Anna's P.O.V.
Day that we all went to our heat and Felix unfortunately went on his first rut was terrible all I remember was looking across the table at his black eyes coming towards us. Fear danced across my face as I thought of all the terrible things he could do without knowing it. I pulled myself up and ran to him hitting his shoulder with all my might yelling “GO TO THE ROOM!!” He shook his head a couple of times then stumbled, I looped my arm with his and pulled him the direction of our room. Soon as we got to the room he shook his head and nodded to me, I leaned against the wall trying to think of anything other than the way he looked walking to us. Leaning against the wall I slowly wrap my arms around my chest the heat was overwhelming I couldn't think of anything else. I could feel drips of sweat forming on my forehead as I sank against the wall.
Without warning, I feel a warm rock hard body next to mine, looking up and see Felix standing there his eyes black again. Felix leans down and runs his nose down my side of my face to my neck. I could feel his cold yet warm breath against my skin breathing deeply for a moment I close my eyes. Felix wrapping his arms around me pulling me closer I slowly look up at his face he plans his lips against mine in a very passionate kiss. Instead of fighting back, I lean into it at that moment he was everything I wanted everything I needed. I heard Taylor yell at him, I wanted to yell at her to 'GET OUT' but was not able to talk. Taylor says something to him as he pulled away pushing me to the door. Taylor pulls me out of room shut the door quickly behind her locking from the outside. “Are you OK Anna?” Taylor yells at me, I nod my head as I wrap my arms around myself falling to the ground. Taylor puts her hand on my back “let's get you somewhere safe” she says almost in a whisper. I nod my head as I look around the room Sandy nowhere to be found Taylor points to her room “you can take my room.” I look at her almost afraid of her reaction she smiled at me “it's OK I know how heats work you can use my room....... I'll sleep here in the living room and make sure that Mr. Eclipse stays in his room and behaves himself.” I smile at her and stumble to her room as I enter I notice that all of her boxes were still scattered around not even opened the bed was not even made. I reach into the closet and grabbed a spare blanket wrapping myself in it tightly, instead of laying on the bed I push myself into the closet and shut the door it felt safe.
That day was intense with constant visions of Felix and the moment that he almost lost control hunted my every thought. What could have happened of Taylor didn't stop him, would I have let him do what he was thinking, could he have helped me through this painful heat? The next day I felt a little better I stumbled out of my cozy closet into the door, I was thirsty I was hungry I needed something. It was not uncommon for females in heat to lock themselves in small rooms something about tight spaces made us feel safe. I stepped out of the room and notice Taylor in the kitchen making something, I took a step forward to her then suddenly stopped when I smelled something very tantalizing I turn my head sharply to my and Felix's room that is locked up. I hear him scratching at the other side a low growl trembling noise coming from the door. I take a step forward to the door breathing deeply I look down at the bottom of the door jam and see his fingers curled up on the other side. I slowly slide down a touch his finger almost feel him tremble so soft a warm inviting I move my hand up the door to the door nob.
Arms wrap around my waist and jerked me away I look up in anger and in surprise when I see Taylor and Sandy standing there. “What the hell do you think your doing?” Sandy yells out. I shake my head for a second “I.... I just want to see if he's OK” Taylor shakes her head” he's in a rut Anna he needs to stay in there he is dangerous.” “I know I just need to see him” I say desperately trying to pull their hands off me to get closer to the door. Sandy holds me tighter down to the ground forcing me to look at her “Anna he is dangerous you are in your heat... you go in their things will happen that he will regret do you want to do that to him?” She asks when the realization hits me I slowly nod my head no she looked at me again “I am going to get up can I trust you not to run over there?” “I'm not going to run,” I say slowly nodding my head OK. Sandy nods her head again and slowly releases her grasp on me, we both get to her feet, and she pulls me to the kitchen still I turn my head back to my door. A whistle catch my attention as I turn back to the kitchen, Taylor catches my eyes “are you OK in there?” I shake my head to get my senses straight “yeah... I'm... OK do we have something to eat maybe some milk.” I say as I wrap my arms around my body starting to feel the heat creep up again, Sandy wraps her arms around my shoulders “yeah we have some food I'm gonna heat up some milk right now.” “Thank you, Sandy ....how can you be so fine with this” I ask looking at her. Sandy lets out a small laugh in looks in my direction "who said I was fine with this I'm just barely keeping it together myself ....the only reason why I came out is for the same reason you did I'm hungry unlike the guys we need to eat during this time.” She says pulls the milk out of the fridge I take a seat at the lander.
“I mean it Sandy.... why is it I'm the only one being affected by Felix and no one else?” Sandy turns round after putting some milk on the stove to heat up “because you were close to him when his rut really kicked in.... all these feelings you are having for him will go away Or .....you will have crush on him.” “But trust me it's way worse for him” Taylor chimes in I look at her confused “why do you say that?” Taylor walks over to the islander with a sandwich and passes it to me “when a guy goes into a rut, and he doesn't have a female or has his mate with him to help his mine will play trick on him giving him visions of the last female he saw ...will that's the way my brother describes it.....” I look at her a bit confused she takes a deep breath and hands Sandy another sandwich she made “it's like his mind begins to play a movie he can feel taste he has no idea that it's just his imagination not until his rut is over.” I take a big bite out of the sandwich and shake my head “that would be terrible,” I say with a full mouth. Sandy almost slaps me “close your mouth” she yells in a motherly voice. I shut my mouth quickly and give her a quick smile as she slides over the cup of warm milk. I grab the milk as quickly as a can and drink it down “thank-you.” Sandy takes a step away “no problem I needed it just as bad as you did.” I quickly wrap my arms around myself feeling the heat climbing up through my stomach once again I close my eyes putting my head down to the cold table-top.
“I think you need to go back to the room” Sandy says in a quiet calm voice I nod my head slowly and try to get to my feet stumbling a pit. I feel some arms wrapped around my shoulders and look to the side only see Taylor “let me help you” she says. Slowly we move to her room as we begin to pass my room the smell of Felix hits my nose once again. I stop dead in my tracks and look at the door Taylor tries to pull me, but I don't budge I just stand there and stare at the door. Taylor tries to move me one more time but this time I rip your hands away from me and run to the door grabbing the door nob desperately trying to open it. She tries to pull me off, but I push her off quickly Sandy rushes to me before the door is unlocked “YOU NEED TO STOP NOW” she yells at me still on top of me. “He could make this go away!!” I say in defense “he can make this go away for both of us...... and you know it.” I say looking up at her desperately. Sandy takes a deep breath a looks at me, “he could.... but he would never forgive himself for it.... now I suggest you go into that room tell this is all over.” Tears roll down my face “I just want to make this stop” I desperately put my arms round myself trying to calm down the urge to bust through the door again. Sandy slowly wraps her arms around me “I know it hurts, let us help you.” “Why is this not affecting you?” she smiles and looks down at me “I'm just a little better at hiding it” I shut my eyes again as the heat runs through my body again “OK help me .... help me get to the room.” Sandy tighten up around me and help me get to my feet slowly moving me to the room.
Soon as I step inside I hear the door locked behind me instead of rushing over I find myself curling up in on the ground pulling a comforter over my body. A fusion a Felix's well cut body peers in my mind the memory of him hovering over me and kissing me passionately crosses my mind more than once I replay it over and over. The next day the heat finally subsided I slowly get up from the blankets and move the door. Not expecting the door to open I hold out my hand. It opens quietly as I peek out Sandy and Taylor are sitting on the couch talking I creep over and sit beside them Sandy. Sandy smiles at me “I see you're feeling better than yesterday.” “Yes, a lot better” I say pulling some hair out of my face. Taylor shakes her head “maybe you should take a shower and then get out of the house for a minute.” Sandy and I look at her in shock, Taylor wider eyes “what?... you should” Sandy clears her throat “don't you think that would be a little dangerous for us right now?” Taylor shakes her head “not at all as long as you stay together and don't get anywhere close to a guy you should be fine."I think it over a little “actually that does sound really nice come on Sandy.” I say as I pull on Sandy arm, Sandy slowly gets up with her head down “ok…ok I'm coming” she grows slowly moving behind me. As we take our showers I hear voices echo through the room “so did you think of him?” she asks I roll my eyes and look down at my wet feet. “I would be lying if I said I didn't think of him a little” I feel my face getting red with each word. I hear Sandy “well....tell me is he a good kisser?” she says as she lets out a small giggle. I roll my eyes once again “will he isn't bad... I…I mean....man I just wish I could go back to seeing him as just a friend.” Sandy is quiet for a moment “you can... you just have to be patient just ....don't let it go any further.” I slowly look over to where she's taking “what do you mean? Take it further?” “Let's just say I'm kinda in the same boat..... not too long ago I let it go further.... it's really hard to get it out of your mind if you give in.” I squint my eyes “who do you have a thing with?” suddenly the shower is turned off, and she steps over to my stall ripping the curtains open, scaring the s**t out of me. “Well looks like your all done let's get ready and head out.” Desperately I grab my towel “Will I'm done now ...why do you always have to art like my mom?” Sandy laughs as she wraps the towel around her and walks out of the bathroom. I slowly wrap a towel around myself and head it out the door as I remember Oh no Felix is in my room. I look over at my door and see my scratch marks up and down the door from the previous day.
“Don't worry about clothes I have someone I think that will fit you.” Sandy says over her shoulder. I look at my door closely as Taylor turns around to see that I'm look at “yeah you were pretty eager to get in there the other day.” “I'm sorry I didn't know that come over me” I mustard out Taylor and Sandy begin to laugh. “Don't worry about it, we all have done things we're not proud of” Sandy says as she throws a yellow sun dress. I take the sun dress and look at it shyly “don't worry it will look good on you,” she says as she quickly finds her outfit for the day. After I slowly slip on the dress I look at Sandy ''thank you for helping me Sandy” she flings her hair out of her face “don't worry about it.... you would do the same for me.” I smile and nod my head yes “now that we have that out of the way.... let's get out of this house for a little I'm sure Felix will be emerging from his room anytime.” I can feel my cheeks beginning to blush “sounds like a good idea to me” I said as we run out the door waving goodbye the thought crosses my mind ...do I really like Felix more than a friend?