My Mystery Man

Fatal Faith

As the Physician approach the Intensive care unit where TED is being monitored and receiving invasive treatment and a more close observation.. I follow directly behind him, he gives the security a nod and he steps away from the entrance making was for us to go in.. When I’m inside the unit, The sight and sounds from all the equipment over TED make me shrink with fear.. I walk slowly and towards TED and when I look at him; I’m stunned.. I can barely recognize him... 

He looked pale, there were slight changes in his skin and nails. his hair looked slightly scanty and he laid lifeless with a ventilator over his nose on the hospital bed.. Having flashes of how healthy TED looked Just weeks ago compared to what I was seeing now almost made my chest burst from so much pain.. I put my hands over my mouth tightly unable to contain my emotions much further as I cried silently.. Looking at him once again I feel my heart swell with o much love for this man.. in that moment, I realized how much I really loved and wanted him back on his feet.. Not able to stand seeing him so helpless.. I feel weak and sick to my stomach and all of the nausea come flooding back on me.. i manage to touch him softly and call out to him.. 

“TED” “Baby I whisper silently.. please stay with me.. please.. I squeeze his hands gently while shutting my eyes not letting go of  his hands.. crying as I said a mutter a prayer from my heart.. Begging God to spare his life for me.  Unable to contain the nausea I was feeling, I feel the sudden urge to throw up.. running to the bathroom and depositing all I have been trying to keep in. I pant rigorously while trying to get it all out of my throat.. feeling terribly sick instantly..I manage to put my self together and walk out..The Doctor looks at me questionably and asks if I’m okay.. “I-am fine.. thanks.. I just feel overwhelmed seeing him like this..  Freeda brought me out of the IUC when I couldn’t stop crying. She was hugging me as I cried in her chest.. she just held my hands saying nothing and stroking my hair gently while trying hard not to cry as she pacified me. 

After following the Physician back into his office and getting a load down of information regarding TEDs health situation; he advices me to take it easy and get some rest assuring me that they are doing their best to make sure he recovers successfully. Afterwards, Freeda suggested we head to the cafeteria to have some snack and I obliged. Getting there and settling in a seat..I take a bite of the snack I ordered and my whole body flushed at once.. I felt nauseated and light headed.. running off to find the nearest convenience  to throw up yet again.. as I washed my face it hit me suddenly that I hadn’t gotten my monthly period in weeks.. my eyes go wide as I look my self closely in the mirror.. “could I be pregnant or just suffering from pent up stress?” I ask my self unsure of what to think..”but I used the pills judiciously, I think.. pushing away the thoughts and setting for the later option.. it’s definitely stress I say to my self as I step outside to meet Freeda. 

“Are you sure you are alright Li? You look really pale and flushed .. why don’t we use this opportunity to run some tests since we are already in a hospital” she suggests. But I dislodge the idea immediately she says it.. “We are here for TED okay.. let’s not make this about me please.. I’m sure I’m just stressed and overwhelmed by all events happening all at once.. I’ll attend to myself once we are back home” I conclude walking past her and heading back to the cafeteria.