my kind of crazy book two of fighting the mate bond mafia series

Why her and not me? 46

Chapter 46

Rida's POV

I couldn’t believe this. They had the fu*king ceremony, and I wasn't there. I was watching it on my phone; a friend of mine recorded it while I was in another pack. He decided to do this sh*t while I was gone because he knew I would have stopped it. That son of a bi*th. Alright, I can play this game. He will have no choice but to pick me once I beat her down at the battle arena. Once the arena opens, I'm going to be the first one. Wait, s**t, they are going to call people up to challenge whoever they want to challenge. I need to put my name in there. I stopped the recording, went on the pack site, signed my name, and clicked on enter. There was no way he could tell me I could not join. We had two months to go, and we are leaving Friday. I had already packed everything up, even brought my dresser and my bed to the living room so they don't have to go downstairs. I had packed everything but two days of clothes I will need. I was coming back today. The ride will only take an hour to get back home, and the celebration should be dying down by the time I get there. I can't believe he would do this. He even told me he didn't want another mate. Then why her and not me? Why did he choose her? I was there first. I was there when all of that happened. I am the one that found him in his room on his knees, crying because of that bi*ch who had hurt him. I am the one who nursed him back to health while he was trying to die. And what do I get? A kick in the damn fu*king face. I am going to confront him about this, and he better have a damn good reason. The drive back home was faster than I thought. I guess I was driving faster than I thought. I parked the car and got out. When Jenni saw me, she came running over.

"Did you watch the video? I was shocked at how beautiful she looked. Everyone cheered. They all accepted her as their Luna. What are you going to do now? You can't fight this, Rida. This is going to destroy you if you try." I didn't want to hear her talk anymore. I shoved past her and walked into the pack house. I didn't care if she was in the office with him or not. I'm going to say what I need to say. I'm done hiding my feelings.

"This is a bad idea, Rida. He has a mate now. You can't mess with that," my wolf had said.

"Watch me. Watch me walk in there and say what I need to say." I blocked her out and stormed into his office. I was right; she was in there with him, and they were talking about the move. I slammed the door shut, and they both jumped at the noise.

"Rida, what the h*ll are you doing? You just can't walk in here like this and slam my damn office door. Are you fu*king crazy?" Before I even knew what I was saying, I was yelling at him. I didn't care if she was here or not. I couldn't hold it back any longer.

Shut up, just shut the f*ck up and listen to me. Why her? Why? When you just wanted to die, who was there for you, who found you on your fu*king knees crying your eyes out for that bit*h, who nursed you back to health to keep you alive, who was there at night listening to you talk about the love you had for her and what she had done to you, who was there trying to keep you from killing yourself. You told me over and over again that you did not want a mate; you bedded me over and over again. I was there for you, I WAS!! Why her? Why of all people Her? She's from the fuc*king mafia for crying out loud. I was here first, Cole. I was there for you first, and you picked that bi*ch. I knew I was crying. I fu*king loved him, and he did this to me. I was supposed to be Luna, not her. I knew I fell to my knees crying, but I didn't care. This was my last time trying to get him to pick me. I was looking at both of them but more at him. Then, at him, I asked again, "Why her, Cole, why? Why not me? I was here all along, waiting for you to pick me to be with you, but instead, you picked her." Walking over to me, he held my hands, picking me up off the floor. I thought he was going to hold me, pick me, tell me he loved me, but I was wrong. He was gentle while he said it, but it still hurt like h*ll.

Rida, she is my goddess-gifted mate. I know you were there for me through it all. You're the one who told me she was cheating, and I had to find out on my own. I'm thankful for everything you have done for me. I'm thankful you kept me alive through it all. But I don't love you that way; I'm sorry, but I don't. I'm sorry that I bedded you the way I did, but I was lonely, and you were there for me. One day, you will find your mate, and you will understand how I feel. I love Rachel; she is my mate. We have marked and mated. I know you have slept with other people around the pack. You need to fix that; you need to stop sleeping around and save yourself for your mate. Yes, I've known all along about that, but for your own good, you need to clean up and wait for him. But I'm not it; I never was that person for you, and I think you know this. I cleaned my face from my tears; he did not deserve to see my tears. Jerking my hands from his, I said,

"I will move with the pack, but when she turns out the same way that bi**tch did, don't come crying to me. I'm done with you." I left the office; I didn't want to hear any more of what he had to say to me. The game is on, and we only have two months to go.