How Should I Love You

Life was so cruel to me to ended up being an orphan and not just any orphan but also a poor orphan that only live only on street.Out of all street i was lived on a slum were violence are legal. I tried to survive hoping that the world still have mercy on me and i can live a more stable life if i tried my best.But life is really cruel and tried its very best to f****d me so hard. I tried my best by stealing food working on abusive in just for a single piece of bread. As day pass by i started questioning myself on why do i still keep fighting? What reason does i hold to keep fighting? Day by day i always question my reasons until i reach my breaking point. My Blue ocean eyes started to lose its life and replaced with deep lifeless ocean. Not until i met you.... You color my lifeless life and started to give me reasons. I taught it was the beginning of the dreams i recklessly hoped. I taught it was the turning point of my life. But all of it was still a reckless dream. I snapped... Those blue ocean started to lose its color again. Again it sink,deepest than before. I sat by the window holding my tummy wether i should let my little angel stop from living in this hellish world.