me because I stink. But I'm not really since I washed up earlier in Kratos' place.

I guess it's another day of wasting my self. I'm fvcked up anyway. I had been, and always will be..

My promise to myself, to my parents, and to my ojiisan hasn't yet done. But I'm still keeping it to my self. One day. I'll make it. I will succeed it. I will kill the f*****g bastard that destroys me.

When everything is ready and complete, so that no more way out for him. He's enjoying his position so much. Thinking that I no longer going home.

I sat on the stool in the counter and order shots of tequila.

The bartender has a shock looked on her face. Maybe she didn't expect a woman to be drunk in a broad daylight. Nevertheless, she still gave me my order.

And i drink it right away. Shot after shot. Until I felt dizzy but I keep on drinking. Not minding my surroundings.

It's just once in a while. I want to be free from everything.