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Anthony

I like Wana a lot, she is a sweet, kind and generous woman. she is always kind to me. Since I got transfer to her department she has always looked out for me. she and I became best work buddies. she is always looking out for my best interest. If she learned that I do something that I might get into trouble she will always correct it, if it is something that she cannot correct she normally call me and inform me so I can be aware that I might be in trouble.

Wana is very knowledgeable, when I found out that I was place on her team I was grateful. She teaches me everything she knows about the job. what she does not know, and I ask, she seek clarity then she get back to me with the correct answer.

Hey, Anthony! do you want me to write you on when I get in?. Each morning when we are to work Wana always be the first to get to work, I live very far from work so she normally covers for me. most days when I am without lunch she would purchase lunch for me. Wana and I relationship reach where we became best buddies and started to confide in each other. I was having marital problems with my wife. she cheats and disrespect me. I started to confide in Wana. I felt comfortable talking to her.she never judges me or act indifferent towards me, she would always encouraged me and tells me to try and work it out with my wife. The situation with my wife becomes so bad, I had to move out of our marital home and went to live with my father. Wana assisted me by purchasing things for me so I could be comfortable. she was a genuinely kind and generous woman, I know she likes me alot and will do anything for me so that I can be comfortable and happy.

since I went to live by my father Wana wash my laundry. when I was living in my marital home, my wife mother do our laundry so I did not have to learn how. now am on my own, it a good thing I found Wana as a friend.

I invited out Wana on dates. We went on dinner dates, went to parties, movies and the beach. we even take drives where we just drive around and have fun buying food and drinks and chatting making fun of each other.

I find myself falling in love with Wana. but there was a problem. Wana was happily in love with her boyfriend Boyde, I was happy for her, but I did not think Boyde was the man for her. He always make her cry, she does not feel secure in their relationship.They are together for over five years and he told her he has no intention of getting married. she always talks about getting married with a family, whenever she talks about her future you can see in her eyes how happy she is. Her man hardly comes to visit her, he lives in the united states', because of that I tried to spend alot of time with her. I know she loves comfort and she is lonely. wana lives alone, I tried to spend as much of my free time with her so she don't have to feel lonely.

every evening after work I went by Wana house and spend the evening with her. I will leave her house anytime after 11:00pm at nights when I know she was ready to sleep. I felt sorry for her, and I was worried to leave her alone but I did not want her getting the wrong impression if I stayed the entire night with her. I spent almost all of my days off from work at her house if she is on days off as well. we cook, eat, laugh have fun and watch movies.

I went over to spend time with her as usual. I was laying in her living room on her sofa bed watching a movie. I was not paying attention to the movie I was paying attention to her. I did not know when or how I fall in love with her but I was deeply in love with her. I know she likes me alot possible loves me and I did not want her getting hurt by me. I am still married I honestly wish I was not but I am and I did not want to put her in any more uncomfortable situation.

I know it was wrong if I get involved with her. because although I was not living with my wife I was still married and if I get involved with her, it will be unfair to her because I could not give her the life I know she wanted and she deserved better, she deserves being more than a man mistress.

I lay on the bed looking at the television, I could not tell what the movie was about, my mind was on Wana. I was thinking of so many ways to make love to her. she was a beautiful woman, a woman any man would want to be with. she has a pair of beautiful breast, and sexy legs any man would want to have her tittie's in their mouth. she has a small mouth, with beautiful succulent lips. Wana was wearing a tank top and a sexy shorts. you could see the impression of her beautiful breast. Just imagining what they felt like in my mouth make my d**k hard.

"Wana come sit beside me", I could see how puzzled she was by what I said to her. I could see that she was questioning why I want her beside me on the sofa bed. "don't be afraid, I just want you to sit with me". she was reluctant, but she eventually come and sit beside me.

when she sit beside me, I could smell her sweet scent. she always smells like rose or vanilla. she always smell fresh and her scent alone turns me on. my d**k was hard and I could not hesitate any longer. I draw her close to me and held her closely, I could feel her body tensed, "what are you doing" she asked, you could see the shock and nervousness on her face. I held her and kissed her. when I kiss her, she became tensed, I could see that she was frightened based on her reaction. At first she did not kiss me back, but I deepened the kiss and I could hear her moan. I knew she liked me alot but what I was not so certain about was her feelings for me. I know she has feelings for me and I did not want to encourage it but I could not keep my feelings to myself any longer.

I kissed her and I could feel her loosen up and kissed me back. I could feel the passion in her kiss.Her lips taste delicious, her body was soft and cuddly.i could not get enough of her, I pushed my hands under her tank top and fondled her breast, when I tough her bare skin she moaned. I began to trail kisses down her body and she responded to my every tough and kiss. I make love to her that night. her body make me feel like I was in heaven. she was very passionate, in her love making towards me. if I had doubts if she had feelings for me all of it erased based on how she responded to me making love to her.

After making love to her, she falls asleep. I could not sleep, I had just experience something I thought only my wife could make me feel for a woman, but not even my wife had make me feel the desire and passion Wanna make me feel. she left me wanting more, her every touch make me feel wanted and loved, I was upset with my self and very angry. making love to her make me realize that I was loosing out on passion and love. she make me feel special and the vibe I was getting from her was genuine. I feel nauseated because I will have to treat her badly in the morning. I know it's going to make her devasted wondering what she has done. knowing how I will have to behave towards her make me angry with myself, knowing I will have to hurt her just to protect her or so I thought was eating me up inside and I cold not sleep. I lay awake most of the night looking at her. she looks peaceful and innocent in her sleep. you could see that although she was sleeping she was happy. she rest her head in my stomach and put her arms around me. I feel comfortable, I feel loved.

In the morning we both woke up. "Good morning Anthony." she said to me and tried to kiss me. I shifted my head preventing her from kissing me, I could see the disappointment on her face, I feel nauseated knowing what I am doing to her is wrong on so many levels but I did not want to build up her hopes for her to think we would be together when I know deep withing me I probably go back to my wife if she would have me back.

we ate breakfast in an uncomfortable silence, I could see the discomfort on her face. After breakfast I left, and went home.

After I left and went home I felt so hurt, I had an headache because my brain was in turmoil. I am in love with Wana but I am also in love with my wife. she and I might be having our problems but we are together from we we teenagers. yes, she is disrespectful and treats me bad but there were times when we were happy. she is the mother of my child and she first woman I ever loved. Wana showed me a different kind of love, a love that has no boundaries, she love me and support me even in my troubles with my wife. I realize she has feelings for me and I am taking disadvantage of her because I cannot control the feelings I have for her. I know she is involved with a man name Boyde, she said she loves him, but somehow I don't think she love him as much as she loves me.

While at home I could not stop thinking about her, I could feel her touch, I could smell her scent, I could hear her annoying laughter that I love. I could see her watching the kids movies she loves to watch and cracking up with laughter. thinking about her bring a smile to my face and sadness to my heart. I know she called, but I was too afraid to answer her. I do not know what to say to her after how I treated her this morning before leaving her house.

I took up my phone and listened to some voice messages she had sent me, I wanted to hear her voice but I couldn't call her, not knowing how she would react after how I left her house. so I listen to some old messages I had from her.

The following morning I went to work early and left to court. I went early so I could avoid seeing her. I know she would call and asked if she should record my time when I see 9:00am passed and I did not get her usual call or text, I become frustrated with myself because I did not know what to do. Although I love her and I know she have feelings for me I found myself in a complicated position because I could not love her back the way she deserved. I was still married, and if my wife is willing to change her behaviour and her ways I will go back to her for the sake of my child, and be a family again. My life was complicated and I make it even worst by falling in love with Wana and purposely hurting a woman who has nothing but good intention and love for me.

I return from court around 2:00pm in the afternoon, upon arriving in the office I observed that she was alone in the office. I did not said anything to her. when she saw me I could see how uncomfortable she was, I could see that she was crying because her eyes were swollen and she looks sad. I became so depressed seeing how dejected she looked. I wanted to hugged her and kissed her but I had to pretend that I was angry at her so I pretend and behave as if I was uncaring towards her.i could see tears forming in her eyes, I know she was nervous from how she was behaving. whenever she was nervous she bite her finger nails. A few minutes after I was in the office with her one of our coworker entered the office. I changed my demeanor towards her because I did not want anyone knowing that she and I were having issues. everyone knows she was my best friend, they know how protective she was of me, they even teased her about me, but no one suspected that we would get involved because everyone know that she is involved with Boyde and they know she is not a female who fool around.

I was very protective of her as well, I did not want anyone having anything to say about her so I went over to her and tried speaking to her. I could see that she was both confused and shocked about my behaviour towards her, I could see tears form in her eyes as if she was crying, so she quickly shook her head in response and left the office.

I did not see Wana for the rest of the afternoon, I tried looking for her but I did not know where she went. when it was time for her to leave work she left without saying anything to me which was unlike her. I know I was to be blamed for her behaviour. I was the one who forced her into getting involved with me, then I turned around and treated her badly. I will not be surprised if she does not speak to me again. she is a very sensitive woman, she is loving and kind, she is the most trusting person you can find as a friend. I know what I was doing to her was wrong and it was eating me from the inside out but I think what I am doing to her is going to be better for the both of us from getting hurt in the future. I know presently am hurting her but I don't want her to get too attached and falls too deeply for me which I suspected she already does.