MY SECRET CONFESSION

Inside the Car

**Amrita's POV**

When I stepped inside the reserved hotel room with Abhik, after checking in the reception and doing all the formalities, I was feeling so nervous and scared. Since we met in the airport it was our first time physical contact this much close, together. I can still remember the day when I first met with him, on my birthday, his continuous approach of proposing me, no matter how many times I rejected him, but it gets end finally, with my defeat, accepting him, I did fall for him gradually. We then dated each other long time virtually as he went for the selection in Kerala Blasters football team, to play matches against other teams as a goalkeeper. He played for the team long run. He was been there for several months. So we never got time to date each other with our physical presence in real life, especially after my love confession towards him. 

He plugged the key in it's place and closed the door behind just then I came out of my state of mind. He asked me "Are you alright? I have just seen you were in deep thought. Is there anything...bothering you?" .He turned back to me expecting  a answer from my end. 

I casually asked him back "Why we are here Abhik? why did you just spent these much money against booking a hotel room like this much luxury? Moreover I didn't even inform you that I was planning to pick you up from airport neither you were aware of this news then how you randomly just planned something like this without any assurance or taking consent from my end?". When I just finished my words I was literally annoyed for a moment, except the fact that, I was already carried with lot of other emotions that all hell caused, what was happened during our way head to here, my heart beat was beating so fast for god damn reason that we are in one room, only two of us. 

He looked back to the key once and then the switch board while replying me back with a smirk on his face"I knew you will come for me. And one more thing I didn't mind spent money for us when it is related to spending and sharing time with you." "I...ahm.." I was suppose to say something but couldn't find what to say further so rather I kept my mouth numb for the moment. He turned on every single switch in the switch board just to assure everything is working perfectly or not moreover to get use of which one is in function for what. Till that time being I was holding his right hand within my strong grip since we checked in, like as if I loose my grip on his hand he will be out my sight. And I am already so nervous, little bit scared and absolutely inexperience a place like this. 

He examined me for a moment and talked back" Let me go and take a shower. You also go & change in something comfortable."                                                                                                                                                    " Ohh..yes I am so sorry...you must be tired. Go change and freshen up..."  I apologize.                              "Stop overthinking. I am not gonna leave you here all alone okay..so relax. And I will not eat you up, although I want to..so badly." He stated that.                                                                                            "Huhh...what just he said..Is he out of..."  He plastered a gentle kiss on my forehead and stopped me right there with my sight of thinking further and before I could react anyway he move his head back to his way, unlocking the bathroom door and entered, keep on commenting " I will get back to you soon not more than 20 minutes. Don't worry. It just I am so f*****g tired after that long journey in plane. as you know right!! so I need to take a proper bath."

While he went for freshen-up in the bathroom, I sit on the edge of the bed before I kept his luggage and my sling bag inside the wardrobe and took my diary out of my brown color bag. I kept on moving pages until I reach to one blank page. 

I started writing the airport experience with him about 3 hours back. Hardly I wrote two or three lines, I stopped my writing...when... I didn't even realize as I went engross in deep think what had actually happened since then.

(Flashback) 

I went to Netaji Subhash Airport to pick him up and to meet with him personally after this long distance relationship for last few month, He requested me the only thing for the first time just to accompany him from airport, way back to his home. "I can't say no to him because, I want to see him, touch him, feel his touch" so, I decided I will go.  But I didn't inform him that I will come to receive him as I thought I will surprise him. But later on he surprised me actually!! 

I was thinking how he had no idea that I never ever went airport before neither I was aware of the airport route, I am sure if he knew about my zero knowledge about it, then for sure he will ask me to stay in home. And that is why I decide not to tell him anything but planned accordingly to visit him. I usually have seen airport in movies only, not in real. So, it is going to be a full of adventurous and little bit headache for me as of my first time experience, visiting a airport in real life. 

I reassured about his plane take off time from kerala, from Trivandrum international airport and approx arrival time here in Netaji subhash chandra bose international airport, so that I can manage to save enough time to reach there without being late and before his arrival. I was so nervous. I tried to look pretty well enough, before I left my room for the destination, I wore a decent comfortable cloth, did some simple touch up as this is summer season and it's so hot outside so better I don't put the heavy load of make up right!! and I left. I was already so nervous about our meeting and tensed so much. I took a bus then a train from sealdah to dumdum, then again a bus as I discussed and took the route details from one of my friends. Bus driver dropped me somewhere nearby the airport. And here my struggle began, I knew his phone will be switched off so I can't ask him for the exact place where I should reach, so I asked nearby persons for help. I went here to there, there to here, I was so puzzled for some time being. Then I followed some people when I got a call. A smile and a shy of relief came on my face when I saw it was him, abhik. I picked up the call in next ring, before he could say anything I asked him " You already reached. I was suppose to reach there before you arrive but I ruined it. Wait a while. I am just on my way, near to airport. " 

He smiled and replied " I knew it. Come to gate number one. I am waiting here...come soon. "

"But I am looking for the gate since more than half an hour and... " before I could finish he added 

"Where are you now.... just send me your location. And ask someone to guide you for the gate no 1." 

"Okay... " I said and hung the call up. First I sent him my location then asked a driver and he showed me the way pointing a path. He again called me and spoke worriedly "hey did you just find the way or not. Otherwise I am coming. " I assured him " No..no I am coming you just wait".

" No. You stay at your position where you are now. I am just coming to you. " He made the decision and declared it from the other end of the call but before he could move a single step from his place I found him already. I was just right behind him. His back was in front me. Obviously he couldn't see me neither I, as his front is just right opposite to me but still I recognized him due to his height, yes he is 6"3', so tall, easily recognizable into crowd. I pointed my one finger from his backside, touching on his back " Hey... there you are...see I have found you.. "

And he turned back to me with a smile on his face and before I could give him a smile back, he just simply hugged me in front of all. I blushed resting my cheeks on his chest and felt a spark, a sensation in me. "Damn....he smells so good...so fresh..whereas I....why didn't I use a light perfume at least."I thought in my mind. Certainly I came out of my thinking, when I heard his cold seductive husky voice, teasing me" Well... I don't mind if you want to be in this position holding me for long hours and trust me I like the fact... we can be like this hugging each other lifetime but I wonder how didn't I know... you do like my touch...my hug this much " . Certainly I separated from him startling little bit, feeling shy, embarrassed   " Ohh.. am sorry... I just.. "

"It's okay.. Let us go now. I already booked a cab. And it's on it's way. You can hug me there for long through it's way. See here he is calling. Just give me 1 minute.."

Abhik told me for wait as he went little far to talk over call and I did so waiting for him with his luggage. He came back with the cab driver who lifted his luggage. He also helped him, and I did too, followed by him. We sat on the back seat. I felt little hungry. I don't know whether he read my mind or what...but in the next moment, he handed me a box and asked me to open it. I opened it and I found a chocolate cake and a sandwich wrapped in a transparent packet inside. I told him "Here you go...have this..you must be hungry.." he nodded his head saying "no.. I am full.. I am not hungry at all. I ate enough while travelling via my route....This is.."

-"Then why you asked me to open.... "

-"This is for you. I know you are feeling hungry enough. Probably you left early from your room. Lastly when you ate by today?"

-I just took my breakfast at 7 ...but I.. 

-Ssshhhh...no but... see I knew it. Just eat now...eat like a good girl.

"Okay... I nodded my head and start eating. It was so delicious and yummy. I crave for chocolate cake. I just love it. I was devoted in eating side by I felt his gaze upon me. But I ignored it. He was staring me like a hungry child, he was actually enjoying something looking upon me. I bend my head down to look if there is something present on my skin or dress but hell no I found nothing weird in me then what is he enjoying so much looking at me...I thought for a while then before I could ask him about it, I guess he understood my gesture and replied me "well I am just wondering how beautiful one can look and be hear like, while having her food with her pleasurable ear soothing moans. And I am so lucky to have you as an honor in front of me to take in the charge of cherishing the moment .you are looking so breathtaking when you are moaning against whatever you are taking inside your mouth. I know this is your favorite food and it's yum too but your moans are next level...so seductive same like your killing look. "

"You are such a...well you want some? " I asked.                                                                                            "No..."he added "I am fine being watching you..." nodding his head.                                                                          "But you have to take one bite at least. " I became so shy and to change the topic I intended to feed him, moving little closure to his side. 

"Surely I would love to take every bite given by you..feed by you..."he smirked slightly.."but you have to come little close by my side. After all you are my girl friend, so you don't need to feel discomfort around me or treat me as a stranger. "

And with his these sentence I became stiff to my place, I can hear my throb due to nervousness and shyness. 

He noticed me thoroughly then he pulled me little more close to him and before I can place the piece of cake inside his opened mouth suddenly the car turned so quickly that I fall in his chest.

My whole body was on top of him.

I screamed loudly in fear as I hugged him tightly. "What just happened...I asked..."I felt like our cab is going to crash as it hit with something...and it made me hold him more tightly"

He was holding me by my waist tightly against his rock hard like chest while adding his words against my question" It's fine nothing happened." and he scold the cab driver little louder "And brother you, are you insane? go smooth and carefully on the road, we are not in hurry."

My breasts were pressed tightly against his hard rock like chest. I felt more shy and embarrassed about the situation when I came to realize it. 

It become worst when I find myself messed up more. The cake piece is already falling apart in between my fingers due to my stupid stunt as I did so, just what happened then. 

I made a sorry puppy like face and he shocked me grabbing my hand and then licked every single finger from top to bottom, leaving no traces of smashed cake portion. 

"what are you doing...this is..you don't need to... " before I could take any move or finish my sentence he shut me off putting his one finger on my parted lips...continuing his ongoing task faster to end it but passionately, and he replied me " I can't deny my girlfriend's intention to feed me. Moreover this was our first time that you wanted to feed me. How can you expect I am gonna miss it!! "

While I was almost engrossed by his words and he was busy staring at me once again but this time down to my exposed chest. I didn't notice that my boobs were practically hanging in front of his lustful gaze as we were still in the hugging position. 

He forced himself to stop staring at me then trying to cover up my exposed chest by pulling the portion of my shrug. 

I felt little awkward about the moment and tried to get up but end with falling again into his lap.

He seemed breathless as he looked deeply into my eyes.

"Ammy, are you trying to seduce me? you aren't done enough? I can't take this anymore. I am feeling like I want you right here right now"

Seduce him? No! I would never do that. Why should I even!! When I know he already like me so much from the beginning...Why he just said that to me? 

I was so embarrassed, my cheeks were little red.

"You don't have to feel embarrass, soon I am going to make you mine." He whispered in my ear while with his nose, he was busy smelling my hair. He run his face in my exposed neck while taking in my body scent.

"What did he just mean by that line? Isn't I am already his girl friend?"

He was holding me too tight. I tried to get up but he was too stubborn not letting go off me. He placed my head on his chest and caresses my hair gentle. He patted on my head until I felt secure and relax under his chest.   

"You smell so good." He muttered. 

"What.. what Just he said. I heard him right!!! Right? "

I closed my eyes tightly without thinking twice I asked him "how far we are still now. When we will reach to your place? Then I have to go back to my place as well. "

"Ammy.. we are not going to my place now. I have planned something else for us. "

"What do you mean ? " I asked shockingly

"Just have some patience until we reach the place. We will spend some good time together."                     "But where we are going please tell me na... " I pleaded like a baby girl but, he didn't respond to my words, he just keep looking at me with lot of expression. I had no idea what was going inside that head of him.

Time to time he kept on touches my waist! my curves...my hair too! He is so shameless! We are sitting inside a car! can't he realize it! 

Moreover why was he looking at me this way? He was making me feel more insecure. I felt like he was eating me with his eyes. " Stop looking at me like this... " I demanded. 

I was biting my lower lip hard nervously, his lusty eyes followed my action. He slowly caresses my cheeks then kiss on my forehead making my eyes widen in surprise.

The way he was looking at my exposed self on his chest made me feel unknown sensation, I felt hot within this ac cab, under his shameless gaze on my barely exposed skin.

I never had this kind of experience before.It was so strange...I felt completely naked in front of him.

He touched my lips...rubbing my soft lower lip...and broke the silence finally "I can't ammy...you are so beautiful, mostly so cute...and sweet, I can't stop admiring you that I missed for last six month. "

With that he pulled me closer wanting my lips to touch with his lips. 

"What...are you doing? Please stop this... Abhik! This is not the right place. 

"I want you so badly. But you are right. This is not the right place I will wait until we reach the right place. " And he was kissing my neck instead of my lips. My eyes were first widened in shock because I couldn't gulp what he just said by now so I didn't realize neither I was in state to protest when he was kissing on my neck. 

Finally the cab driver stopped his car and informed us that we have reached at the desired place. We came out from the passenger seat with our luggage and entered in a guest house c*m hotel. 

Entering in the hotel , This is really a beautiful one.

It's my first time coming to the luxurious hotel like this. I have seen this kind of hotel in the television only. Just wow....no compliment left after this...the owner must be really very rich. I was thinking all of this and admiring the hotel's beauty. When I was in the lobby with him, I was thinking why we are here.. Is he planning to meet with someone here.... but before I could think any further, he asked in the reception we want to check in the room against my name and her...he places our identity card..he took my card when we were in the car...he again continued....it's already paid. Check it once and confirm the same.

what the hell...he booked a room for us...I rolled my eyes against him...he gave me a eye expression as a hint to relax...as if it's alright...don't get angry or depress. And I kept my mouth shut. 

Then suddenly the lights turned on when we entered in our room putting the keys on it's holder. I saw I am in a beautiful room and it's my first time seeing this type of beauty and luxury.

(Flashback end) d on his belly so hard with my next sentence “Stop laughing or otherwise I will continue to pinch you until you stop ".

" Ah... Ahh... it hurts. Leave me babe... “He screamed in pain.

"OH... it really hurts you now... and just imagine how I felt like when you were on top of me and pinching on my nipples...licking sucking biting everywhere putting lovebites all over my body...huh..??. "

"So you are taking revenge right now...okay fine...leave me right now otherwise I start making love to you again.. "

And just immediately my hand slipped over from his belly after listening to him...turning back not wanting to face him so I could avoid serious torture once again all over my body. 

Moments passed.... and he hissed into my ear... "Love. You didn't tell me which part of my body you find the sexiest most if it's not my c**k.

" You know it already... "I giggled.

" Huh...what? " silence...few seconds again...It seemed like he really didn’t have any idea what I was talking about or meant by as his frown expression expressed everything and was clearly visible in his innocent eyes. 

"Well it's your throttle... "

"Seriously!!” He was astonished as he asked me immediately "What is so sexy about it.... and how come... "

"Sssssshhhh.... I sshhed him... Putting my one finger on his lips... as he grabbed me and pulled me close. I took this as an opportunity to hover on top of him and caressed his throttle with my right hand fingers and finally I opened my mouth

" I don't know why how or what... but the only thing I know is... I find it sexy...and you know what.... I feel like kissing you there as long as I can, every time when my eyes capture your throttle.” 

"Then kiss me.... kiss me as long as you want to or you can... "

"Ha-ha... but I won't. Right now I am happy to caress it."

"Acchaa(Okay)…. but I can't step back from loving you or kissing you...and you know....my body is aching again with your touch on my most sexiest part...(emphasizing on the word “sexiest” accurately ) as per your thought. So shall we... "

"No way... Abhik... " I didn't let him finish his word. 

"Okay fine... “And he moved in other side as to pretend he was disappointed. I didn't give him importance or sympathy for his fake disappointed look...instead I then went to the dressing table to grab the water bottle wrapping up myself with a towel as I didn’t have any bathrobe right there then. After drinking water I turned, to go back to my bed again but my eyes caught something...my most favorite chocolate: Dairy milk....my pupils dilated a bit as I felt an urge grab some pieces of it. So I turned back to him to ask for his permission...instead of going back to my bed. 

Before even I could ask he replied...without even opening his eyes “Love that is for you. I know you love this chocolate most so have it without any hesitation. Here is no one else for whom I might have carried or brought this. Right? Isn't it...ask yourself...so stop giving me surprised look and better you let go off any hesitations. “

" OH... really... Thank you... thank you so much... "

"Well if you really want to thank me then I have so many better ways... ".

" Oh... Really... Then no thank you... "

As soon as I opened the chocolate wrapper... I dug myself into the chocolate bar. I almost forgot even Abhik’s existence in the same room. I devoured myself so much that I didn't even notice when he pulled out my personal diary or I must say my secret diary.... and indulged himself into it...where I write down everything... even my personal weird demands or wishes or urge to experience something or taste it. 

I moaned so heartily... Closing my eyes...with the taste of chocolate... but certainty I came back to reality when I heard his shocking word... 

"OH... my god.... Fantasy list.... Wish list... And... "

Before he could finish I shouted, "What is this Abhik... put it down...right now...this is not right... Or else I will not consider it as a good manners at all... you can't read my dairy without my permission. "

"Ohh... my poor babe... I have already read it. "

"Abhik... You are such a.... "

"Such a what!! "

"Nothing... “And with this I took 2 pieces from the chocolate bar and pushed it inside his mouth so that he can't pronounce a word further more.” You should enjoy this taste too... "

Not a moment passed when he finished his chocolate inside his mouth and whispered inside my ear... 

"Babe... I would love to taste it and enjoy it after melting this chocolate around your pussyhole & spread it all over your clitoris...and after that I would like to lick it and suck it from your beautiful p***y. I can’t even imagine the taste it would have. I would bite your beautiful p***y hole with my inexperience.  Still I would play with your p***y with my skillful tongue & f**k you hard until I confirm there is no more trace of chocolate left..."

I gulped and was dumbfounded  & open mouthed...as I couldn't even digest the fact what he just said...I thought, ‘Is he f*****g crazy....or sick in his mind...fucking my p***y with melted chocolate....yaak....’. I couldn’tt even process the fact....and almost screamed...

"Stop it...Abhik...just stop it...enough...are you insane...what are you talking about?...are you f*****g out of your mind for God sake!!!... Stop sounding like an exact jerk... "

"What's wrong with the idea love? ....this my fantasy..."

"What...!!! Fantasy!!!!!!"

"Yeah....okay ...cool cool....”. He came close to me...pulled me close to him...bit more...then grabbed my waist under his strong grip of hands and then whispered into my ears...let us bath together at least... as this is in one of from your wish list. 

And that's it.... I don't know what came to my mind , we headed together as I didn't think twice. I just nodded to him in agreements as okay without knowing or thinking what the consequences may be. What could befall me due to listening to him. 

"Let's go... "

My heart started beating so fast... And I just thought in my mind... How and why I actually said yes to him... Is this because I really couldn’t resist the experience as it was in my fantasy list as a wish or else because of the fact that. ..It is actually going to happen in real life or maybe I was just so turned on after listening to his creepy fantasy desire. I wondered in my mind. 

I came back from my thoughts. The water drops started falling and it touched my skin. 

He was holding me in his arms on his shoulders and we both were under the shower. And I didn't realize before as I was occupied with my thoughts until water drop touched me. 

I came back to me senses & thought... "What the hell...?” 

"Put me down... Abhik... "

"Sssshhhh.... "And he immediately plastered his lips with mine devoting himself into a loving passionate kiss although a hungry and demanding one. And that was it... It turned me on as I replied or responded to his kiss with a returning kiss as I held him tightly crossing my hands against his neck and devoured my lips with his. I parted away once just to say... “I love you too...”

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And guess what next then.... this three words gave him the wrong signal and followed by this, he again came back to his beast form. When he drops me down... from his hold hurriedly,  I was surprised at first by his unusual act and I thought...                                                                                                                                                   "Isn't  he listen to me so quickly !! without any drama...strange ..!!" but I just wiped out my thoughts and  became determined to say a 'thank you' to him  with a thank you hug for listening to me so soon. So, I just simply hugged him putting my head on his chest, crossing my hands against his bare back followed by the water drops constantly falling upon us coming from the shower. But I was so wrong to think about him like that as to in my dreams as he didn't give me a second chance to think about anything and plaster me into the wall while pushing his one finger inside my core with his full strength followed by his kissing and licking on my neck and collarbone. If it would possible then he might be dig me into the wall and then took me there. I gasp loudly from his certain act.

"Abhik! Please..!"

But he started kissing me shutting down my every protest that I wanted to do against him. His hands were grabbing my soft wet body with his rough ones. He kept on his rough passionate kiss towards me until I loosing breath. 

When I got a single chance to push him back... I pushed him and tried to get away but he grabbed me by my hand and picked me up like a bridal style and placed me inside the bath tab.

"what are you doing....abh...!!"

He didn't let me finish as his words equivalent with his action shut my mouth automatically.

"I am making love with you jaan...don't disturb me...as I know how badly your wet core is  aching for my touch. It's craving for my member to go inside." with this he smirk and took the shower gel from a rack. He took some portion from the bottle in his hand and slowly starts rubbing on my shoulder then followed by neck, chest and then breast. Caressing my body gently. He was actually torturing me in someway with his shameless actions but slowly and gently. 

 (To be Continue)