Right Time

Chapter 15

“What if…What if I’m not ready to be physical till after the baby?” I asked, looking down at my hands.

This time he placed his hands on my cheeks and I found myself looking at him again.

“Can I still kiss you?” He asked.

All I could do was nod yes.

“Can I hold you?”

Again I nodded yes and I could feel my mouth go dry, my heart was beating so fast I thought it would burst out of my chest.

“Then I think I can manage.” His lips softly pressed against mine.

“But what about.?”

He cut me off. “I will wait as long as you need. Just let me be here for you.”

The following day, Wyatt came with me to my grandparents' house to tell them the good news.

The moment I walked in the door, I was embraced by Gram.

“Honey, I have been so worried about you. How can you just send me a message and …… Who is this?” She asked, looking behind me to see Wyatt.

“Gram and Grandpa, this is Wyatt.” I turned to look at Wyatt. “This is my Gram and Grandpa.”

“Pleased to meet you Mr. and Mrs. Cameron.” He said, kissing my Grams hand before shaking my Grandpa’s.

Gram giggled as she ushered us into the kitchen.

As soon as we sat down, my Gram started.

“Tell me all about the appointment. What did the doctor say?” Concern filled her face.

“Ummm how do you feel about babies?”

It took a few minutes for my question to sink in before she was on her feet and hugging me again.

"I’m going to be a great gram?” She asks with a huge smile.

“Yes.”

“Oh, this is amazing news.”

“Is this your child?” My grandpa asked, looking over at Wyatt.

I felt the blood drain from my face. “No Grandpa, the baby is Chris’ baby.”

I looked over at Wyatt only to see him smiling. He gave me a quick wink and I turned back to my grandparents.

“How does he feel about the baby?” Gram questions.

I could feel anger building in me. “I don’t know. He hasn’t returned my calls.”

“Oh honey. You need to let go of all this anger.” Gram said, taking my hands in hers.

“I have a right to be angry. “

“I didn’t say that you didn’t have a right to be angry, but baby, this hate is not good for you or the baby.”

“How am I supposed to not be angry?”

“You have to learn to forgive him.”

“I don’t know how,” I said, standing up and walking outside. I needed fresh air. How do you forgive somebody you loved? He broke me and I don’t know how to put myself back together.

A hand gently took mine. I looked up to see Wyatt smiling at me.

“Sorry you had to see that?”

“Hey, you don’t have to be sorry.”

“Wyatt, I don’t know if I am in a place to be with somebody.”

“Why?”

“I am so broken and I just don’t know how to put myself back together.”

“Then let me help you.” He took my hand and brought it to his lips, gently kissing the top of my hand.

Tears flowed from my face. “I want to say yes but I don’t understand why you want to deal with all of this drama.”

“Why? You are beautiful, smart, kind, and funny. Why wouldn’t I?”

Again I found myself blushing.

“I do agree with your Gram. You need to find a way to forgive Chris.”

“Are you serious?”

“Yes….Forgiveness is for you. Look at my Great Grandpa. He held on to anger for years. Do you think your Great Grandparents were even phased?”

I could only shake my head no. I knew my family was not affected the same as Wyatt’s family.

“Forgiving him will free you.”

“I just don’t know how.”

“Promise to not look at me like I am crazy?”

“I could never.” I said, leaning into him.

“I did’t know how to forgive Val. I ended up seeking therapy.”

I was surprised by his confession. “And did it help?” I asked.

“I did and I still see him and, if you want, I can give you his name.”

“I would like that.”

The next two months went by quickly and my tiny figure showed my baby bump. I had never heard back from Chris and after my breakdown I decided I had tried and now it was on him.

Because of Wyatt, I started therapy and it helped. I hadn’t really been able to forgive Chris but I was feeling better about the divorce and every day I felt a little less angry. Most of all, I felt sad over Chris and that he was missing everything happening with his first child.

Today I would find out if I was having a boy or a girl and Wyatt was meeting me at the doctor’s office. He attended all of my appointments with me.

The moment I stepped out of the car I was pulled into a warm hug.

“Are you ready for this?”

“I am so excited. I can’t wait.”

He lightly laughed. “Well, let’s get you inside.”

Once inside, we patiently waited for Dr. Pollard to arrive. She was one of the best in the city and I was taking no chances with my baby.

“How is mommy feeling today?” She asked as she entered the room.

“Good. A little more tired than normal, but good.”

“That is normal.” She said with a smile. “Are you ready to find out the s*x of your baby?”

“I am.”

The gel was a little cool on my stomach but my eyes didn’t leave the monitor as the doctor began to move the wand.

After a few minutes and a few pictures, she asked, “Do you want a picture of your baby girl?”

“A girl?”

“Yes, definitely a girl.”

“Could I have two photos please?”

She printed me a few pictures. I had been putting together a scrapbook for Chris. I hoped one day he would want to be a part of his daughter's life and when he did, I wanted to try and give him a chance to see the stuff he missed out on.

“Are you hungry?” Wyatt asked as he wrapped his arms around me.

“Always.”

“Come on…. Let me feed you.”

He took me to one of my favorite dinners in the city. I was small and they had the best chili cheese fries.

“I have something to ask you,” I said as we waited for our food.

“Ask away princess.”

“There is a conference I have to attend and I was hoping you would go with me. It’s in New York. It’s an overnight trip so I understand if you can’t.”

“I would love to go with you. When is it?”

“In two months.”

“You will be almost 7 months pregnant. Is it safe for you to travel?”

“I have another appointment next month and I will clear it then. I just wanted to make sure you had time to set things up for Noah.”

“I would love to go with you.”

“Should I ummm get one room or two?”

“What do you want, princess?”

Once again, I was blushing with this man. “One,” I whispered.

“One it is.” He said, smiling.

“Will it be OK for you to be away from Noah?”

“Yes and speaking of Noah….I would like you to meet him.”

Wyatt and I had been dating for 2 months. We were in slow mode. He had to be the most patient man on the earth and I still couldn’t figure out why he was spending his time on me.

He had met my grandparents and my friends, but I had yet to meet anybody in his life.

“Ok. I would love to meet him.”

“He is going to love you.”

“His second birthday is next month. I was hoping you could get to know him before then and maybe come and celebrate with us.”

“I would love that.”

To be honest, I was starting to think he didn’t want me to meet his son. I know it was only two months but we had been spending a lot of time together and he never mentioned me meeting his son until today.

“How does today sound?”

“Yeah…OK.” I said with a huge smile.

“Great, he is at my parents' house. We can head there now.”

I felt myself instantly freeze.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” He asked, looking concerned.

“Parents don’t like me,” I blurted out. I found I didn’t have a filter when it came to Wyatt, which is good and bad.

“Why don’t parents like you?”

“I don’t know but Chris’ parents hated me.”

“Baby, my parents already love you and I know the moment they meet you they will continue to love you.”

“They already love me?”

‘I talk about you all of the time. So it’s like they already know you.”

“Ok I’m ready.”