Madison I felt sick. So sick to my stomach. I didn't know if I just drank too much, although I could have sworn I didn't. Or if I was just nervous. I wiped my mouth, flushed the toilet, and turned to the sink. My mind was racing. I had been keeping my eyes on the time the whole night. I was having fun, but my anxiety was not letting me enjoy every aspect of this stupid party. It was Evie's idea. She wanted the party. She wanted matching dresses in different colors. She wanted the spectacle and I went along with it. But I felt like...like I would have preferred to sit at the stream with Wyatt and Ronan, talking and joking around. I would have preferred not having so many people around just in case things didn't go the way we wanted them to. I snuck away from Wyatt, Ronan, and Evie a

