Fated to be together or not [COMPLETED]

I love you

Alex:

She wants to talk about something. If she was happy, I would have loved these words from her. But she is worried and I am now scared. What if she wants to talk about this relationship? But I put on a brave face and with a smile answered her.

“Ok.”

I am far from Ok. I am driving but there are a thousand questions running in my mind. She is also quiet and her silence is killing me. But I promised her, I will respect her decision, and I will.

We booked a hotel and thought of taking rest there. After lunch, she was sleeping on the bed and I am sitting on the balcony of our hotel room and thinking about how I will respond if she decides to break this up. I will try to reason with her. I will beg her if I had to. I was never this nervous, but this wait is going to be the death of me. Suddenly I got a message from Mrs. Colton. Why is she sending me a message? Didn't she talk to Nicolle this morning?

“I want to talk to you about something important, Alex.”

F**k, why has everyone suddenly decided to talk to me? This is really a bad time for her to message me, but I can’t ignore what she has to say either. I have been out of contact with her for the last 1 month. I can’t ignore her.

“Ok.” I replied with a sigh.

She woke up after some time and joined me on the balcony. I can see she is still hesitating. But we have to talk about whatever she has in her mind.

“Come on Nicolle, you can talk to me about anything you want.” I tried to ease her.

Nicolle:

It’s 4:30 and she will be calling him in the next 30 minutes. I don’t want to pretend to be sick. What should I do? There is only one thing I can do. I will talk to him about my feelings. I will share with him that I like him too, in fact I love him.

He was on the balcony and smiled at me when he saw me. I want to smile, but can’t. I am filled with doubts.

“Come on Nicolle, you can talk to me about anything you want.” He tried to start the conversation.

I looked at my match, 4:50. I guess it’s time. I took a long breath. here goes nothing.

“Alex, I want to talk to you about our relationship.” I looked towards him and I could see he was nervous. Sorry Alex, I can’t relax until you disconnect her call.

“Ok, what about it?” He whispered.

“You remember, you kissed me in the RV, I mean you just pecked my cheeks and …” I looked towards him and he let out a heavy breath.

“Yeah Nicolle. I did. And before you say anything, I want to tell you. I don't regret it. I will never regret it. And while we are at it, let me tell you. I lied about our kiss in Eugene. I said it was a mistake and we should forget about it. No. it was not a mistake. But I had to say all those things. I was just afraid to show my scars to you. When I realized we were going further than a kiss, I pulled because I had not shared my past with you and second, we had not discussed about our feelings. For me, you were going to leave me and I didn't want to take advantage of you. I don't want to move forward until I share what's going in my mind and in my heart. And here it goes."

I was just looking at him and he was trying to find the best words. And then he let out a long sigh. He closed his eyes and said what I was dying to hear all this time.

“The reason is - I Love You Nicolle. I love you from the depth of my heart. I realized it when I saw you packing for CA. I realized you were going to leave me and it literally killed me. I died a thousand deaths every time I felt that it's going to be over. I realized I can’t live without you. I will simply die.” Then he opened his eyes and sat on a knee in front of me.

“So, Nicolle, here I am saying it again. I Love You. Please let me have the honor of spending my life with you. ” He was breathing heavily and I had tears in my eyes. And before I could say anything, his phone rang.

As if he knew whose call it was, he flinched and stood up in a second. He then looked at me and again at his cell phone.

I had tears in my eyes. Please Alex, disconnect the call. Please. I stood up and walked up to him.

“Please think about what I said. I don’t want to rush you, so let me quickly get this call and you can think during that time.” He pecked my lips softly and left.

He left with his phone, and picked it.

He picked the call. This was all I was thinking about. I lost. She really can make him do anything she wants. If he can leave me between his love confession, what chance do I stand. She said, she will force him to harm himself. She can even force him to kill himself.

I can't let it happen. I will have to leave Alex, or she will make his life hell. Sorry Alex, I will have to reject you, for you.

Alex:

God, it felt like hell to express my feelings, and then I saw tears in her eyes. She wasn’t smiling. Great. She was just sitting and listening to me without any expressions. Does it mean she doesn’t love me?

But I have seen love in her eyes. What was that, if not love? Maybe I don't know. I am no expert in love. I never had a normal relationship with anyone, not even my family members. 

And here I used to claim, I can read her mind. Seriously, I can't even say if she loves me or not.

And at the same time, I got her call. I decided to pick up the call and give Nicolle some time to think about it. Maybe she will call Emma and discuss it. I hope Emma asks her to accept me.

Mrs. Colton was saying something, but I wasn’t even listening. My eyes were fixed on Nicolle. She was still standing where I left her and was looking at the sky. I can’t wait any longer, so I cut Mrs. Colton in between.

“I am sorry, but I will call you later. I was in the middle of something.” I didn’t hear what she had to say. I don’t want to.

All I want to do is be with Nicolle and hear what she has to say. So, I came back to her and looked at her. She is crying silently and looking at me, she wiped her tears. No, these are not the tears of happiness. This much I am sure of. I guess I got my answer so I left without saying anything. I don’t think I can bear her saying No to me.