Past the point of no return
"Nowadays young people are increasingly planning for their future and thinking ahead, seeing the bigger picture better than, for example, their parents. This is a good sign and indicates that this generatsioon is successful and educated. Many of them are already working and studying at the same time, actively participate in courses, research and lectures. This situation is due to the fact that nowadays, within just a few years, people can achieve and experience a lot more than others who had lived a few decades ago. It's all thanks to advanced society and technology." That's all what he had heard by society and especially from school.But still he wondered, with this tense, confusing and fast-pace of life that can go on for decades, some people still forget one important thing. They often do not want to become aware of this fact. Then he remebered that just the other night when he had analysed himself accidentally, he realized something. "Or maybe they too create their own so-called imaginary or parallel world, where they live happily and there is no room for death or misery."
It had been a very bad day. He couldn't even remember worser one. Of course he couldn't, because today he finally got his sober mind back and realized that things aren't looking good at all.
I was almost as he wanted to ruin his life in his subconscious or to get punishment from something.