Midnight Sky

Chapter 17

"Ma'am NASA labas na po si Sir Kyo!..."

"Sandali Lang ho!..." Nataranta ako Ng marinig Ang sinabi Ni manang Olivia. One of our trusted maid here. Kinuha ko na Ang aking sling bag at saka tumapat sa salamin. I fixed my hair a bit. And also fixed my lipstick. Nang makuntento na ako sa aking itsura ay lumabas na ako. Pababa na ako sa hagdan, Nakita ko si manang Olivia na nakangiti sa akin. She looks like a proud mom smiling widely.

"Ang ganda mo Naman nakkong..." She said. "Of course manang, mana sayo eh..." I said Ang kissed her cheeks goodbye. We both laughed before I got out of our house. Paglabas na pagkalabas ko Ng pinto ay napatingin ako sa aking paanan. Huh? A rose petals? Sinundan ko Ng Ang rose petals path hanggang sa makarating ako sa katapusan nito. Itinaas ko Ang ulo ko upang Makita ko Kung Sino Ang nasa harapan ko. Kyo was smiling at me while as usual, wearing his magical sunglasses. He looks handsome with his maroon polo shirt partnered with a white pants and a– I don't know what brand of shoes he's now wearing but it screams expensive. He looked expensive even though simple Lang Ang mga suotan nya. Al though branded lahat Ng damit nya but still.

"Oh! We looked like a couple!..." He exclaimed while checking me out up and down. Napatingin ako sa aking suot. I wore a maroon cross front maxi dress and partnered it with my white heels. We do really looked like a couple.

"Shall we go na darling?..." Sabi nya at saka inilahad sa akin Ang kanyang kamay. Nginitian ko sya at saka tumango bago tinanggap Ang kanyang kamay. Pinakbuksan nya ako Ng pintuan. Akala ko ay iikot na Rin sya para makapasok sa driver's seat pero nagulat ako Ng ipinasok nya Ang Kalahati Ng kanyang katawan sa loob. He buckled my seatbelt slowly. My heartbeats becomes faster. Parang anumang oras ay lalabas na Ito Mula sa aking dibdib. Konting galaw ay mahahalikan ko sya. Natapos na sya sa pagkabit Ng aking seatbelt ngunit Hindi pa Rin sya umaalis sa kanyang pwesto.

"Hindi ka pa ba aali–..." I was cut off by a soft object crashing into my lips. Kyo was closing his eyes habang magkalapat Ang aming mga labi habang ako Naman ay dilat na dilat dahil sa nangyari. Hindi nagtagal Ang paglapat Ng aming mga labi. Humiwalay Rin kaagad si Kyo sa akin bago ngumiti Ng matamis. Tumayo na sya at umikot para makaupo sa driver's seat. Napakahilig talagang magnakaw Ng halik Ni Kyo!

"McDonald's?..." He asked while driving.

I hummed in response at saka tumingin at sumandal sa bintana. Nasaan na kaya si daddy? Nagkatuluyan na ba sila Ni tita Veronica Kaya nya kami naisipang iwan? O may importante Lang syang gagawin? Paano na kami Ni mommy? I don't want to see my mom's broken and shattered side anymore. Pati ako ay nasasaktan sa tuwing sumisigaw sya sa sakit na nararamdaman nya. Nahihirapan akong Makita sya sa ganong sitwasyon gayong Alam Kong Ang tatay ko Ang dahilan nang kanyang pagkapighati. My mom chose my dad always. Hindi nya nakuha Ang pagmamahal na gusto nya sa kanyang pamilya Kaya hinanap nya sa ibang Tao which is si daddy, but sadly, I don't think daddy loves her too. Hayy pagmamahal nga Naman.

I sighed heavily. Actually parehas kami Ni mommy. Hindi ko nakukuha sa kanila Ang pagmamahal na nais ko bilang isang anak nila Kaya hinahanap ko Ito sa iba. That's when Kyo entered. Sa kanya ko nahanap Ang pagmamahal at atensyon na dati ko pang inaasam at hinahanap.

Minsan, sa kahahanap natin ng taong tatanggap, mag-aalaga at magmanahal sa atin, nakukuntento na tayo sa kakarampot na pagmamahal. Kumbaga, ayos na sa atin ang kaunti kaysa wala. Hanggang sa tatanungin mo na lang ang sarili mo, bakit kung sino pa ang mas nagmamahal, siya pa ang mas nasasaktan?

Siguro, hindi sa kung sino ang mas nagmamahal, kung hindi sa kung sino ang mas hindi alam ang pagmamahal na nararapat para sa kanya.

It scares me now, how I crave for happiness 'cause ever since I can remember I only tasted glimpses of it. I never had the happiness that lasted long enough, like a day or two. It was always short-lived. And now that I am on the verge of everything, I am craving for it like a mad man. I can do everything just to have that happiness they define in books and poetry, that happiness that will make you feel the bliss, and I can do anything just so I can afford having it, even just for a day.

And it scares me, 'cause I am willing to even choose death if it will tell me that the afterlife is a place where happiness can be found.

"Kyo anong order mo?..." I asked him. Tinawagan ko na lamang sya para tanungin Kung ano Ang order nya. Sabi nya Kasi ay magpa-park pa sya Kaya baka daw natagalan sya. Me on the other side was already soooo hungry. Nagca-crave pa Naman ako ngayon sa chicken. I wanted to eat na kaya nauna na akong pumasok sa mall.

"Gusto ko ng Mcfloat, Mcfries, Mckapiling ka Mckasama ka yan ang panalangin ko~..." Wtf!? Napatawa ako Ng mahina sa kanyang naging sagot.

"My dear Kyo, kapiling mo na ako ngayon at sayong-sayo na ako. Ano pa bang gusto mo?..." I asked in a teasing manner while smiling to myself.

"W-wala na..."

Silence.... Wala na Isa sa Amin Ang nagsalita.

"Kasi ih! Shibal naman! Athena wag mo na akong pakiligin ahihihi..." Napatawa na ako Ng tuluyan. Napakadali namang makuha Ang kiliti Ng lalaking Ito. We talked a little bit more while I was heading to McDonald's. Pinatay ko na Ang tawag nang Makita ko syang papalapit sa akin habang nakangiti Ng malawak. But something's wrong. Ang dalawang nyang kamay ay NASA likod nya na para bang may tinatago.

"Ano Yan?..." I asked referring to the thing he was holding from behind. Nagulat ako Ng ipakita nya na sa akin Ng buo Ang hawak-hawak nya. It was a bouquet. A combination of color pink and purple tulips. My favorite flower. I smiled widely.

"Thank you!..." I said using my jolly yet tiny voice. I always does that when kuya give me some flowers too back then. Ginagawa ko din iyon kapag nagustuhan ko talaga Ang ibinigay sa akin. I smiled sadly, I suddenly missed my siblings, specially my kuya Zeus. Ayokong masira Ang momento namin Ni Kyo Kaya minabuti ko na lamang na kalimutan Ang aking naalala. Kyo grabbed me from my waist for a tight hug giving me a peck on my forehead.

"That's your reward for making me blush...." Napakunot Naman Ang noo ko sa kanya. "Just kidding..." He laughed a bit.

"That flower was a thank you flower for coming into my life, for giving me hope, for giving me light, for making me happy, and for building me to be a better man for you. I love you my warrior Athena. My goddess of war and wisdom..." He said while smiling at me. Nanubig Ang mga Mata ko at niyakap sya Ng mahigpit.

"Hay nako! Tama na nga Ang drama..." I said while wiping my tears. Kyo chuckled before putting some strands of my hair to the back of my ears. "Lika na!..." I said and hold his hands. Naramdaman kong nagulat si Kyo sa aking ginawang biglaang paghawak sa kanyang kamay. He intertwined our hands together at saka sabay na kaming naglakad.

First stop.... National bookstore! Actually this place was my favorite among all the places in a mall. Gumagaan Ang pakiramdam ko whenever I see some bunch of colors, colored markers,water colors,paints, canvas, and even different shade of pencils. But most of my favorite part of this place was the bookshelves. There are lots of books that I can buy here. I'm more into romance though but with a twist. Gusto ko Yung mahihirapan silang dalawa. Hindi lang Ang babae o Ang lalaki Ang mahihirapan. Gusto ko Yung parehas silang maghihirap dahil sa kanilang naging desisyon. Kailangang maghiwalay para mahanap Ang sarili. Kailangang maghiwalay dahil parehas na silang naliligaw sa Kung San man sila dapat paparoon.

To leave someone is hard But sabi nga dun sa libro na puro tula na nabasa ko:

'Noong unang panahong ay busilak, totoo, at tunay Ang pag-ibig ngunit Hindi lahat ay matagumpay'

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They said that you would love yourself better and longer than anyone else. But falling in love with yourself is also a process. You will arrive, loving you slowly. It will take time. You will need to dig deep down to find your soul. And if this is hard for you, You need to start with small deeds. You can love yourself by simply knitting your own scarf or pulling those ribbonlike traumas out. Forget their names. Scream in the shower. Write poems about the person you are becoming. Stop spilling I'm sorry from your mouth. Learn how to say no, take some time to breathe, or allow yourself to take a nap. Remind yourself that it isn't the sun's fault that it burns etternally, just as it isn't your fault that you are not whole. And don't ask yourself to always choose yourself; instead, give a chance to things and people that can contribute to your happiness in that way you're gonna find yourself but not only yourself cause you'll also find happiness within it.

"Athena! Tignan mo oh!..." Kyo rushed towards my direction. "Ano Yan?..." I asked. May ngiti sa labi nyang iinaas at ipinakita sa akin Ang kanyang hawak. It's a learning book– for kids. Nangunot Ang noo ko. Hindi nya pa ba Alam bumasa?sumulat? Magkulay? Why does he even wanted to buy this stuff? Is it necessary for him?

Lumabas na kami Ni Kyo bit-bit Ang aming mga pinamili. He was smiling all the time. Ganon na ba sya masaya dahil nakabili sya Ng learning book for kids? He doesn't have any younger siblings left right? So para saan yon? I choose to shrug my thought off. Sasakit Lang Ang ulo ko kakaissip Kung ano ba Ang totoong dahilan.

"Kyo lapit ka dito daliiii!..." Aya ko Kay Kyo. Tuwang tuwa ako Ng makitang bagay na bagay sa kanya Ang damit na napili ko para sa kanya. Nakabusangot si Kyo habang nag aantay na makahanap ako Ng panibago Ng damit na pipiliin ko para sa kanya.

"K-kuya?..." A girl shyly called Kyo's name. Nagpatuloy ako sa pamimili habang pinapakinggan Ang paguusap nilang dalawa.

"P-pwede b-bang–... "

"Dalian mo na kasi!..." Pag uusisa sa kanya Ng mga kasama nya.

"Pwede bang pa-kiss kuya? Dare Lang hehe..." Nangunot Ang noo ko. I clenched my fist trying to calm myself down.

"H-hindi Kasi pwed–" tatanggi na Sana si Kyo nang putulin Ng nga babae Ang salita nya.

"Kiss Lang Naman kuya eh! Tsaka Wala ka namang girlfriend diba? Ang gwapo mo Kaya kuya Kaya pagbigyan mo na kami!..." That's it! I've had enough with their shits!

Humarap ako sa kanila using my cold and straight face. I glared at them while arching up my one brows. Natulala sila sa akin at Parang nanlamig. Nang Hindi pa Rin sila gumalaw ay nagsimula na akong lumapit Kay Kyo. Iniaklo ko Ang aking kanang braso sa kanyang kaliwang braso. I tilted my head pointing the direction of the exit of the store. Nagmadaali at nagtatatakbong umalis Ang grupo Ng mga babae palabas. Kyo on the other hand stood their like a statue. I raised my brows to him asking him why? He shooked his head multiple times and swallowed. Tinanggal nya Rin Ang pagkakabutones Ng unang butones Ng kanyang polo upang makahinga Ng maayos. Pinagpapawisan na sya. Pfftt Natakot din ata Ang mokong.

Nang matapos na kaming mag shopping ay nagpunta kami Ng arcade. We played and played. Andami Kong hawak na malalaking teddy bear na napanalunan kanina Ni Kyo. I was smiling widely while eating my purple cotton candy. Pinailaw ko Rin Ang suot Kong Minnie mouse headband. I looked at Kyo who's currently looking at me. I smiled cutely letting him know how very happy I was. He held his chest and acted like he was hit by something because of my smile. Natawa Naman ako Ng mahina dahil sa aming kapilyuhan.

"Mas maganda ka pa Kay paraluman...." He said while looking deeply into my eyes. My heart skipped a bit when he took a bite into the cookie that I was biting already. Our lips almost touched. We looked at each others eyes not minding our surroundings. It feels like we're deep lost in each others eyes.

I wanna be peacefully in love with someone who shows me the same interest and gives me the same energy. I want to wake up everyday and sleep every night with a big smile on my face because I know I’m in love and being loved with the best person on the earth. I wanna be with someone who valued and appreciates me and most of all‚ someone who will accept me for being who am i.

In short...I want Kyo, to be my love....

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