My Mystery Man

Lost Ship

Still standing there wrapped in his towel and shocked to my bones, trying to make sense of what TED just blurted out to me.. 

TED rises to his feet after a moment of pondering and walks back up to me.. taking my hands and leading me to the bed to sit while he holds my hands in his.. 

“Baby”.. he starts.. I’m deeply sorry you had to find out this way.. I was going to tell you all about this.. But not under these circumstances”.. 

“We are just just getting to know each other even more and I just wanted us to have a great time before opening up to you a little later.. 

“You still haven’t answered me” I tell him coldly” What exactly are those medications for? I ask again looking down at my feet.. 

“Baby please look at me.. he pleads, I’m truly sorry for leading you on like this.. it was insensitive of me.. and I take all responsibility.. I’m so sorry.. 

“I have been diagnosed with Blood Cancer.. I’m a Leukemia patient.. and it’s at rather chronic stage.. I’m so sorry.. but I’m dying baby”.. I have developed these complications from infections and they are slowly doing damages.. 

“I need you now by my side more than ever.. please” he says squeezing my hands.. 

I just try to seem and act normal and not be weighed down by some of the enormous symptoms I have been getting as the day passes by.. 

I’m trying to stay strong for you. For everyone that’s looking up to me” But it’s really hard.. 

I look up at him not able to make sense of what he was telling me.. streaks of tears roll down my eyes as I take a good look at him.. and notice his paleness as well as the sadness in his eyes” 

“Lilian.. he continues.. ordinarily, the condition was being managed for years. But along the line.. I started getting series of infections and growing symptoms from complications  that’s made it difficult to manage.. right now it’s life threatening and my doctors are sacred I may not make it till the next one year.. 

How could this be real? I think to my self? 

He bend his head over in an attempt to hide his tears but I lift his head to meet my gaze.. 

“Are you telling me the truth TED” I ask him.. 

“Yes”

“Yes” !! Iam! And this is particularly why I want you to have our baby.. at least before I go.. 

My heart sinks to my stomach as he says the words.. Before I go!??

“Are you for real” ? 

TED continues ignoring my confusion.. “I haven’t been able to commit to any woman after discovering this.. I have numerous women throwing their self at me but non of them apeal to me that much to have a family with..

My parents on the other hand have tried matchmaking me with friends daughters severally but it just crashes along the way. 

But you Lilian... first of all.. meeting you wasn’t planned but you someone managed to take up all the special parts of my heart.. up till this moment.. I’m content with you and without a doubt I know I want a child with you..I want you to raise my child.. if I eventually have one..  I want you to hold a piece of me.. a child from my loins that you will keep forever... please! 

I love you so much Lilian” 

I’m trying to understand all he’s saying but I’m too broken by the sudden discovery to even think rationally.. I let my emotions get the better of me instead.. 

“No you don’t! I fire back at him!!! As I stand to my feet! As a matter of fact you are a terrible person for consciously putting  me in this situation.. 

Why didn’t you tell me all about this first and give me a chance to make a decision? To walk into this consciously? Why would you burden me with the realty of your illness and possible death if you say you love me?  

Why would you do this to me TED? why would you come into my life and have me fall miserably for you only to tell me months later that you are actually dying??? 

At this point a steam of tears was flowing down my cheek.. I was overcome by my emotions.. I didn’t see all of this coming at all hence, I was at a loss of how to handle the situation.. 

TED stands up and tried to touch me but I move away!! 

I feel hurt and angry! Without giving him another chance to say another word about him dying .. I grab my suitcase and packs my things.. change into a pair of jeans and shirt and storm out.. 

He tried to stop me but he lost grip of me.. 

Nick and the security tried to stop me yet again but after calling TED, they reluctantly let me leave..

I ran out the gates with no destination in mind... With a Pang if Pain in my gut.. feeling a strong lump in my chest... I walk down the long distance out of the estate crying before finding a cab outside the estate.. 

“Please take me to the airport” I tell the cab driver which a shaky voice.. 

“Are you okay ma’am”? The driver asks.. looking concerned.. 

“Iam fine thank you, I just want to go home” I say back to him as I begin to cry even more..