Hitting Rock Bottom

Chapter 4 News

Yvette's POV

After leaving the hell hole that only makes me think of my husband. I find myself driving faster than I probably should and with the haze in my head fading away but instantly filling with anger after every thought of him. Pressing down firmly on the petal, is all that my foot can seem to do. It's now lead and needing to get to the next destination. Which is just as far away from the house as possible.

I look down at my clock in the car, seeing that it's right about time for them to be wrapping up from the live broadcast right now.. So they should still be there for a little while longer.. It will give me enough time to see them and hopefully take my mind off of this. I can't wait to show up and surprise them all! They love me and have done everything to help me out during my hospital time.. and they seemed sad when I had to take some time off for this surgery, so I know they will be happy to see me, with open arms to greet me.

I'm supposed to have the rest of the week off, being away from work.. but I just need to see someone to make me feel better, even if it's just for a small moment.. Anything to make me smile and feel good. That's what my confidence needs at the moment.

When I park in my dedicated space, I get out of my vehicle feeling a little bit of lightheadedness hit me.. but not enough to stop me. My stride and pace continues on this feel-good mission, as I keep walking across the parking lot to the back doors. The security guards see me and obviously know who I am, so they let me by without hesitation.

I take the elevator up towards our station's main floor which is pretty high up in this sky scraper. So with each second spent in here, leaning back against the wall, my mind can't help but drift off to my drama at hand.. which is understandable.. but I want to take my mind from this.. that's why I'm here.

With each litte pause made when we make it to individual floors, I get brought back from my thoughts. But with being alone in this elevator it's easy to fall right back into those stressing thoughts.

I let out the deep breath I never even knew I was holding in, to try to ease the pressure in my chest and hopefully calm my heart down. The dinging of arriving to our destination loudly rings in here alerting of the next stop. Once the doors open, I step out without hesitation, exiting the open elevator doors.

It's pretty quiet in here, which is normal at this time because most have headed home.. But my group would always stay a little later to talk about the live session, before heading home. So I'm hoping to be involved with that if anything.

I head to my little office area and no one is over there which makes sense. Why would they be in my office if I'm not here? So I'll keep looking around. Not many are in the bullpen where most the researchers are, but there is this sweet girl I have always liked is there. She has always been so nice and respectful towards my husband and I.

"Hey Yvette! I didn't expect to see you so soon! I'm assuming that means the surgery went well?" Elle asks me as I smile and nod. "Yeah everything went well, thanks for asking Elle.. and I just need some company.. feeling lonely." I respond to her a little sadly but not trying to show how heartbroken I really am. She looks taken back by this comment as she quickly jumps up giving me a hug without a moment to lose. "Is your hubby working again? So he can't make you feel better?" She asks as I shake my head, getting her attention.

"I don't know what he is doing right now.. He told me all about how he has been cheating on me with tons of girls and has left me for one of them that he got pregnant. He told me all about his feelings from day one apparently.. but more information then I ever expected honestly." I explain as she steps away from me with guilt and pity in her eyes.

"Tons of girls? That's awful.. Ugh.. I swear I only had one time with him after last years Christmas party, but nothing more no matter how many times he tried.. I told him I felt awful because you're so sweet and there was no way I would be apart of hurting you more.. I'm glad he finally told you but I hope there is no ill will towards me." Elle states as my mouth drops open so wide as if it would touch the ground.

"I.. had.. no idea you were even involved.. he never told me names just that he did it." I say to her as she gasps now knowing she threw herself under the bus unknowingly. "I'm so sorry.. I just.. I'm.. oh man, I'm sorry." She states running away to hide from me now.. and I would be doing the same thing in her place. I really have the strong urge deep within me, to punch someone now.

With the my jaw clenched shut, and my fists tightly squeezing, making my knuckles white. I reluctantly force myself to walk out of that room not wanting to be there anymore because I really don't want to punch her, but I will. This anger is building up higher with all the new information I'm acquiring, that's making me feel as if it will collapse at any moment like a jenga tower. Exploding on everyone around.. and I don't want that. So I need to take myself from the negativity before that happens.

But I'm hoping that seeing my crew will make me feel better even just a little. I get further down the hallway hearing cheers getting louder as everyone talks loudly making the cheers harder to understand. But it sounds delightful and exactly what I need right now. I turn into the open doorway seeing my whole crew surrounding the new girl, my assistant, as they all drink champagne.

I get even more nervous before lifting my hand to knock on the door frame. It gets everyone's attention but not in a good way because their smiles turn to concern. I don't know of the concern is for my safety or concern that I'm here right now.. but either way it's making me nervous.

"Hey guys.. what's going on in here?" I ask lightly hoping to show I want to be in a good mood and not stressed about what they are doing or what's been going on with me. "Hey... Yvette.. Why are you here and not at home? Aren't you supposed to be resting from your surgery?" Adam my production manager asks as I shake my head, but before I can respond Cynthia my casting director is adding. "Yeah we didn't expect you back for at least a couple more days. You need to take care of yourself."

I nod, understanding what they are meaning. "I know.. I know.. I was just feeling alone at home and needed some fresh air.. so I came here.. and perfect timing apparently because there's a celebration." I say to them grabbing a glass that has champagne in it as it's quickly grabbed by Adam out of my grip and set back down on the table.

This action surprises me but I don't argue with it.. I probably shouldn't be drinking, no matter how badly I want to be. "I guarantee that you're not supposed to be drinking right now.. but... we are celebrating a good show we just had.. higher ratings than we have had in a very long time." He explains as he looks back at the group nervously. "Oh well that's good." I say a little sadly, knowing that I wasn't involved in the best ratings.. but knowing how good this is for our channel.

"Yvette can I talk with you.. in the other room please?" Adam asks me as my eyes pan to everyone around, their saddened eyes tell me what I assumed was happening. I just nod and go with him, hoping this isn't it.

We get into the other room as I watch him shut the door behind him. He let's out a deep breath looking around. I think he is trying to figure out how to start this. He paces before turning to me and stating. "So we needed someone to sit in your seat for the news tonight and we let Kamie take that lead." I nod as I look over at him clarifying. "So you put MY ASSISTANT in MY SEAT?" I ask as he nods and then reluctantly states. "Yes.. and she had the best response we have ever had, along with causing our ratings to sky rocket." I huff out at his explaination.. Of course she is better than me at this.. that's why they brought her on.. they are replacing me.

"So you're replacing me?" I blatantly ask of him as he groans out, running his hand through his spiky, gel-filled hair as he replies. "That's sounds so much worse with how you're saying it.. that's not how I want it to be or look." I feel my eyes rolling without hesitation as I spat. "Then say it to me in a way that it won't sound worse, since that's not how you want it to look."

He groans out looking from me to the floor then back to me. "We just knew how hard of a time you're having with your.. condition.. and this job can be a lot for most, especially anyone with health issues going on.. But Cynthia and I have decided that we would love for you to stay on the team.. and to help with everything in the back.. just not in front of the camera." He explains to me as I groan out even louder than him. "So you feel bad for me and don't want to fire me because of my condition so you're going to give me a useless position, so you don't feel like the worst human beings on the planet for firing a cancer patient.. I'm not accepting your new job offer.. just make sure you have all nice things to say about me as refrences, when I apply for other jobs.. and there won't be any issues with us.. I just want to wash my hands of this.. tell everyone bye for me." I snap at him as he clears his throat. "I was hoping you could make your goodbye to everyone, all at once on your last day in a couple days.. you know after your recovery. I scoff at that thinking about how that's supposed to go. I roll my eyes then snapping back. "Fine whatever you want boss.. and don't worry about me recovering.. I'll be here tomorrow to do that and be done with this.. enjoy your night."

I turn around and swinging the door open to storm down the hall and out of this place. I need a drink after all of this.