The roles reversed

mates

i padded bare foot towards the pack house and slipped inside. the mouthwatering smells were slinking up the stairs. i was following when suddenly i heard a voice. yes! follow the smell of our mate! i whipped my head around trying to find the source of the voice. oh im sorry. you cant see me, i'm in your head. nice to finally meet you mae. i'm your mermaid , stella. omg. i have an inner mermaid. i guess that's expected. hello stella nice to meet you too. well, lets go find our mate! i crept up the stairs and reached the landing. the first of the intoxicating smells was coming from a door not far ahead. i froze and swayed slightly on the spot. no no no no no no no. that was Jacksons door. and if my conclusion was correct. the other to smells must be coming from jake and Jasons doors. this cant be right. this must be a mistake. they cant be my mates! mates are supposed to love you and cherish you! not tease and abuse you. would they leave me and reject me when they found out tomorrow. would i care. i felt a tugging in my heart and knew that i would. especially jackson. would he reject me? or would he accept me. either way. i would have to decode weather to run or stay now. because they are of higher rank than me. meaning that if they want to, i will have to stay in the pack with them, ruining the plan i had been perfecting. this was my chance. i stood there. torn between options and between directions. the mermaid in my head was yelling at me. but somehow i could only hear it when i wanted to. like a tap on the shoulder that i could dismiss. so i did. then i few minutes passed and i let her back in. mae please it will be better for both of us. they were made for us and once they sense the mate bond they will never hurt us again.  maybe. but what about all the times before the mate bond will take place. could i ever forgive them for that. well maybe jackson, because also when that terrible thing happened. he seemed to get cold feet about the physical stuff and just stuck to teasing. i could deal with that, maybe he wouldn't be to bad to accept as my mate. yes! lets try that. and then see how they all treat you when the mate bond takes hold!! but then of course i would be giving them a chance to hurt me. reject me. force me to stay even if i want to reject them. maybe even.. cut off my tongue so i couldn't reject them. then use me like a toy and force me to have their pups. no. i couldn't let that happen. never. not since him. i couldn't let someone take advantage of me like that again. i would not let them. the memory was to fresh in my mind. it had only been 2 days anyways. but i was good at forgetting things. wasn't i. i wondered if. if i ever accepted the triplets and they accepted me. i could tell them. no. they would leave me for not being pure. though its not my fault. i had been kicked out by the triplets and had to sleep in the grass outside. then he came round the corner. a drunk alpha who was visiting the pack at the time. i had been sleeping. and without a wolf. there was nothing at all that i could do to get him off me. to save myself and my purity. i hated myself for that. but i blame the drunk alpha and the triplets. though jason had actually looked uncomfortable at the thought of me sleeping outside. after jackson. he might be forgivable. if i decide to stay that is. i still had to decide that of course.