The Firefighters wife

stronger than she thinks

Jacks pov

Bella has endured more than i could of ever thought she is a very strong girl and she is very strong and she is unbreakable when most would crumble she stood her grounds and she made sure that he knew he never stood a chance she stood up strong and tall to the man who abused her and hurt her so bad 

i have never met a woman like her she has been threw hell but yet she has never broke she still always wears a smile and she is always willing to help others and she never let what she has been threw slow her down

i have alot to ask her i want to know what that pig did to her! she is a wonderful person and i deeply adore her strength, determination 

i got a crush on her and i cant seem to dampen it, i know its not professional to date a coworker but i cant help but fall harder and faster for her.

i dont know how i will ever confess my feelings for her but i think she feels the same for me because i know when i kissed her and she kissed me back it was more than just her trying to show off to Draven she put emotion in it and passion she kissed me like she loved me, i have never been kissed that way before but like her i also have demons that i have to surface to her 

i am 25 i will be 26 in a month from today actually i was engaged and left alone at the alter when i was 23 i have distanced my self from women since then because i didnt want to get hurt again 

i havent kissed or touched another woman since she left me standing looking stupid but i am fine with it now she was far from right for me she was controlling and she hated me working as a fire fighter she wanted me to quit and i did consider it so i could be with her because i thought i loved her but over the years i realized it was not love at all it was just me being young and dumb  

when i was 18 i had a bad drug addiction and i broke the chain at 19 when i overdoesed and almost died. i was in school and training on becoming a firefighter and i caved and acted like a light weight and i should of never turned to drugs but i did and i have learned from my mistakes and i have taken  all the proper steps to ensure that it never comes to that again 

i hope that her and i can talk about our pasts and get to know each other better 

i pull into her driveway beside her car and we both head into her house 

she gets us both a glass of wine and she orders us pizza for dinner since she feels a lil overwheelmed since all she has went threw

*Jack i would love to explain about Draven and why i stayed if you wouldnt mind listening.* she says 

*uhh yes* i tell her 

*Draven offered me the job off of a professional website that had my picture on it, i should of stayed away but i couldnt resist the job offer Draven kept stating that i was perfect for the job and he offered me many bonuses and kept raising them the more he talked to me and then once i got here he became more of a perv and i told him that he doesnt have a chance and he hit me a few times i wanted to quit but i would of lost everything and i didnt have anything to fall back on and Draven always made threats to me and he told me that he would come after me if i left  and until i met you i was to scared to stand up to him but you lit a fire in me and made me feel like i was unstopable and i could conqure him and that is what i tried to do* she says with red cheeks that look aforable on her and i cant help but smile at her adorableness 

*Well i am glad i have helped you gain a backbone and i am also glad you got the courage to leave that job and to distance your self from that awful person. i am also glad that i could be of help for you because i really like you Bell* i say 

i didnt mean to unload so much on her at once but it just came out and i couldnt stop it 

*Well i like you to Jack but i dont want to rush it, my life has been nothing but hurt and i dont want to get hurt anymore, i hope its okay with you if we take it slow* she says looking worried

*Yes i would love to take it slow at what ever pace you would like to take it but friends for now is alright with me there is no need to rush anything, if i am moving to fast at any point dont be scared to tell me to slow down and i will*  i tell her 

*Thank you. i was left when i was younger and i was inlove with him well so i thought here i was just pretending to be in love with him when all he did was hurt me and cheat on me before he left me for another girl.. he is the only man i have ever been with and i honestly wouldnt know what i am doing if i am being honest and i am nervous he was supposed to be the only man i was ever with* she says 

wow she is still pretty much a virgin she has only ever been with 1 man and i find that cute since i have only ever been with 2 women in my life and my fiance that left me looking stupid was the last i have been with and it has been almost 3 years since i have been touched by a women so i guess you could say i am almost like a virgin my self 

i explain my situation to her and i am honest with her i tell her everything including being left looking stupid and that i havent been with a women in years and i am practically a virgin as well 

she laughs at me and i dont know if its a good thing or bad

*Im sorry i dont mean to laugh i am just glad that i am not the only one who is not so expierenced, and i dont know how a man like you doesnt have women begging you to be with them* she says and i smile 

*Well i was wondering how a women like you isnt already married you are absolutely beautiful and your smile can light up a room, your past may be dark but i want to brighten your future* i tell her 

*Your perfect and i dont know what i ever did to deserve a great friend like you* she says as she smiles brightly at me 

she thinks she is lucky well hell she doesnt know that she is the one who saved me she gave me the will to push harder to be safe in fires and she taught me that all lives are worth the fight and she is going to do great working as a paramedic. she is nott only going to save lives but she is going to keep me strong and i couldnt be anymore thankful for her 

the talking continues for a few hours before we both decide to head for bed

*Jack would you mind sleeping in my room, you can either sleep in the bed with me or i can sleep on my couch thats in my room* she says 

*Yes i will bell but i cant promise that i wont hold you threw the night or that my friend here wont be standing tall come morning but i can promise that i will not do anything you dont want* i tell her 

*Well i think that will be fine with me* she says as she leads the way to her room

*where is your bathroom at?* i ask her 

*there is the mater bath in my room if that will be fine* she says 

*yes that will be fine* i tell her and once into her room she points me the bathroom 

i head into the bathroom and i quickly finish and head out to her room 

we both climb into the bed nad i am am suprised when she slides back against my body and she snuggles right into me 

i place my arm over her and hold her close to me to keep her safe