Fall In Love With A Feline

Chapter 7

--**Kevin's POV:

I don't know if it's due to her monthly period or maybe due to my refusal to mate but she changed once again from trying to act like human to not caring at all. Also, she was just so clingy before, now she completely ignores me.

Not just that.

She's become a complete human feline...

She returns to sitting on top of the table and climbing the countertop. She would get off every time I tell her off but then, she would run to our room and would never come out until I call for her. She would scowl or roll her eyes on me every time I try to reprimand her from doing things she usually does as a cat.

It's like we're back to the beginning, and she's become more difficult.

She even took out her toys... those toys that I kept her busy back from her feline days. I had to admit though, after convincing me to play, it's fun to play with her and she looked hella cute enjoying chasing the laser dot.

But... she's human. She can't do these things anymore.

"Kevin!! That red dot came from that?!" She questioned with a hint of frustration with brows all furrowed, pointing at the laser I was holding. I didn't know she would turn her head and look at me as we were playing, not when she's so focused hunting the dot. I didn't mean to reveal the biggest secret of all.

"No. It's nothing." I shrugged followed by a chuckle as I hide the device behind me. "Look! Up the wall!" I exclaimed, eyes wide while pointing off to the far wall near the couch.

She was quick to snap her head to the direction I'm pointing. I immediately pointed out the laser where she's looking and she was quick to run to it.

I loved how her long hair flows as she moves, how gracefully she runs and jumps. I love how her body stretches as she reaches to catch the dot. I love her melodious whining when that dot would disappear every time she thinks she caught it.

But she isn't supposed to be amused by this stuff.

She's human...

However, the behavior I'm starting to hate is whenever we would be eating-- she reverted back to eating on the plate without using any utensils and if I tell her to use one, she would stand up and leave me to eat alone.

I've learned hating eating alone, now that I have someone to eat with. But she refuses to come back to dining whenever I tell her to do something she doesn't want to.

It's as if she's refusing everything I'm trying to teach her.

Because of this, I've come into terms with myself to just let her do what she wants because the last thing I want is for her to starve herself and worse, to leave my side. She's human now and sooner or later, if she won't be changing back, she will go out and see the world because basically, cats are curious creatures. She may be afraid of going out now but what if she overcomes her fears and let her instinct take over like she said cats do?

Nevertheless, I don't want to see so upset on the things I force her to do. 

I don't want her to realize that she hates me because I was trying to change her into something she's not. Maybe, she really wouldn't stay as a human forever.

"Kevin, I want more kimchi, please?" She asked as she chews a piece of meat she picked from her plate using her bare hand.

I stood and went over to the refrigerator to get the kimchi we both made yesterday. However, I jumped in surprise when I heard glass shattering on the floor. After quickly turning around with the plastic container of the said side dish at hand, I found her still sitting on her seat, index finger out and is about to push the empty bowl towards the edge of the table.

"Hey Abey!! Don't even dare!" I threatened with my loud, deep voice thundering inside the dining area. She stopped chewing the food stuffed in her cheek while eyes widening after I yelled. Then, her gaze went to my form but despite my warning, her index continued to push the bowl right off the table.

She was already able to overcome this uncontrollable urge to knock things over. I just don't know why it came back.

She's been doing this, knocking over things whenever I'm not looking.

Good thing, the bowl was thick so it just bounces once and did not break to pieces.

I scowled, looking at the shattered pieces of glass on the floor and the bowl before darting glares at her form who now bites the tip of her index finger before looks at the mess she did.

I went and put the container on top of the table before turning around again to get a brush and pan to clean up her mess. This is getting frustrating but I could only just sigh out loud.

Before sleep, I told her to take a bath then change into her pajamas while I wash the dishes. However, after finishing my chore, I found her laying on the couch, watching the TV with the same clothes she's wearing the whole day.

"Did you not hear what I just told you to do?" I asked, feeling exhausted.

"I'm sleepy... maybe tomorrow, Kev." She lazily replied.

"No... now. You need to take a bath every day. Get your lazy ass up now, Abey." I retorted.

But instead of getting up, she stretches her body and yawns loudly before curling like an infant, occupying the edge of the couch, comfy on her new position.

"Don't let me drag you to the bath, Abey. Get up now!" I ordered sternly.

"What for, I'm clean anyways. I don't have fur, I'm pale white and I don't see any dirt on my body." She retorted back as lazily as she could.

I stomped my way to her which had her alarmed, perking her head up looking up at me. I grabbed her waist and picked her up from the couch, carrying her in my arm.

She did not fight back. She just let me lift her from the couch with my arm tightly around her waist but as I walked towards the bathroom, I hit my pinky toe on the corner table which immediately drained me of all my energy.

I groaned loudly at that very moment and at the same time, I lost my hold on Chaey.

Fortunately, Chaeyoung landed on her feet. I crouched immediately and held my precious pinky toe as if it's the most fragile thing on earth.

"Kev, you okay?" She asked, crouching down beside me, peeking at my face.

"No..." I quickly answered, followed by a soft groan of pain while massaging my toe as softly as possible.

"This won't happen if you just listened to me." She said which I immediately frowned to.

"This won't happen if YOU listened to ME." I retorted emphasizing important words.

"I'm a cat, right? So why would I?" She asked, head tilting.

"Where's your tail then? Where's your fur? Where are your paws and claws?" I asked.

"But I'll change back to a cat. No need to do these things and teach me anything."

At that moment, the cat caught my tongue.

My pinky toe hurt but her words hurt more, realizing what it may mean to her.

Does she look forward to changing back soon?

Has she given up?

"Come on. Let's get me cleaned up." She smiled but it wasn't the same smile anymore. It wasn't genuine, it wasn't as sweet...

Realization continued to hit with how had been behaving lately... how she acts more of a cat now...

She was trying so hard to learn to be a human, now... that drive is gone.

Was I too much? Have I been too strict?

Was I pushing her to act like someone she's not?

She wanted to be a human for me. But with the way I've been behaving -- getting mad when she doesn't get what I'm teaching, scowling upon her feline behaviors as if I didn't know she wasn't a cat, snapping irritated and angry at the little things she's used to be doing because... she's a cat.

"Kev?" She called me softly, head tilting to the other side.

"Are you... not-- happy?" I asked.

"I am. I'm full, and a bit sleepy. But, I'm happy." She replied.

What? So, that was it?

She's happy because she's well-fed... is that what she's saying?

"Okay... Let's get you cleaned up." I nonchalantly muttered before sighing.

I brushed her teeth for her while she sits on the side of the sink because she said she's too sleepy to do so.

"Are you really going to die if you see me without clothes? Are all human males dying when they see a naked female?" That's what she asked while I scrub her back. Fortunately, I can't see her body since we used the tub while I sit on the edge with only my feet soaked in the water full of bubbles.

Honestly, I enjoyed giving her a bath. I only see the skin from her shoulders though seeing her nape with her hair tied in a high bun that took a while for me to tie, was the most attractive part I've ever seen.

Perhaps, I'm allowed to stare at her like this just this time.

"Uhm... I lied. Not really gonna die but, just... I can't really handle seeing you naked." I answered. 

"Why?" She asked.

"Well... because--"

"Nah, I don't need to know. I'm a cat." She said, cutting me off.

I felt a stab in my chest with her reply...

Did she already give up wanting to be a human?

Suddenly, she turned her head over her shoulder then look up at me, "Kevin, will you do me a favor?"

"What favor?" I asked.

"If you get a mate, please give me away to someone else, whether I'm a cat or human... if you find your mate and wants to have babies, please give me away." She answered before turning her head up front again.

"Why do you want me to give you away?"

"I don't want to be with you when that happens." She answered quickly.

"I-I thought... you... love me?"

"I do. But, you're not the right owner for me anymore if that happens. I have no choice but to leave you."

"Even if you love me? You'll leave me?"

"Yes... because I'm not gonna happy."

Her words made me feel worse compared to how I felt being invisible in other people's eyes. It's worse than forgetting my birthday nor my existence.

But I have to dismiss these feelings.

Maybe she doesn't mean that. Maybe it's just given the situation when I refused to mate with her, that she's sulking about it.

I should give her time...

After bathing, she refused to wear her pajamas and even took her new undies off once she was inside our room. I threatened that I would lock her up inside the bathroom if she still wouldn't listen.

But that was just a threat, I would never do that to her... never.

It was just a threat but the look of genuine worry and fear she gave me broke my heart. Though the bright side of this was she always did what I said.

However, no matter what threats I threw now, it no longer worked. She just ignored me and climb into the bed in her birthday suit.

I'm supposed to get used to seeing her body but no matter how many times she shows her body to me, I'd always get flustered and hot so I always look away, turn around or close my eyes.

The one thing that didn't change is how she embraces me before sleeping even if I had my back on her.

Before, when I fall asleep, I would still wake up laying on my back in the middle of the night, finding her sleeping soundly on top of me. A few nights now, she no longer cuddles.

But every late night I'd wake up, my realization would run in my head, that the love she said she had for me was just really love as her guardian because I provide her food and shelter...

Does she not felt any human emotions for me at all?

Mating with me was because of her instinct because I aroused her when we kissed? Was it all her feline instinct?

She said that she loves me... and she was almost begging me to tell her I love her back. What does that mean?

But she wants me to give her away if I found someone else.

Does that mean she's done with me because she didn't get what she wanted?

After I refused the mate with her, her I love yous stopped. Even the cuddles, it changes to just laying her head on my lap and asks for scratches then would move away.

She hadn't embraced warmly when she wakes, she hadn't rubbed her face or forehead on my chest or even my cheek.

Does she really see me as an owner?

Does she not see me as a person?

Her person?

Does she really love just because she benefits from it?

Was that my only use for her?