MY SECRET CONFESSION

Old Memory Lane

**PRESENT DAY**

*Amrita's POV*

It's morning. Time around.... no idea. I have got a call, I don't know who the caller is, as I just picked it up without noticing the caller id.

 I was sleeping in my room with my sister.... I had a bad dream last night or today whatever, likewise past few days and from yesterday I was suffering with bad cough and cold. Headache, paining in several body parts are common symptoms during seasonal viral fiver. I am not the exception as well. While I was just thinking any other torture is left for me or not....then, it comes with the sore throat. It's too much for me to tackle with. I couldn't even take normal water except warm one or tea. I took medicine last night to feel little better but it's of no use till now, that I come to realize when I received the call and said hello with great difficulty, full with dizziness and sleepy eyes, after getting the reminder from my sister, that my phone is ringing.

 Truthfully speaking, first I thought I heard the alarm next I felt like a ringtone like sound is buzzing or roaming in my never ending bad dream... but when my sister tried to wake me up confirming " Di (elder sister) your phone is ringing. Take this and let me sleep" and then I realized it's actually the ring tone of my cell phone in real. 

"So what! It's fine. I know this is a bad mistake. But it's alright" I said to me and asked " who is speaking?" over the call, after getting no response against my hello. 

Actually last I heard my phone ringtone almost two month before and after then today. I almost forgot even what was my last ringtone that I set for my number. My phone remain silent all the time. If you ask the reason why then I will choose to answer this question some other day. 

Coming to phone call...may be today is a coincidence that my phone wasn't in silent mode and the incoming call...all together to make me feel a little better, a little warmth of care. When I answered "hello..."and then "who is speaking?" and finally got a reply from other side.

For first few second I was in shock... I heard the right person behind the phone or not. I doubted on me. Is it the same sexiest voice that I heard several times before and crave for lifetime or else it is just a beautiful dream that I am dreaming now. Is It really him, Abhik, my boyfriend. Sorry he is now my ex (though we aren't done closure yet). 

I again asked him just to confirm I heard the right one.

"Is it you? "

"Why! did you expect someone else? "

"No.. It just you called me after so long... "

"why? don't you like my morning voice now? are you still sleeping... I will call you later then... "

"No.. no.. I am fine. Tell me...what's the time by now by the way "

"It is almost 7 am by now. I was just wondering how is your health so I called you.I just felt you are not well. But after listening to your voice I am sure you are really not so well except it is not because you are sleeping that's why your voice sound like so... may be it's just a mistake but... "

"No..I mean you are right.. I am really not well."

"What happened to you? "

"It just I am suffering with viral fiver... " and then I continued talking like a non stop machine. I couldn't talk clearly due to my sore throat still I emptied almost every single details like a child complaining or demanding something near to her parent or close or favorite person. He told me then

"I found you online last night until around 2 am or may be more than that... "

"You still follow me.... whether I am online or not... Well I had work to finish within deadline and send it back to the client so I was awakening...and.. "

"You could do this next morning... Isn't it. Your health matter first.. but you never.... "

I cut him off... "No stupid it was important. It was from one USA client. And their timing is different from us. You know right. "

"I don't want to argue with you right now. Just take care of your self. Go visit a doctor. "

I smiled and replied " I will... You also take care of yours okay... " and he said to me "okay I will try... ". I mean seriously I heard him properly right. He never ever gave me a straight answer like this before since I broke up with him but today he did so. It's feel so amazing. After he cut our call I closed my eyes for a while and I felt I badly want him right in front me just to hug him tightly with no gap left in between us, without thinking twice I had started imagining about him. I imagined that I am hugging him, embracing his presence against me, inhaling his body fragrance inside me that arouses all my nostrils extreme. The feeling of deep warmth of his body consoling my shivering body from cold, giving me the ultimate comfort that the coverlet against my body was unable to give me even little in real. I have opened my eyes certainly, still I can feel the sensation inside me.

"Damn it. This is not done. This can't be...no actually, this shouldn't happen with me. How I can just feel him the same by just imagining him... the same way as I used to feel before.. with his every single touch. " I thought in my mind and tried to remind me "get up damn it. What this nonsense you started thinking again..." but hell no, it's actually no use for now. I again drowned in deep thought in old memory lane, which lead me to the special day of us, the day that change our life, the day that made me a complete women from a girl when we had our first intimate moment together.