Part 13
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Amber's P.O.V:
It's been more then 6 hours since Sammy left. I didn't mean to upset her but why the hell is she still caring about that f*****g b***h ?. f**k! I wanna kill her. f*****g b***h. I will punch her in her face if I ever saw her. It's 1 in the morning now but Sammy is not back. Where did she go...
I woke up in the middle of the night wondering how did I even sleep. f**k! Sammy, is she still not back?. I went downstairs to see if she was here but she wasn't, then I went to the basement and there she was, sleeping on the couch without any blanket, her one arm was behind her head and other was falling off the couch. I rushed to the room and brought blankets to cover her.
I looked at her and she looked so peaceful while sleeping. I can't even imagine going through the pain she had to endure. My eyes were being clouded by tears and I was a crying mess in no time. I found myself craving for her arms around me. I picked up the blankets and laid down with her on the couch. I placed my head on her shoulder and I couldn't stop crying. I felt her move and she wrapped her arms around me in her sleep. I felt so happy and an emotional wreck all at the same time, but I was more peaceful that she's back here, with me.
I woke up in the morning and found Sammy laying next to me. She was awake and her eyes were on me.
"Good Morning Amber"
"Good Morning Sammy"
"As far as I can remember, I'm pretty sure I slept alone without blankets and....You" she teased with that stupid smirk on her face.
"Yeah... well, I woke up last night and found you here and I covered you with blankets."
"That still doesn't clear how you are here" ughh.. I know she's teasing me and I f*****g hate it and love it at the same time.
"Well... I was so sleepy that I just crashed here."
"I'm glad you did"
"You are?"
"Yes. I'm very happy that you decided to crash with me."
"So.. you are not angry with me?"
"I wasn't angry with you Amber. You just said out loud the truth that I always ignore listening to. I left because I didn't wanna hurt you by saying something stupid. Hurting you is the last thing I'd ever want."
"I'm sorry. I just got so angry when you said you were doing this for that fu-- that girl"
"Thanks for not saying it the way you wanted to. But, I understand" she laughed.
"I still think she is one" i teased. She held me closer.
"I know Amber that I was an i***t for trusting her. I know now that she never really loved me and was just using me. She was my whole universe for me while I was just her dirty little secret. But the thing is Amber that Love is different for me. Like I know what she did but I still don't hate her. My love is way beyond the need of being loved back. I never loved her because I wanted her to love me, I just... loved her. I think I fell in love with her the moment I laid my eyes on her. I didn't just love her, I respected her. I took care of her and protected her. Now that we're not together I still don't hate her because if I hate her just because she didn't love me back or just because she changed, then what would that say about my love ?" her words caught me off guard. I didn't know what to say.
"I know how it seems from another person's view. You must hate her but I can't because I loved her so much when I was with her that hating her is just not possible. I believe that true love is about giving, without expectations. If you love someone, love all parts of them, or just don't bother. One day you tell a girl that you love her and if next day she's with someone else or if she doesn't feel the same, you start saying Bullshit about her to people, that is not love. True love comes with a strength that only those understand who have loved a person even when they never loved them back. You can't always get what you want but it doesn't mean you won't get what you deserve. Universe always knows which piece belongs where. So, yes I know she dumped my ass and ripped my heart out but no, I can't hate her. "
"Will you ever be able to... like stop loving her?"
"I don't know Amber. I have been through Hell and I still find myself caring for her. I still respect her."
"How can you love her when she did all that? she was with someone else. How can you love someone so much ?"
"I am really not sure. I guess that's who I am. I still remember watching her kiss that boy and laughing, but I still loved her laugh. I think love is not about getting the person you love, it doesn't always turn out that way, love is about loving someone even if they love someone else and are happy with them. When we truly love someone Amber, their happiness is all that matters wether it's with or without you."
"Now that I think, Jenna was really lucky to have someone lover her like you do. She has lost more than she can imagine. I hope she regrets it and I--"
"Don't.. I don't want her to regret or feel bad about losing me. I just want her to be happy. I don't want her to suffer because of what she did to me. I wish that she lives a long and happy life without any regrets. I hope she gets all she wants and deserves and even more"
"How?.. How can you be so good towards her when she did nothing to deserve it?"
"It's just who I am Amber. Your extra-nice kidnapper"
"Well, I am glad to have been kidnapped by you." i smiled.
"Okay.. Com'on let's go and make breakfast, I'll teach you how to make scrambled eggs"
"Awesome! let's go."
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