Numb Thorns

Definitely a bad idea 3

It’s been exactly two weeks since I met Jeremy , and yet the tension between us has greatly increased from that day. We haven’t done anything except holding hands and brief hugs. His scents are warm and comforting, his embrace feels rewarding and the whenever he holds my hands there’s this nolstagic feeling I get from it. A feeling I know, a feeling of warmth and assurance. Like someone who wants to offer pure comfort and affection.

Most times I wonder of the possibility of us been more than we already are. I wonder if I could let myself just be and enjoy what I can at the moment, since forever is a promise no one can easily give. I wonder if intimacy with him was going to mar or tar this friendship I just discovered.

I know every other reasonable person will put an end to this uncertainty but i being my true self doesn’t want to let go of this beam of hope and adventure shining so brightly in my eyes. Ofcourse he’s younger, a little experienced in relationships and stuff. He said he hasn’t been with someone close to my age or something but he doesn’t understand why he can’t seem to get his mind off me. Even though the atmosphere between us is ever so strong and tempting.

He tried to keep it all in by not calling too much after he found out that I was divorced so he won’t have this feeling of him trying to rub himself or desires on me, I too having that same thought only had to realize that taking things a bit to slowly, a step at a time, till we finally know what to do with these feelings will be better for us since I don’t want a one night thing and don’t want to do what I may not be so proud off later.

My friendship with Jeremy made my emotional state a bit calm and I slowly got back to my usual self although I know that my starved body needed more than calls and chats. Olive noticed I became more aware of my environment and emotions, and tried to know what exactly was turning my emotional wheels. But the thought of letting someone know about it was a luxury I couldn’t afford. So maybe till I eat this forbidden fruit of mine I maybe able to speak out.

My boys have a sleepover with their grandparents this weekend and I can’t wait to have a me time all to myself. I needed to get the much needed rest i can afford as the past two weeks has been a rollercoaster of activities in the office as we had major projects to see through, with me being the active CEO it’s been a hell of a ride, so this weekend without the boys around I could get myself some free time. Them being with thier grandparents means less calls for me as they know how the divorce and work is badly affecting me.

It’s a Friday morning and I need to get myself to work while I wait for my me weekend to unfold.

Spoiler alert, Jeremy isn’t in the country so unfortunately for my hormones we are getting no juice from anywhere. It’s going to be a long boring weekend for me.

The day went by like every other Friday does go by for me, I tried to see if Olive could spare me a few hours to drink with me but she already has plans with her family. Jeremy called just twice today, he’s been busy with his own family business which I am happy about that, but yet, this unquenchable yearning I have been having about him lately is really draining and making me want to wish I could move mountains just to have him for a night, at least just one. Am sure am not asking for too much but I really need to be pampered erotically and unapologetically too, these damn hormones.

Finally, I was through with today’s work and it was time to get home. I couldn’t wait to be in the comfort of my bed and probably drink myself to sleep. It was just all I craved for as there wasn’t much I could do to turn things around. I quickly packed my bags and was already heading to the door when secretary Olive dialed my office phone. I opened the door for her to know I was about leaving and to know why she was calling. She hurried over to me surprised abit to see I got ready without her helping me out.

Secretary olive.

Ma’am, I was almost coming to check on you until a call came through for you. I think you have a guest. I tried to get them to reschedule as today is almost over but I think it’s not an official call. So I told them to call you directly.

Alex.

Ahhhhh, okay. Thanks. I will have to check my phone when I get to the car. Tell my driver to get the car ready. We exchanged a few words and off I went. Already in the elevator I decided to check my phone knowing how busy I was throughout the day, I had less time to check them. Opening my phone I saw a lot of messages and calls from my sons and then a message from Jeremy. I was about to open the message when my phone started ringing. It was Jeremy. I hurriedly picked the call I must say I was really happy to speak to him at least.

Hey dear, I said trying to hide my excitement,

Jeremy.

Hello beautiful, how are you? Been trying to get a hold of you but seems you were buried neck deep in the office.

Alex

Hahaha, you know me, the workaholic nut job, but good a thing, the day is over so am free to talk and do any other thing that isn’t work related. We kept on taking and didn’t realize I was at the car park already, I tried looking for my driver till I saw a sight which almost left me speechless. Jeremy was standing by his car, with a bouquet of roses in his hand. He was neatly dressed in his well tailored foreign suit, he looked so good like a character in a romance movie. Damn those cute smiles of his with his beautiful dentition almost made my legs weak. He walked up to me and kept staring at me while I drooled over him.

Jeremy.

Like what you see? He said adding more effects to make me sway. He knows he has this much effect on me and he doesn’t try to help my condition at the moment better. I was still frozen in my feelings and the next thing I realize was when he held my cold hands. The warmth and peace his touch gave me broth me back to reality. He handed the bouquet to me which I took subconsciously, he smiled and gave me the warmest hugs I didn’t realize I needed desperately. I let my self slump into his embrace and filled all my pores with his scent and warmth. Oh how I missed you Alexandra, he said affectionately to me. He held me steady and calmly till I got my desired fill.

Alex.

Wow, it’s really so beautiful to see you. I never knew in a million years that you’d be here in my parking lot at this very moment, when I know you aren’t even in the country. When did you get to the country, you didn’t even try to tell me you’d be coming back today, bad boy.

Jeremy.

Hahaha, I thought I should give you a little surprise after I concluded with my meetings today, we were able to get the contract and you were all I was thinking about and to celebrate the success of the new acquisition I had to do all I can to see you and make you smile as I have missed seeing you smile.

Damn, he knows what he’s doing to me because he kept saying the sweetest things to me, all I could do was to hold his hands so tightly and allow myself feel everything I was supposed to feel, letting go of everything that was supposed to make me stop. Damning all other things, I knew he wanted to make me happy and appreciated, I had to allow him do that, willingly I let myself and all my worries to be loved by this man for as long it will last. With no obstacles or fear of the unknown or future I deserve this moment and all the love I can possibly get.