An Alpha's Rejection

Chapter 5

Unable to move, tears streaming down my face, I look to Mom as she runs to me and wraps her arms around me,

“Oh, Honey I’m so, so sorry” she tries to comfort me,

“Why Mom, why am I not good enough, he isn’t the Zach I remember, he….” I broke and couldn’t say any more, tonight couldn’t get any worse or so I thought,

Mom helps me up off the floor, she looks torn and I thought it was to do with the fact I was just rejected by my so-called Mate,

“Mom what’s wrong? I asked her concerned,

“Honey there is something I need to tell you, let’s sit….” she motioned us to take a seat on the edge of the fountain, she continues,

“…. I’m not going to lie to you anymore, I never wanted to tell you...” she sighs, now I’m scared.

“Tell me what Mom?” I stare at her bewildered,

“.. I wanted to keep it a secret but the older you were getting the harder it became to keep it, but with your wolf coming earlier than anticipated and her having purple eyes, I can’t hide it anymore” she sighed,

“Mom what secrete?” I’m now getting irritated but I’m already exhausted,

“As you already know I’m from the Moon Valley Pack but I wasn’t just any pack member, I was the forma Alphas daughter, both you and Levi have Alpha blood in your veins…..” she stops a moment, I’m now slightly confused as to why it was a secret, so what if she was an Alphas daughter that doesn't explain anything to do with my wolf, but as fate would have it, she answered my question before I could voice I out loud.

“….. but you are different….” she smiled weakly at me,

“I know I am Mom, I’m the weakest pack mem....” she cuts me off before I could finish my sentence,

“Honey let me finish explaining…. you are different from your brother too, I stopped you from training and shifting so no one else would know you were different, and it's because your Dad, Ian the man that raised you as his own, isn’t your father” she said looking me dead in the eyes,

I’m stunned unable to think, today started out as my 17th birthday I found my mate and he rejected me, and now finding out the man who I believe is my father my entire life isn’t,

“Is this some kind of sick joke, Mom who is my father?” I say, tears once again threatening to spill,

“Your father, your biological father is Alpha Roman of The Blood Moon pack, he was over here on Pack business Striking up an alliance with this pack, he was staying at a hotel just outside pack territory, Ian and I had an argument that night over something so stupid, I went out drinking in the city and your father was there, I don’t remember the rest of the night, the next morning I woke up in a bed next to him naked, guilt instantly kicked in, I knew your father would of felt everything, a few weeks later I found out I was pregnant, with you.” she finishes with tears flowing down her face I stare at her in disbelieve and shock.

Realisation kicks in my real father is the most beloved but most feared Alpha alive, Alpha Roman, I’ve heard stories of him that he’d go to great lengths to protect his pack, no matter the consequence, but never in my wildest dream would I think he was my Father but wait I’m an Alphas daughter!!!

“Who knows? Wait does Dad know I'm not his?” my voice barely a whisper,

“Yes, he does, Alpha Wyatt knows but he doesn't know who your biological father is, however it was Ian's idea to keep you, he wanted to bring you up as his own he loves you so much Honey” she says, I'm angry I’ve been lied to my entire life, I feel like I don't even know who I am.

“And Dad forgave you?” I say.

“He did honey, over time” she says hurt in her tone.

“And what about my real father, does he know I exist?” I demanded a reply, she looks at me and then looks at her hands where she’s holding a picture of a man, I didn’t even see her pull it out,

“He does Honey, he’s been waiting for me to tell you who you really are, so he can meet you, I’ve sent him pictures of you as you got older, so he knows what's happening in your life…. This is a picture of him, he made me keep it to give to you when you were old enough” she says passing me a photo of him, I can see a tear drop on it from Mom.

I take a good look at the man and I’m instantly taken back by how much I look like him, my tears have now spilled and run like rivers down my cheeks, ‘this is all too much, I need some time out, I’ve got to get out of here not just the pack house but the pack’ I think to myself; I still can hear Alex whimper from Zach,

“I’m sorry Mom, I need to leave, I can’t stay here anymore, everything is just too much to take in one go” I say raising my voice slightly, so it doesn’t crack, she instantly grabs my hands.

“Honey please forgive me, I’m sorry I lied to you, I did it to protect you.” she pleaded.

“You did it to protect me! you did it to protect yourself” I shouted at her, I see the hurt instantly in her eyes and I instantly regret shouting at her, I take a deep breath and move to hold her,

“I love you Mom…...but right now I can’t forgive you, you’ve hidden a massive part of who I am, you’ve hidden my father from me, I have a right to know him, he had the right to know me" I sigh,

"Right now, I need to leave I need space, but I’m not leaving solely because of you Mom, so please don’t blame yourself” I say hugging her, I can feel my shoulder getting wet from her silent tears,

“Too much has happened too quickly, I need to figure out who I am, but I’ll be back one day I promise you, and things will be easier, and everything will be better for it” I pull back so I can see her face, I give her a reassuring smile.

She cries harder and I hug her tighter this time, I know this will be the last time in a long time that I'll be able to hug my Mom,

When I pull away I look towards the double doors, I see my brother and father standing there, I have no idea how long they've been standing there or what they've heard, but I couldn’t face them right now, I turn back towards Mom, I take off my necklace and place into her hand closing it up as saying a silent goodbye, with that I turn and look towards Levi and Dad then mouthed “I'm sorry” I start to run instantly and run as far as fast as I can.

I hear Levi shouting my name and his footsteps behind, hearing the pain in his voice as he calls me out hurts, but he is unable to catch up, it turns out I’m a lot faster,

I make it back to the house, I slam the front door open and bolted straight up the stairs to my room, I open my wardrobe and grab a bunch of clothes and underwear,

I grab a duffel bag from under my bed and packed it with my clothes and any essentials, I grab my phone and charger, and then it occurred to me that I need to tell the twins, I couldn’t leave without giving them an explanation, I text Vincent and sienna in our group chat,

“Hey guys, I’m so sorry this is abrupt but I’m leaving, I can’t stay I need to get out of here, I can't explain why right now I've just got to go xx”

“Wait what?!!  You're not going anywhere without us, something is clearly wrong, we'll leave with you Em, wait for us at the east boarder xx” sienna replied.

“No, you guys stay here, I can't let my life choices affect your lives too xx” I message back,

“Not a chance Sweetheart, we’re already on way back to get our stuff, meet us at the border in 30 minutes we’ll be waiting xx” Vincent messaged.

I smiled at my phone, I couldn’t ask for better people to be my closest friends.

I quickly change into something more comfortable, I grab my bag and throw it over my shoulder, I take one last look around my room, I couldn't help but feel my emotions wash over me, happiness of all the memories this home has given me and sadness that some of them were lies.

After being lost in my thought for a few minutes, I walked to the door of my bedroom ready to leave, when I heard the front door slam open with some force, I’m not too sure if it even came of the hinges,

A deep growl followed shaking the walls and doors throughout the house, that growl can’t be mistaken for anyone else, it belonged to our Mate,

“EMILY PUGH GET YOUR A*S DOWN HERE RIGHT NOW” Zach shouts out frustration evident in his tone, I stay completely still and silent ‘what could he possibly want now!’ rolling my eyes, then he whispers,

“I know you’re here I can smell your sweet scent Emily” if I wasn't a werewolf with super hearing, I wouldn't have caught it.

‘Em go to him maybe he wants us, maybe Axel talked some sense into him” my wolf cries out with hope dripping on every word,

‘Not a chance, I’m sorry Alex but he ripped our heart out tonight’ I answer back to her in my mind knowing this is tearing her apart, just like it is me.

I look towards the window, I tiptoe forward and start to climb out, when the scent of cinnamon and fresh rain hits my nostrils, my wolf edging forward fighting to take over, but not this time I need to be stronger. I look back and instantly regretted it, there he stood in my bedroom doorway.

“Don’t you dare leave out that window!” he says through gritted teeth, I laugh at him sadistically,

“What do you care, you just rejected me, so what?! you realise I have a wolf and now you want me, well f*ck you Zachary, it doesn’t work like that” I shout at him,

“Watch how you speak to me Emily, I am officially your Alpha as of tonight, or did you forget” he spits out, his comment pushes me over the edge, a switch was flicked inside of me. And I growled at him with power behind it, power I’ve never felt before, the look in his eyes was priceless, there appeared to be surprise, anger and something else I couldn’t quite put my finger on.

“Well, I better correct that then…. I Emily Veronica P….”

“Emily STOP” he tried to interrupt.

“…. Pugh hereby renounce the Blue Moon Pack and you as my A…….”

“EMILY DO NOT DO THIS” he tries again loader this time,

“ALPHA, I ALSO RENOUNCE MY RIGHT TO BE YOUR LUNA AND FROM MIDNIGHT TONIGHT FORTH WILL BE KNOWN AS A ROGUE” I shouted louder over him, I can see hurt in his eye, but I don’t understand why, this is what he wanted!

“Emily.…. you have no idea what you’ve just done” he starts to come towards me, and I see him reach out, but he was a split second to late, I drop from the window and run as fast as I can down the footpath behind my house towards the waterfall, without looking back,

I keep running like my life depends on it, 15 minutes later I reach the edge of pack territory, I can see Sienna and Vincent there already waiting for me,

I run straight into sienna’s arms and let myself cry but not allowing myself to fall apart just yet,

“We don't need to know your reasons now, but are you sure about this sweetheart?” Vincent asks.

I stop and look back one more time, I take a deep breath and nod,

“I need to do this” I take a deep breath and step over the pack boarder, I feel all my ties and connection to the pack snap and break away with in seconds, if I wasn't already hurting and feeling numb from today’s events, it would have hurt like hell, but I had nothing left to feel.

“It’s too late now” I reply, tears streaming down my face again, some sad some of relief, they both hug me tight, the howls of wolves echoed all around at the loss of not just one but three pack members, but for me there was one howl that stood out more than all, it was Zach’s howl.

We started walking to the car on the other side of the tree line Vincent had lucky brought his car with him, I’m completely exhausted, I didn't think as to how I was going to leave; just that I was leaving, he opens the door, takes my bag off me and I get in the back so I can lie down,

Sienna gets in the front passenger seat and turns around to keep an eye on me, while Vince puts my bag in the trunk with their luggage, he gets in and starts the engine.

“Where do you want to go Sweetheart?” he queries,

“I don't know, anywhere I guess, as long as it’s far away from here” I reply feeling defeated, without a reply he nods and starts to drive, I have no idea where we’re going nor do I care, anywhere has got to be better than here, I start closing my eyes feeling a wave of tiredness hits me, today has finally taken its toll on me, I lay down in the backseat and close my eyes, with that silence and darkness consumes me.