Mine Again

It's been months since sinagot ako ni Julia. And I am confident enough to say that I love her. I'm happy when she's happy. I miss everyday even if we just had a date.  But I think there's something wrong with me.  I don't know why or how it happened but whenever I close my eyes, I see someone else. I see her like a ghost haunting me in my sleep. AND I f*****g HATE IT! I know shouldn't feel this way. Mahal ko si Julia. Si Julia ang girlfriend ko kaya siya lang dapat ang iniisip ko. Not someone I hate the most. She basically made my high school life a living hell. So I did what I thought was the right thing to do - push her away. First, she's not my type. Second, she gets on my nerves and I'm annoyed whenever I see her. Third, she's not really my type. Even as a friend, I don't like her. Not at all. Kaya hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit laging nasingit ang pangit niyang mukha sa isip ko tuwing nakapikit ako. And worse, my heart felt weird as her tear-stricken face looked at me with sadness. Shit. This is bad. Really, really bad. ---- written by: Arytheia Dawson STARTED: JULY 11, 2014 FINISHED: JANUARY 25, 2015