To Kiss My True Memories

CHAPTER 22

Chapter 22

Dahan-dahan ang ginawa kong paghakbang sa bawat hagdan, iniingatang hindi maidiin ang aking paa habang ang gilid ng hagdanan ay ginagawa kong alalay sa aking sarili. Though, even I step very slow the stranger man remained on my back seems waiting to support me if I fall. Tskk, that won't going to happen.

Mabili na inayos ang aking sarili nang makarating na sa itaas. Mabilis na binalingan ang lalaking stranghero sa aking likuran habang at hinahabol ang aking paghinga dulot sa pag-akyat sa hagdanan. Unti-unti ay nginitian ko siya ng tipid ngunit binigyan niya lamang ako ng isang madilim na tingin.

What his problem!?

"Kairra, ayos na ba ang paa mo?" narinig kong tanong ni ate Sam sa aking likuran.

I turned to ate Sam. "Yup, ayos na."

"Kakain ka na ba ng luch? Magpapahanda na ko."

"I will going to eat downstairs but prepare a VIP table for ahh... our customer."

"Ahhh, about that, Kairra." si ate Sam na sumulyap pa sa lalaking nasa aking likuran. "Wala ng available na VIP table, fully book tayo ngayon. Pero, mayroon pang hindi okupado... kaya nga lang sa third floor, sa bandang dulo, Kairra."

"It's fine ate Sam, maganda ang view doon. Actually there's my favorite spot." nginitian ko si ate Sam bago bumaling sa lalaking nasa aking likuran. "Let's go na there..."

The stranger in front of me sighed. "You can still walk? Let's just go downstairs."

"Kaya nga, Kairra." pagsang-ayon ni ate Sam.

"I can still manage." alo ko para sa kanilang dalawa. "Hindi naman na kumikirot, eh. Swear, you will like the view there, maybe you haven't eat there yet?" baling ko sa strangherong lalaki, bahangyan pang umangat ang gilid ng aking labi dahil sa excitement na nararamdaman.

I gave him some assuring smile before I turned my back to him and begin walking on the stairs. But my mind occupied thinking if he's mad at me dahil ang tingin niya sa akin ay madilim talaga!

Bawat server namin na nasasalubong ko sa hagdanan ay binabati ako. Ngiti lamang ang sinusukli ko sa kanila. Sa tuwing may costumers naman na nangangamusta ay humihinto ako to greet them showing my politeness. Ngunit kahit minsan natatagalan ay hindi parin ako nilampasan ng lalaking stranghero upang magpatuloy na sa paglalakad.

Tskk, until now I didn't know his name. I wonder if he knows me? Maybe, my first name because ate Sam called me for many times.

"I hope you like the view like how I like it." I said while still walking on the stairs, couldn't give him a glance on my back.

Nang makarating na sa itaas ay hiningal nanaman ako at nakaramdam ng pagod ngunit nang malanghap ang tahimik at fresh na hanging ay unti-unting gumaan at nawala ang aking pagod. The view was really nice!

I turned to the man at my back while smiling. "It's nice here right?"

He's still watching me. He didn't even bother himself to survey the perfect view but he answered me through his nod.

"Do you like here? Because me, I really love here." masaya kong saad sa kaniya.

"Yeah." sambit niya sa paos na boses.

"I told you! You will like here specially the perfect view." excited kong saad. "Let's go I will accompany you to my favorite spot."

Masaya akong nagsimulang maglakad patungo sa pinakagilid na lamesa kung saan ang paborito ko. Ang sakit sa aking paa ay hindi ko na maramdaan dahil sa nakakamanghang view dito. I'm always here but my eyes didn't used to this view. Hindi naman kasi nakakasawang titigan ang view, eh.

"You will gonna sit there, okay?" lahad ko sa kaniya kung saan ang paborito ko ring lamesa, sa pinakagilid kung saan kitang-kita ang mga sasakyan dumadaan sa kalsada sa ibaba.

The smile on my lips couldn't fade away. The sadness I was feeling earlier was turned into happiness. We couldn't control our feelings wether we really wanted it or not!

We couldn't really control our feelings and emotions in any circumstances that's why what we need was to feel every of it wether it's a sadness or happiness.

"Upo ka na. My server will accompany you." nakangiti ko paring saad. "Our foods here was taste good. Try it all I will gonna pay it. And maybe, next time you will gonna bring your girlfriend here... huh, so you two can date with this perfect view."

"You haven't eat your lunch right?" tanong niya sa akin na tila walang pake sa mga sinabi ko.

I pouted. "Yeah, why?"

"Eat with me." he then said simply.

My eyes widened as I feel my heart flick again once. "Huh..."

"Eat your luch with me." panglilinaw niya pa.

"But-"

"Maybe, someone will get mad, huh? Your boyfriend, perhaps?" tanong niya pa.

Seriously?

Why he keep saying about my boyfriend when I don't have!?

"Huh, ayaw ko lang magkaroon ng isyu tayo gayong mayroon ka ng girlfriend -"

"You will just going to eat with me? And what kung magkaroon tayo ng isyu?" he asked a little bit sarcastically.

Seriously!

Tsk, baka awayin ako ng girlfriend n'ya!

"Maybe, your boyfriend will get jealous, huh?" taas ang kilay niyang tanong.

Napasimangot ako sa kaniya. "Why you keep saying about my boyfriend when I don't have one!" pagalit kong saad.

"Then why are you also keep saying about my girlfriend when I don't have one too!" seryoso niyang saad.

Napatikom ang aking bibig sa sinabi niya. He doesn't have a girlfriend?

"Sit and eat with me." aniya at pinaghila pa ako ng upuan.

"H-uh, okay." tanging nasabi ko at tahimik na naupo, ganon din siya.

Nakapamili na kami ng aming pagkain at inaantay na lamang namin ang pagdating nito. I'm still thinking why I follow what this stranger man want. Why did I sit here... and just wow! We will having a lunch together? Isn't awkward for him? We doesn't even know each other!

Should I ask his name first?

Of course no, Kairra!

I just keep my mouth shut while rounding my eyes on the beautiful view. Haystt, it's so relaxing here. Ang kasama kong strangherong lalaki at tahimik lamang ganon din ako habang patuloy na naglilibot ang mata, binubusog sa magandang tanawin.

When our foods arrived, we starts eating quietly. Haystt, it's so awkward!

"Hmmm, I-I just hope walang susugod na babae sa akin, ah." basang ko sa awkward na katahimikan.

"Why? Do you think I'm lying?" he asked.

Tumigil ako sa pagkain, inabot ang aking juice upang uminom bago nagsalita. "I don't know." I then shrugged.

He didn't speak. He just started to watched me again while I quickly bowed my head and distract myself touching my foods. I couldn't look at him in the eye again because my heart started to beat so fast and loud again.

"Kairra, you're here pala." sa kalagitnaan ng tahimik kong pagkain ay may tumawag sa akin.

I don't need to turned around to know who own that voice. That's from my best friend, Sheeme.

"K, I'm calling you for many time pero hindi mo sinasagot mga tawag ko." si Sheeme na halata ang pagtatampo sa boses.

Tumayo ako upang mabalingan siya. Gosh, I forgot that we have a date today, ako pa naman ang nag-aya sa kaniya dahil malungkot ako. Sa mukha niya ay halata ang pagkakairita.

Sheeme pouted while looking at me irritatedly. "You ask me for a date tapos ikaw ang hindi makakapunta?"

"I'm sorry, Sheeme." tanging nasabi ko, guilting-guilty.

Sinimangutan niya ako habang tinititigan ng mariin ngunit ang mata niya ay lumagpas sa akin. Her eyes turned to the stranger man at my back. Nanliit ang mata niya nang bumaling muli sa akin.

"Ohh, your having your luch with..." taas ang kilay niyang saad sa akin, palipat-lipat ang tingin sa akin at sa lalaking nasa aking likuran. "Darrow Dela Torallez?" he whispered the name of the man on my back

He know this man? How?

"You know him?" I uttered.

Napasinghal siya sa akin at napataas ang kilay. "Seriously? You having your luch with a stranger?" she said sarcastically.

It's a long story, Sheeme.

"You are a Dela Torallez, right?" baling niya sa lalaking nasa aking likuran.

"Yeah." the man said with his usual emotionless voice.

"Darrow Dela Torallez, am I right?" dagdag na tanong ni Sheeme, nangingiti na.

"Yeah."

Sheeme turned her eyes on me again. "K, can I eat with my lunch here too? Hindi pa ako kumain, eh." aniya at ngumiti sa akin.

I just nodded as my answer.

"Hey, okay lang ba?" tanong niya sa lalaking nasa aking likuran.

"Sure." narinig kong saad ng lalaki.

"K, after this we will go to our date" aniya bago dumeretsyo sa upuang bakanteng katabi ko.

Bumalik na rin ako sa aking upuan, thinking how my best friend know this man. My best friend know this man? How? Why I didn't know this man? How they meet?

"By the way, can I introduce myself first? Maybe, you didn't know me." si Sheeme nangingiti sa kaniyang upuan. "I'm Sheeme Abad, we already meet in many events and party. But still nice meeting you here." aniya at naglahad ng kamay sa lalaking nasa aking harapan.

"Your last name was familiar, your family was friend of mine. I'm Darrow Dela Torallez, nice meeting you, miss Abad." the man in front of me and get my best friend hands.

Darrow Dela Torallez.

Darrow... sounds not good?

Sheeme laughed. "You're too formal! You can just call me with my first name." reklamo pa niya. "Anyway, you two eating with the same table without knowing each other? Seriously?" he then asked sarcastically.

"I know her, but maybe she doesn't know me, huh." the man in front of me said.

He know me?

"I don't know you." napangiwi kong saad, may pagtataka sa boses.

"Yeah, I know." saad niya nakatingin sa akin.

I scowled.

He know that I don't know him?

"K, you don't know him talaga kasi you just always keep you attention sa mga pagkain kaysa sa mga taong nasa party or event na dinadaluhan natin. You always make yourself busy examining all the foods in the party than introducing yourself to the people, kaya huwag ka ng magtaka kung bakit hindi mo siya kilala." pagalit na saad sa aking ni Sheeme.

Napakagat ako sa labi nang maramdaman ang kaonting pagkapahiya, it's true anyway.

"Okay, okay, I will just introduce you to each other na lamang." si Sheeme at pumalakpak pa sa aming harapan. "This is my best friend Cikairra Zame de Versa and this is Darrow Dela Torallez, If I'm not mistaken your families are business partner." masayang pakilala sa amin ni Sheeme.

Umangat na lamang ang gilid ng aking labi sa reaksyon ng aking kaibigan habang ang mata ay nanliliit na nakatingin sa lalaking nasa aking harapan. The man in front of me watching me too with his serious looks.

I bit my lips as I tilted my head while still looking at him. "Your name really not sound a little bit good. It's sounds dark and too serious. I hate it a little bit." I whispered for myself.

"So, you doesn't want my name?" the man in front of me asked.

My eyes widened, he heard what I said? "H-uh, hmmm..."

"It's fine." he added.

I secretly rolled my eyes. "I-I just don't want a little bit." saad ko.

Slowly, he nodded while watching me firmly. I bit my lips as I felt a soft bang inside me because of his stare.

"Seriously, Kairra?" reklamo ng kaibigan ko. "What's wrong with you? Ikaw lamang ang umayaw sa pangalan niya." a ni Sheeme.

"What? Isn't my fault." nakasimangot kong saad sa aking kaibigan.

"K..." pagtawag sa akin ni Sheeme at sumenyas pang lumapit ako sa kaniya, tila may sasabihin ito na hindi dapat marinig ng lalaking nasa aming harapan.

Kahit nagtataka at nilapit ko na lamang ang aking ulo sa kaniya, I want to hear what it's all about.

"Siya iyon business man na crush ng ating mga kaklase at schoolmates. My other relatives have a crush on him too. He's hot daw kasi." hagikgik ni Sheeme sa aking tenga.

"Seems you attractive to him also." I said.

"Of course not." protesta niya again. "He's a good looking man, but he's not my type." Sheeme whispered.

Napatingin ako sa lalaking nasa aking harapan, nasa akin parin ang mata niya at mariin akong pinapanood. He's popular pala, ah? Maraming attractive sa kaniya.

How come, when he looks so always galit? He's so serious! I don't even hear him laughed!

"K..." pagtawag muli ni Sheeme sa akin. "Anyway, do you have problems? Namumugto mata mo." aniya pa.

Napatikhim naman ako. "It's nothing, I'm fine." tipid ko siyang nginitian.

Nagtagal ang tingin niya sa akin bago tumango. "Let's eat na nga Kairra, para makapagdate na tayo." aniya na lamang.

Ibinalik ko ang aking tingin sa lalaking nasa aking harapan at nakipagtitigan. His eyes was too serious. I stare him too for a second but when I felt my heart skipped that I didn't expect I quickly bowed my head. I then felt my heart beat with excitement.

What's that for?

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Maybe - maybe everything happens naturally.

There was a memories from the past that we unintentionally forget through the circumstances that we didn't know. These memories was always hunting us for some reason.

I don't know what was that memories I just found myself lying on the cold ground. But that memories make me feel something - something that could complete my life.

Mga aligaga at kabadong bosses ang gumising sa akin. Napakusot ako sa aking mata at unti-unting bumangon sa malamig na aming sahig.

"Sus maryosep! Sa wakas ay nagising ka na." kabadong boses ni nana Mirna ang narinig ko.

"What the hell you thinking, Kairra!" sigaw ni Gem, naiiyak na sa pag-aalala. "

"Huh, what happened?" tanong ko, bahagyang habol ang hininga at napakusot pa sa mata.

"Nawalan ka ng malay, hija." si nana Mirna ang sumagot.

Nakaalala ako ngunit nawalan ako ng malay? Is my condition really that serious! Naramdaman ko ang sobrang panghihina ng aking katawan kaya nahirap akong bumangon sa sahig. I don't know if it's a relief that some memories show up on my mind while my head isn't aching.

Hindi ko alam kung magiging masaya ba ako o maaawa sa aking kalagayan. I didn't expect these memories! What happened to me was really unexpectedly.

"Can please someone call Mom and Dad!" utos ni Gem at agad na umalalay sa akin.

"No need, Gem. I'm fine-"

She cut me off angrily. "You're fine again! Why you keep saying you're fine where you're not! Kairra, naman, eh!"

"I don't want na mag-alala sila. Hindi naman masakit ang aking ulo." mahinahon kong saad.

"But you lost your consciousness here!"

I sighed and smiled at her. "I'm really fine. I'm sorry kung pinag-alala ko kayo. I'm begging you, Gem. Please, don't tell to Tito."

"B-ut you made me so worried." pigil ang pag-iyak ni Gem ngunit may isang luhang nakatakas sa mata niya. are

I wipe her tears away. "I'm really fine. Hindi sumasakit ang ulo ko. This time I'm saying the truth. Maybe, I just need some rest." I smiled genuinely to her. "Let's just rest now?"

Hindi nagsalita si Gem. Tahimik niyang pinipigilan ang sariling hindi tuluyang maiyak.

"Hija, hindi mo masisisi ang pinsan mo. Nag-aalala rin kami sa kalagayan mo." si nana Mirna ma umaalalay din sa akin.

"I understand po. Salamat po at pasensya na kung pinag-alala ko kayo. I'm really fine naman po." nginitian ko si Nana bago bumaling sa pinsan. "Please, Gem."

Gem sighed heavily. "I will let it pass pero kung mangyari pa ulit ito ay hindi ko na papalampasin. We're so worried." aniya sa seryosong boses.

"Thanks. Don't worry I'm really fine. Hindi sumasakit ang ulo ko."

"Just make it sure!"

Gem and nana Mirna helped me lift myself up because I still felt weak but overall I'm still fine. My head is really fine. Nakaalalay sila sa aking hanggang sa tuluyan na akong makatayo.

"Kailangan mong magpahinga ng mahaba, hija. Kung may kailangan ka ay tawagin mo lang kami." si nana Mirna.

"Opo. Salamat po." nginitian ko si Nana bago bumaling kay Gem na nakaalalay parin sa akin. "Gem, I'm fine. Kaya ko na maglakad papuntang kwarto."

"Sasamahan na kita." aniya, seryoso.

Hindi na ako nakaimik pa at hinayaan na siya sa gustong gawin.

Pabalik sa aking kwarto nang masulyapan ko ang ibang kasambahay na nililinis ang sahig sa katabing pinagbagsakan ko. I remembered that I went downstairs to get a glass of water and I stopped here until I lost my consciousness while some unexpected scenarios show up on my mind.

I wonder if how many hour I was unconscious?

Hanggang sa makapasok sa aking kwarto ay sinamahan ako ni Gem. Nanatili naman siyang walang imik kaya hindi na lamang din muna ako nagsalita, though I want to ask her na kung ilang oras ba akong walang malay.

She remained silent and I think she's mad at me dahil sa ayaw kong ipaalam kay Tito at Tita kung ano ang nangyari sa akin ngayon. I just don't want them to worried.

"Huh, I'm fine na here, Gem. You can rest too na." ako nang makaupo sa aking kama.

"Sleep now. Get more rest." aniya at tipid na ngumiti sa akin.

"Yeah, thanks." tipid ko siyang nginitian pabalik.

Nagtagal pa ng mga ilang sigundo ang titig niya sa akin na tila sinusuri ako bago ako tuluyang tinalikuran. But before she could finally get out of my room, I called her.

I just really want to ask about it.

"Gem... hmmm, how many hours I'm unconscious?" I carefully asked.

She slowly turned her back. "We don't know exactly, ang mga kasambahay ang unang nakakita sayo. Mga ilang minuto ang nakalipas nang dumating ako bago ka nagkamalay. But I think you're unconscious almost an hour." she said seriously.

"Huh, I see." tanging nasabi ko.

"Why? Is something came up?" she asked curiously.

I turned to her a bit surprised but I just shook my head instead to tell to her.

"May naalala ka ba?" she asked curiously, tila alam niya na may nangyari sa akin kaya ako unconscious.

Natahimik ako ng ilang segundo. But later on I nodded to her. I don't want to lie to her again. Maybe, my feelings would make more better once I tell to anyone about it. Hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman ngayon paisa-isang may bumabalik na alaala sa akin.

I don't know what should I feel.

"A little." tipid ko siyang nginitian. "About how I first meet... Darrow." I whispered.

She got shocked but she pretended that isn't nothing. Tila gusto niyang magtanong about doon ngunit hindi niya na tinuloy.

"How was your feelings?" she asked opposite to what I'm expected she will ask.

I shrugged. "I don't know what exactly I feel." paos kong saad.

"Don't think about that. Get more rest." she gave me a smile.

Bago pa siya magpaalam ay pinigilan ko muli siya. There's one thing really bothering my mind, my heart can't understand this either.

"Gem..." seryoso kong pagtawag sa kaniya. "Do you think... I still need all the memories I lost?" may pag-aalinlangan kong tanong.

Napaayos si Gem sa kinatatayuan niya. Ilang minuto siyang hindi nakaimik, tila nag-iisip ng isasagot sa aking tanong. I hope she could give me an answer that could enlighten me up.

Yes, my past the I didn't remember was hunting me... but I couldn't find myself become happy about those scenarios. Siguro ay dahil naalala ko ang kaganapan sa aking mga magulang, mga kaganapan na kahit kailan ay hindi pumasok sa aking isipan. I couldn't imagine that they will end up like that.

I'm still desperate to take all the memories I lost but I don't think it will make me happy in the end. I still want it back because I thought it will make me happy but I was wrong. Dahil puro sakit lamang ang nararamdaman ko sa tuwing naaalala ang bawat pag-aaway ni mommy at daddy. I think I need to be contented and just make a new memories from now on and make it a new beginning for me.

But still... my heart still wanted to take back all the memories I lost because I know it will answer all the questions playing on my mind - but my mind saying that I don't need it anymore.

This is it again... my mind and heart fight for one decision!

"You know what, Kairra? I would rather na hindi mo na lamang maalala muli dahil magpapalala ito sa iyong kondisyon. But I think you really, really need it! Just please, don't push yourself just let time decided kung kailan ito babalik. I'm sure it will come with the unexpected time." she stopped and smiled at me. "Be glad if it will back without hurting you. I know you have so much question at alam kong ang mga nakalimutan mong ala-ala lamang ang makakasagot nito. Ang gusto lamang namin ay huwag mong piliting makaalala, we're so worried about you."

A smile formed on my lips. "Thanks, you enlighten me."

The next day came and like what everyone wants I stayed at home to rest more as well as to observe my condition. Upang hindi mabored ay inabala ko na lamang ang aking sarili sa pag-aral ng mga bagong putahe. Darrow continue texting me and I kinda feel guilty because I always reply to him a short message. He even tried to call me but u decided not to answer any of his calls.

Darrow:

Enjoy your day even you're resting.

Ako:

Thanks. I will.

For now I want to hold back myself for what I've feels for him. Ayaw kong masyadong pagbigyan ang sarili dahil baka mas lalo pa akong mahulog sa kaniya na aking kinakatakot. My mind really can't remember him but that was really opposite to what my heart says that's why I'm afraid to always follow what my heart know and wants.

Yes, I like him. Yes, I already remembered our first meet but that's just the start. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang mga sumunod na nangyari, hindi ko alam kung saan kami nagtapos. Hindi ko alam kung may malalim bang namagitan sa akin.

I don't know the answer that's why I'm asking myself... but why my heart seems already know. Again, I don't want to always follow what my heart saying. Gusto kong dahan-dahanin kung ano pa ang sumunod na nangyari sa huling ala-alang bumalik sa akin ngunit... ngunit hindi na ako makapag-antay.

Am I being too desperate again this time?

Hindi ko alam! Hindi ko na rin maintindihan kung anong mas gusto ko! Hindi ko alam kung anong dapat gawin, kung anong dapat sundin!

If I will force my mind to remember, it can speed up to bring back all the memories I lost, but at the same time it will hurt me and make my condition more worse that I don't know if I could still handle. And I'm not really sure if I have anything to remember If I ever forced my mind to remember. Whereas, when I wait for the time to decide when will be the right time I could remember it may take a long time, it will also take a long time to get all the answers I'm asking for. Eventually, I may have made a permanent decision and choice but I do not know if it is right or wrong choice in the end.

Sa kahit anong piliin ko ay may kailangan mabago. Sa kahit anong sunduin ko ay walang mga kasiguraduhan. Hindi ko alam kung anong tama. Should I take it slow? Or should I force my mind so it could make fast everything and let my condition become worse?

I already spend almost two weeks in our home. Waiting the time when should I could remember without forcing my mind. Ngunit walang signal na may maaalala ako. Walang bago sa araw-araw kong ginagawa sa loob ng bahay. Though, I'm a little bit bored ngunit hindi ako nagsasabi kila Tito at Tita na gusto ko ng bumalik sa restaurant because I'm here, hoping the time has decided that I can remember one of this day but no memories show up.

Sa mga sumunod na araw ay ganon parin, walang bago. I'm here now at the pool area with Gem. We're having our sunbathing in the middle of the afternoon to relax.

"Do you think if I ask Tito and Tito kung pwede na akong lumabas papayag sila?" tanong ko habang pikit ang mga mata sinusubukang magrelax.

"Try." tamad niyang saad. "I know they will understand you. You're bored na here at isa pa ay nasa magandang kondisyon naman na ang ulo mo sa ngayon."

I let out a silent sigh. "I hope they will kahit sa restaurant lang."

"Hmmm, yeah." tugon niya.

Napangiwi na lamang ako. She looks tired and stressed this pass few days. Siguro'y dahil sa paghahandle ng business? She continue working at their company na kaya minsan na lamang siyang makapagpahinga at hindi niya na rin nagagawa kung anong mga nagagawa niya dati.

"Even you're just inside the office you're still tired?" may panunuya kong tanong.

"Yeah, I still need to submit my own new unique design so we could release now a new finish product. Bakit ba kasi furniture materials ang business ng magulang natin. It's hard you know." reklamo niya sa pagod na boses.

"Maybe, you're just not used to it." pang-aalo ko sa kaniya.

"Our company can stand alone. Why we still need a business partner! Specially with that man's family!" mainit ang ulo niyang saad. "Kairita!"

Was she has problem on her works or with her co-workers? Hmmm, I guess so.

Hindi na lamang ako nagsalita o nagtanong at baka sa akin niya maibaling ang mainit na ulo, mahirap na. She's sounds so irritated.

"They already have their own building materials business and now pati furniture materials! Ayystt, how dare him!" she murmured so irritated.

Tinikom ko ang aking bibig upang hindi na talaga makapagsalita. Kinuha ko na lamang ang selpon sa aking gilid at saktong pagbukas ko ang kanina pang message ni Darrow ang bumungad. I already read it but I don't know how would I reply to his text.

Darrow:

Can I visit you in your house?

Ilang oras na akong nakatitig dito kanina ngunit wala paring sagot. Of course I really want him to visit me here but myself can't say yes. Matagal na rin simula nang hindi ko maramdaman ang mabilis at malakas na pagpintig ng aking puso. We haven't see each other for a weeks and now I'm being cold to him!

Once na pinagbigyan ko ang puso ngayon ay alam kong mahihirapan nanaman akong patigilin ito! I closed my eyes tightly to calm the mix emotions I was feeling inside me. I try to feel every beat of my heart and it's shouting only one thing.

Ayystt, I don't care anymore! I really want to do what my heart shouting!

I quickly type my answer for Darrow.

Ako:

I'm fine here. Can we see each other tomorrow of you have time, instead?

Hindi ko pa naibaba ang selpon nang tumunog na agad ito dahil sa mabilis na reply ni Darrow.

Darrow:

You should just stay home. Get more rest.

Ako:

I'm fine naman na. I can handle myself now and my head is on good condition. So, can we see each other tomorrow but when you're busy it's fine naman.

Darrow:

I have time. Just please make sure that you're really feeling well.

Napanguso ako sa reply niya. He's really worried about me, huh! For this day I let my heart flick again and it's because of him again.

Ako:

I want us to have our lunch together. See you tomorrow ^_^

Nang gabing iyon din ay nagpaalam na ako kay Tito at Tita. Pumayag naman agad si Tita because she understands how bored I am here. But as usual, tito Amer protested but later on when tita Gemi talk him smoothly pinayagan niya na rin ako sa huli but of course the only place I can go is the restaurant.