CHANGED

Memories aren't my friend

OMEGA'S POV

"I've been trying to figure out, why." Cas walked up and down Gram's back veranda, his eyes filled with a pain I knew to well. "Why you've kept them a secret. Why you've pushed all of us away. It wasn't until now that I realized just how far you'd taken this." He pointed inside, where I knew may babies were, and my best friend. 

I swallowed, a lump grow in my throat. 

This was by far my worst mistake, the moment I got here I knew it. This, this just confirmed every fear I'd had. 

"Because when you had those kid's you didn't just shift did you." I couldn't believe this was happening, I'd tried so hard to keep my secret, to save Luna the trouble of being pushed under the bus. She'd only done it to save me, to give my kid's a mother. 

"No, I didn't. I died." I don't want to say it out loud, I never had. Not even to Luna, and it was her that had done it. 

"I couldn't work out how Asher was effected more than you, why he had to have twice the amount of medical attention you needed. It wasn't till I followed you, I heard the thoughts you keep buried inside. Buried from even you." Just say it, I wanted to scream at him. 

"You are a hybrid, wolf and vampire."

I breathed out a sigh of relief, and nodded, tears burning my engage as they ran down.

"But, how? It's impossible!" I couldn't do it to her, she'd risked everything for me. I owed Luna everything. So now I'd do the same for her. Even if it meant changing the whole story. 

"The Prince vampire." I tried to breath, but the air was thick. I continued.

"We met one day by accident, a few month's after I got to town. I didn't even know what he was, he didn't know who I was either. I kept my pregnancy a secret, afraid I'd scare him off. He was so kind, so loving. He treated me like I was the only girl in the world, I wasn't used to. A few month's of seeing each other, I stopped showing up for dates, changed my phone number. 

I was to pregnant to hide it, to scared to tell him. He managed to track me down and he found me one night, he seen my belly and was obviously horrified. He was a prince and he thought I was another stupid human that strung guy's along" I turned to look out into the forest, I'd never lied to him. But that's all I'd done since I'd gotten home, he was right. I had changed, but had I changed in-to someone even I didn't recognize anymore? Probably. 

"He told me who he was, and how messed up I was as a human, he told me that his dad was right that human's meant nothign. You can imagine his surprise when I told him who I really was, what I really was. Why I'd run away from my pack, and somehow he understood. We talked all night till, well till he had to leave. Being a prince who had found himself involved with a wolf changed a lot of thing's, he didn't want his dad or his 'guards' to stumble across me while looking for him."

And now for some of the truth, only the vampire was Luna's man. She really had no idea it would turn so ugly the way it did.

"Until his dad did find out, I was two days in-to giving birth. It felt like it went on forever, and he showed up. Luna tried to keep him away, but without being a real wolf she couldn't do anything to stop him. He made my labor speed up, I don't even know how one minute I was fine; the next minute I was pushing out twin's." I turned to look him dead in the face, I wanted him to see the horror in my eyes, the pain I went through without him or Asher to save me. 

"I couldn't stand the pain, I went in and out of consciousness while I watched him tear apart our house, our lives, telling me in detail what he was going to-do. After going in and out of consciousness for hour's, I started to shift. This just made him more mad, he drained my blood, and bit me. The pain was like nothing you can imagine, the burning sensation as every art of you starts and stops working over and over again, my wolf side fighting back only made it worse!"

"O." I didn't want to hear it. 

"No! You wanted to know, now you can listen to every detail! Because that wasn't the end, Luna was kept alive, there to deliver the babies when it finally became time, and she did. I wasn't even awake. When I woke up, she was crying, resuscitating Kai he was so small even for being my first born. My prince was standing next to me holding my little Kallanii, his dead dad laying across from me. He'd saved my life, he'd save all of us. But it was at a price, a price that I'd no longer have my human side, I'd have something much more dangerous, something more darker! If it wasn't for him my babies would of been living vampire feeders!" The memories felt like it had happened yesterday, the wounds still fresh! 

"And that's why I can't be what yous all need me to be! 

Because I'm not, I'm something that shouldn't even exist. 

I'm a mistake! 

I'm a complete mistake! 

I'm not the Queen Asher needs, or the wolf's need! 

And if you honestly can't see that after telling you all of this, you have some serious problems!"

I jumped up, oh god, I was dreaming about telling Cas? 

My brain really hated me, as if I needed to be reminded!

I tried to get up off the bed, the room dark, my arm pulled me backwards, I followed the cord, a drip?

What the hell is going on? 

I tried to remember my last memories. 

Oh god, NO! 

"Welcome back to the living Queen, how are we feeling?" A light turned on, Law walking to sit next to me on the bed. 

"WHERE AM I!? GET ME OUT OF HERE I NEED TO FIND THEM!" Law put his hands up I defense. 

"Relax, Cas and Asher have been out looking!" oh god, my babies! 

Please let them be okay! 

"I need to go with them!" 

"Listen I know you want to leave but you can't, you need to stay here were I can keep an eye on you!" 

"SO THIS IS IT!? HE FINDS OUT AND I GO INTO LOCKDOWN!? I'M STRONGER THAN THE BOTH OF THEM, LET ME GO!" 

"I know you are! But you going out there going crazy right now isn't going to help anyone! We have Kai! His." Law trailed off. 

"HIS WHAT LAW!? DON'T f**k WITH ME RIGHT NOW!"

"Didn't plan on it darlin!"