Nine
1322 Words
' I'm scared Oliver. I'm terrified if this goes wrong I don't want to lose you all you've been my everything through my lonely life and I don't think I'd cope if this came in-between the family ' Eloise wouldn't look at him, she felt a painful lump in her throat and she stopped talking through fear he'd be able to tell she was about to cry. As much as she'd like to think he didn't notice, tears had began to fall down her cheeks slowly. She tried to avoid drawing attention to them hoping he hadn't noticed but of course he did.
' I completely understand and I feel the same way ' he paused and she felt as though she could just die from the pain right there.
' the only issue with that is Eloise, I've always wanted you and it's always been you. I don't think I could easily let you go now that I've felt what it would be like to be with you. And I've never felt happier. I don't plan on things going wrong for us '
Eloise looked up with teary eyes completely shocked by his admission to her so honestly.
' I mean it Eloise, I've wanted you for so long but for the same reasons you said I've held back. I don't want to any more. Every time you're gone I'm miserable and that was before I even knew just how perfect it would be to be with you. I don't want it to stop, ever. '
Eloise couldn't help but cry some more.
Oliver held her lovingly.
He hated seeing her cry his heart broke. He didn't know what the tears were for he wanted to know but thought he didn't want to make it worse so he held her until she wanted to speak.
Finally Eloise wiped her face and pulled away and said ' I'm so sorry I don't usually cry. I never thought you would ever say that to me. And I didn't think this had meant the same things to you too. I just thought you were making the most of the situation to be honest ' she sat for a second before continuing but then she heard that horrid voice. that's because he is you silly girl how could he ever be serious about you. HA he's just bored and wants to sleep with you again.
Her heart broke at the words she heard.
' how could you ever feel like that about me Oliver? I can't deal with heartbreak from this situation and if you're just lying to sleep with me again Oliver then you're a very cruel man '
Oliver was completely shocked and hurt she would think that after all these years.
Eloise was confused.
She wanted so badly for it all to be true but she couldn't help believing what that horrid voice said to her. It had been putting her down for so long she truly believed she was disgusting and unlovable. But she could see the hurt in his eyes once she'd said this and it didn't seem like a thing Oliver would do.
' Eloise why would you think such a thing? I thought you knew me better than that ' he looked sad now and Eloise sat and thought for a moment.
Maybe I should tell him about the voice...
Go ahead you silly b***h yet another thing everyone can laugh at you for.
' what are you thinking ' Oliver broke the uncomfortable silence.
' I don't know if I should tell you..' Eloise whispered
' you can tell me anything I promise '
Eloise felt so heavy in her chest she just blurted ' the voice tells me that's what you think of me I can't help but believe it '
Oliver was shocked and concerned. Why did she believe this voice so easily. What voice does she hear?
' I meant every word my angel. When have I ever lied to you? I've liked you since we were little I've wanted to be with you for so long you are the perfect woman for me '
before the voice could disturb her happiness again Eloise leaped at him kissing him.
Oliver almost fell but managed to just save them.
He was so happy she believed him and carried her into the bedroom where he could worship ever inch of her beautiful body. They passionately made love then roughly f****d then went back to making love.
They did every position they could think of doing and they just enjoyed being the closest they could possibly be until they were both completely worn out and went to sleep in each others arms.
The woke up the next morning sore from the passion from the night before. Oliver couldn't help but kids her neck and inhale her sweet scent he didn't ever want to move.
He'd accidentally woken her up with his kisses ' I'm sorry did I wake you ' he said upon noticing.
' yeah but it's the best way to be woken up ' she said as she turned to face him with the biggest smile she'd ever had.
He gently pushed her soft long hair behind her ear and kissed her lips.
' you are so beautiful ' he whispered
' no, you, my good sir, are the beautiful one '
Oliver chuckled and smiled and cheeky smile and said ' you are the most beautiful person that's ever existed ' then before she could argue he kissed her passionately.
After a long time of their kiss they finally stopped and Eloise laughed saying ' that was cheeky '
Oliver laughed and pecked her.
The thoughts of their conversation the night before came into his mind.
' can I ask you something about what you said last night? I understand if you don't want to talk about it though '
She felt her heart sink as she heard him say these words
Told you he only wants to sleep with you. You're a filthy little slut.
He could see the sadness in her eyes and quickly said
' you said about a voice you hear... why were you so quick to believe what it said? what else does it say? ' he didn't want to prod too much and upset her.
She was relieved when she heard that he wasn't going to confirm what the voice was saying to her.
' yeah.. I don't know why it's there but it just tells me things I dunno. It seems whenever I start to feel the slightest bit hopefully it slaps me in the face with harsh reality. reminding me of how disgusting I am and what a joke I am. I feel like I need the voice sometimes so I don't get my hopes up about things in life and make a joke of myself but it can be upsetting . it seems to enjoy the pleasure of reminding me '
Now you've done it he's laughing at you he's sat there and agreeing with me
Olivers heart broke a little knowing that she didn't see her full value. She didn't see just how precious she is. The silence was too long for Eloise and she began to believe the voice again.
' I'm sorry it's taken so long for me to say something. I'm just shocked you don't see how beautiful you are. You deserve the world and more you have a beautiful soul and a beautiful body. There's not one thing I can say that's negative about you. That disgusting voice on the other hand needs to piss off and stop lying to you. because that's all it does not one thing it says is true ' He kissed her on the lips again. He decided that he was going to replace that voice in her head and show her that she's perfect
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