I hate that I love him

I’m hopeful for now

After the success of Friday nights meal Aiden and I are talking regularly and its a breath of fresh air.

He hasn’t attempted to touch me or kiss me and I’m very grateful to him for that, although at times I want to launch myself at him and make love to him so badly.

We arrange a movie night at my apartment because Olivia still wont move out and is dragging the divorce on for as long as she possibly can.

So for now he comes to see me on my own territory.

Jenny has been wonderful with everything, giving us space when he calls by to talk.

Lady Jeffries has also called by and offered me some design work for a friend of hers who is getting married, of corse I jump at the idea but I tell her without meeting the bride I wont know what she likes.

We arrange to visit her next weekend and I agree.

Aiden has bought snacks and two bottles of wine for our movie night and I cant help but feel nervous.

I think because we have come so far in the last two weeks I don’t want it to fail.

We decide to watch a horror, not my choosing but then I think Aiden chose it on purpose so that if I get scared I will have to cuddle up to him.

We open some wine and put the snacks in a bowl, so very normal but I like it.

He sits on one end of the couch and I sit on the other, like teenagers on a first date who are afraid to get too close.

A scary part come on making me jump and hide my face behind a cushion.

Aiden laughs and I hit his arm telling him its not funny.

“Why don’t you come and sit next to me” he says looking so sexy with his arm resting on the back of the couch.

I look at him for a second and contemplate saying no, but when the creepy music starts again I quickly slide over to him and lean on his chest.

He keeps his arm on the back of the couch and only when the scary part makes me jump again does he grab me around the back of my neck making me scream.

I hit out at him playfully and he catches my arm making the air in the room shift,

I swallow hard and pull my hand away with a weak smile.

“You know your going to have to let me touch you at some point” he says sounding so cool.

“I do not” I reply with a teasing look on my face.

“In fact I may never let you touch me again” I say not meaning a single word of it.

“Now that I would love to see” he laughs as the movie comes to an end.

I spin around to face him.

“You could touch me now and it would have no effect on me what so ever” I smile but then regret what I said because if he touches me now its game over.

“Be careful what you wish for Demi” he replies in a dark tone with his face full of desire.

“Well lets get cleaned up shall we” I say breaking his gaze and standing up.

He grabs my hand and holds it for a moment.

“Aiden please” I cry in a very low voice but I don’t move.

He stands and is pressed against my back.

“Please what Demi” he whispers with his lips brushing my ear and his hands stroking my arms from my elbows to my shoulders.

He is so close I could turn my head and I could kiss him.

I step forward away from him breaking the intense moment.

“We should clean up” I say again all flustered and feeling the head between my legs.

“I can think of something else we could do” he replies making me turn to face him.

“Oh I don’t think so Mr Jeffries” I tease stepping back away from him.

“I could always force you” he smiles stepping towards me, and I know this to be true because he has done it on so meny occasions.

“You wouldn’t dare” I say stepping back again, but I regret the words as soon as I have said them.

“You know I love a good dare Demi” he says stepping closer to me and making me bite my bottom lip.

“Well you would have to catch me first” I say quickly before turning and running to my room.

I slam the door with a bang and run to the other side of my bed.

He opens the door as I reach the side of the bed furthest away.

“Aiden please it was a joke” I say thinking how this could all go wrong.

He smiles a wicked smile and begins to undo his shirt.

I stand rooted to the spot, watching him slowly take off his shirt has me mesmerised.

He runs for me where I stand and I scream in fright, yelling at him to stop because I didn’t mean to wind him up.

I scramble across my bed but he has caught my ankle spinning me over and pulling me towards him.

I wiggle my legs making it difficult fo him to keep his grip.

“Aiden please” I cry hating the fact that I’m so turned on.

“I love it when you beg” he says pulling down my leggings and climbing on top of me.

I push and push with all my might to get him off me but he is just too strong.

He whips my top off over my head and when he sees I have no bra on he smiles.

“Well now what do we have here Miss Monroe” he beams looking back up at me.

I feel my cheeks flush and curse myself for choosing not to wear a bra.

He takes my breasts in his warm mouth and sucks gently making me stop my struggling so hard.

“Aiden please” I beg again, but I know I’m begging for him to f**k me, its all Ive thought about all night.

He brings his mouth up to mine, and kisses me with all he has, his tongue stroking mine.

I moan into his mouth and all my worries and fears begins to fade.

He moves back down my body taking my breasts in his mouth again.

I squirm beneath him silently begging for him to put his mouth down there.

He looks up at me with that sexy smile.

“Tell me what you want Demi” he asks, and it takes me all of a second to tell him to put his mouth between my legs.

He smiles and moves slowly down my body, kissing and nibbling my sensitive skin as he goes.

He looks up at me one more time before he flicks his tongue over my sweet spot making me almost combust.

I cry out and grab his hair pulling on it like a savage beast.

He wraps his arms under my legs and grips my hips with his hands holding me firm.

I will never get enough of this feeling, the way he makes me feel.

“Aiden” I cry not being able to hold my orgasm in any longer.

He does not stop, so I explode on his lips letting the room fade away and my breathing becoming out of control.

He does not wait for my shaking to stop, instead he stands up and removes his pants letting me see him in all his glory.

He climbs between my legs and enters me with a greedy need that needs to be filled.

I cry out and dig my nails into his soft flesh on his back.

He groans and growls but does not slow of stop.

He kisses me deeply moaning into my mouth, our cry’s matching one and other.

He stops and moves his weight from on top of me, spinning me over so I am now on my front.

“Keep your legs closed” he whispers in my ear making me clamp my legs shut.

He puts a knee either side of me and enters me from behind, something we have not tried before.

The feeling in intense and I lift my backside just enough for him to go deeper.

He lays on my back and kisses my shoulders and neck telling me how good I feel.

He picks up the pace making his breathing almost out of control.

I too am on the brink of another orgasm.

“Aiden” I cry just as he thrust deep making me explode under him, he too finding his release.

We are breathing hard when he rolls off the top of me and lays down beside me.

My body feels heavy and I just want to sleep.

“That’s was amazing” he breaths placing a hand on my backside.

I moan gently and raise my head to look at him.

He looks so sexy with his after s*x glow.

I make my way to the bathroom and clean myself up.

When I come back into the room Aiden has gotten into my bed and is sleeping peacefully.

I stand and watch him for a few minutes not wanting what we have to end.

I climb into bed next to him and snuggle up close so my head is resting on his chest.

This is what I miss, this is what I need.

I need him.

Waking in the morning to a sleeping Aiden makes me smile, he looks so young and handsome with his lips slightly parted.

“What are you staring at” he asks sleepily rolling over to wrap me in his arms.

“You stayed over” I say playfully.

“I did indeed” he replies groaning into my neck and kissing me all over.

“I never said you could stay over” I tease making him stop what he is doing and look up at me.

“Since when do I do as I’m told” he smiles and continues kissing my neck but now moving down to my breasts.

He makes me giggle and its at this point he climbs between my legs and rocks his body against mine.

His hard wood pressing against my core.

We kiss passionately with me grinding my hips trying to get some friction.

“Aiden please” I moan into his kiss.

“I love it when you beg” he smiles and runs his hand down between my legs stroking my pulsating bud.

“Is this what you want” he asks kissing my neck and moving towards my left breast.

I nod enthusiastically not waning him to stop.

“Tell me what you want princess” he asks giving me a new nickname that I love.

“Make me c*m” I breath closing my eyes and rolling my head back.

He slides his finger deep inside my swollen hole and back out onto my aching bud.

“Like this” he asks whispering in my ear.

I nod again biting my bottom lip hard.

I cry out as my orgasm begins to unravel.

He takes my cry into his mouth kissing me while I moan and writhe beneath him.

He slides himself inside me and its a whole new sensation.

“Put you hand around my throat” I breath looking into his beautiful eyes.

He smiles a wicked smile and places his right hand around my throat squeezing gently.

“Like this” he asks in a dark tone making me nod rapidly.

He has picked up the pace rotating his hips around and around, deeper and deeper.

His breathing becoming more laboured, his groans getting louder.

I cry out as he begins to lose control, his hand gripping me tighter on my throat.

He releases himself groaning and growling into my neck but never letting go of his grip.

He eventually lets go and looks up at me grinning.

“I love you Aiden” I say bringing him down for a final kiss.

He wraps his arms around me and deepens our kiss.

“I love you Demi Monroe” he replies when we break apart out of breath.

“Please don’t hurt me again” I say placing my hands on either side of his face.

“Never” he replies kissing me on the end of my nose.

“Now, What shall we do today” he asks bouncing above me like an excited child.

I giggle and wrap my legs around him trying to make his stop.

“You will break my bed” I laugh gripping him between my thighs.

“Then ill just buy you a new one” he smiles and continues to jump around above me.

We have some breakfast which consists of pancakes and French toast, lovingly prepared by Aiden.

We then walk into town Aidens hand never leaving mine, something I have craved for so long now.

We walk around the lake and sit on the bench watching the world go by.

We talk about a possible future that does not involve Olivia, and we talk about moving in together.

I don’t think we are anywhere near that stage yet, but its brings me hope for the future.

So sitting here with him, on this bench I feel loved and wanted.

Lets just hope this time it lasts.