Fighting Faith

3.1

He was complaining but I didn’t know to who he was talking to me? Was I the Moon Goddess? Was that why grams said I needed to stay alive for everyone? I was feeling nothing close to a goddess.

I was not looking at him at this moment, I was too focus on trying to avoid breaking even more. My breathing was still irregular, I couldn’t seem to control my heartbeats even if I tried with all my focus, it was just too hard to breathe. Will I be able to live?

“You’re just a child” I heard him say closely.

At this point, even when I felt broken inside, I was not crying, I felt empty and exhausted. I was just silently waiting for my end. Waiting for his hands to choke me to death or at least break my neck and make it quick.

“Alpha, I’ll stick to your story no matter what” I heard someone else say. I thought we were alone.

I felt a small caress on my head. This caused a bolt of electricity to run through me until the caress stopped; that was the only form of consolation I was getting and as quickly as it came, it faded away.

“Your loyalty to me will get you killed” I heard the owner of the voice say, the only voice that could make me feel better was the one who also wanted me dead.

“You’ll grow weaker without her, you need her to…”

“She’s just a child, she has lived her life running away to have it ending here?” he interrupted the other voice angrily.

He kept calling me child, he didn’t sound so old. How old was he?

My heart was trying to break my ribcage, his touch and tonight’s commotion is taking a toll on me.

“Can you run?” I don’t know who this question was directed to. Was it me?

“She’s broken” was the other guy’s comment.

If he was talking about me, I was more than broke. I couldn’t feel anything anymore and the rain that stopped a while ago was starting to make an appearance again.

“Can you try to shift again?” were they talking to me?

“She needs to rest. This was her first shift. She doesn’t know anything. You can tell by the way she’s reacting to you that she didn’t notice that you’re her ma…”

“She knows. She talked to me through the bond, she acknowledged me as hers” was the explanation of the comforting voice. He now sounded broken and sad.

As if he had to say goodbye to his most precious possession.

‘Shift, you’ll have to do it to survive’ I heard his voice inside my head and a whimper came out of my mouth.

I don’t know what happened to me but I felt my fur again. I felt taller, not stronger but it was enough to get me going.

“If I find you again, I will kill you. That’s a promise” he said angrily.

My body shook by the way he talked to me, it’s as if I felt rejected.

‘I can’t reject you little wolf, that will break me’ I heard him say ‘But you can’t be found again, you need to go south, cross the border to Mexico and live hidden’

“Avoid the north. As soon as you touch the north you’ll be found” the other man said but I couldn’t look at him. My eyes were stuck to the only person I could look at, the only one my heart desired but the only one who shattered and crushed the pieces of it without even knowing me.

What was this attraction? Why was I feeling this way?

His face contorted as if he was still reading my mind. Why could he read it and no one else could?

‘Please’ I could hear the plea in his voice through my mind. He sounded broken ‘Never come back’.

‘You killed… you killed my parents’ I said through the mind link and he laughed, motioning his head as no. But it was not actually denying the statement, it was as if he found it unbelievable that I even asked for that instead of running away.

‘You’ll be dead too if I find you here tomorrow’ he growled inside my head.

My legs trembled due to his allegations. I will die too.

But grams said I needed to go north, not south.

‘Don’t even think about it, I’ll kill you myself’ was his warning again.

‘Why… why do you hear everything I’m thinking?’ I asked hesitantly.

There was no answer. We stood a couple of minutes just looking at each other, trying to understand everything, but nothing was coming along. He feels it too, I can tell. Why do I feel the urge to be so close to someone who will just harm me?

I could feel his eyes roaming around my wolf’s face.

He looked no more than 30. Why was he calling me little wolf? Why was he calling me a kid?

“Take advantage of the rain, run” I heard the other guy’s voice. This time I looked at him. I can’t believe that the people who was supposed to kill me are actually saving me.

My eyes wandered again to the “Alpha”.

He nodded. It was like his signal letting me go.

I gave a couple of hesitant steps back away from him. What if this was just some kind of play? What if they were lying to me so that they could chase me?

I was starting to hate him. I didn’t know who he was, he didn’t know who I am yet still he had caused so much harm to me and my family. He broke everything I had. This was probably the only chance I’d have of killing him.

I growled at him showing my canines, how do I kill someone? Should I just bite him on the neck? Will I be fast enough to get the chance of killing him?

He fell to his knees with a hand over his chest and his face displaying pure suffering. Was I doing something to him that I was not aware of? Do I have superpowers?

The other guy growled at me in his human form and I retreated. I couldn’t think straight but the only thought that crossed my mind was vengeance.

‘If I find you again, I will kill you. That’s a promise’ even though I repeated his same threat, it allowed me to feel powerful, more having him in the position he was at the moment.

He was looking at me but I couldn’t hear his voice, there was silence again and knowing that grams couldn’t answer if I asked her anything.

And I ran. I ran until there was no tomorrow.

But as I was running, I felt a part of me was staying behind too...

With him.