One Night, One Baby

Chapter Six

Chapter Six: "I prefer your d**k but the pasta would do for now"

Six f*****g months of being pregnant and I feel so exhausted already. My tummy is so big that I can't even see my peepee anymore. It's so sad that from unli s*x with my gorgeous but asshole husband, all I get now is a f*****g handjob. I feel so frustrated that I end up crying every freaking night. I thank the Lord for Kai's long string of patience because honestly if I was the one in his place I would've been long gone. I'm a bitchy hormonal pregnant man. I go from laughing one moment to crying the next.

"Do you want some pasta for lunch? Or pizza?"

Oh, I really love this asshole. Sinong mag-iisip na siya yung Kai na playboy at spoiled brat? No one would think that Kai will be the responsible. He is indeed a good father, what more if our baby is born in this world. I bet Kai will spoil her with all the things a girl could have. Yes, a girl, our baby is girl. Nalaman namin yun last week nung nagpa-checkup kami. A healthy baby girl. Nagulat pa ako nung biglang umiyak si Kai habang tinitignan namin sa screen si baby.

"I prefer your d**k but the pasta would do for now. I'm f*****g hungry but not for food. Food will suffice for now."

He chuckled lightly and walked towards me. He leaned down and pecked my lips softly. Ugh, I want deeper kisses but he isn't giving me any. Puro pecks lang! Mabubusog ba ako sa ganun?! It's so annoying but Kai said that if he kiss me deeper then he'll want to burry his thick and long c**k inside of me. Bawal pa naman na yun dahil sa masyadong malaki yung tummy ko na hindi ko na kayang gumalaw masyado.

"You have my d**k, it's yours forever."

Umirap na lang ako sa kanyang sinabi. Aba dapat lang na akin na yun forever dahil kung may ibang butas siyang pinapasukan niyang kanya e lagot siya sa akin. He will never see the sun rising ever again.

"Whatever. Go away, asshole. Kuha mo na ako ng pagkain bago pa ikaw ang makain ko."

I was caressing my huge baby bump when my phone beep. Inabot ko yun at nabasa ko ang message ni Baekchan. Papunta daw sila ni Luhannie ngayon. It's a good thing that they're coming today. Kai went to a photoshoot and will be back late at night. Nakakalungkot mag-isa dito sa bago naming bahay. It's so big for the two of us. Mas okay na sana yung penthouse kaya lang sabi ni mommy Dara mas maganda na daw na sa malaking bahay kami para maluwag yung playing space ni baby. E sa sobrang laki nitong bahay baka tamarin maglaro si baby.

"Anak why are smiling like that? Ang creepy. May balak ka na namang kalokohan ano?"

Dada asked teasingly. He was referring to that one time when Kai went out with his friends (with my permission, of course) and then an hour after he left I suddenly felt so horny that I called his phone to tell him I'm in labor even if I'm not. I only wanted him to come home as soon as possible. That prank caused a major fight between me and Kai. Aminado naman ako na kasalanan ko yun pero naiinis lang ako dahil sa sobrang galit niya daw that time e dun siya natulog sa guest room. That night was horrible. Iyak ako ng iyak hanggang sa wala na siyang nagawa kundi bumalik sa kwarto namin at aluin ako.

"Don't think of pulling another I'm-in-labor prank, okay? Maawa ka kay Kai. He's been nothing but a good husband to you so please stop doing naughty things. Wag mong sagarin ang kabaitan niya."

I poured my lips and nodded my head. I wouldn't do another prank like that. I don't like fighting against him. It's painful to see his hurt expression. We both know that I'm really horny due to pregnancy hormones which is the reason why I did the prank but I don't want to do that again.

"I won't do it again, dada."

Tumango ito at ngumiti. Hinalikan ako nito sa noo atsaka siya bumalik sa kitchen. He loves cooking so much. And he's really good with it. Pero ako, waley. Hanggang pagkain lang ang kaya ko. I didn't get the talent of cooking good food from dada. Nakakasunog lang din ako parang si daddy.

Days passed by and I'm now on my seventh month of pregnancy. Hirap na talaga akong tumayo dahil sa sobrang laki ng tummy ko. Hindi na din tumatanggap ng modelling offer si Kai. He stays with me all the time. Kahit na sinabi naman ng doktor na slim chance lang ang early labor dahil healthy naman kami ni baby ay sobra pa din ang pag-iingat namin. We don't want to take the risk.

Kai turned one of the guest room into our baby's room. Kulay pink ang walls at ang ceiling naman ay sky blue. The room is filled with toys, clothes, and other baby's stuffs. Pati yung crib ay nandun na din. It's a personalised crib. Halos lahat naman ng gamit sa loob ay piling-pili ni Kai. He really gives the best for our baby. He said our baby is his princess and I am his queen.

"Babe, you awake?"

"Uhm... Babe, sakit na ng likod ko."

Mabilis na lumapit si Kai sa akin. A frown marred his handsome face. Basta sinabi kong may masakit sa akin ay agad-agad niyang iniiwan ang ginagawa niya para unahin ako. I really feel like a queen. He gently lifted me up into a sitting position. Umupo naman siya sa tabi ko at hinahaplos ang aking likod.

"I love you, babe."

I felt his free hand caressed my big tummy. He kissed my right ear and I moaned at the sensation it brought me. I yawned loudly.

"I love you, baby princess."

I woke up with a start. Kai is wrapped around me like a vine. My back is facing is his muscled chest. His body heat enveloped me like a blanket.

"I love you, asshole. I really do."

I closed my eyes and fell into sleep again.

"Why are we here again?"

I asked Kai for the nth time. He said today is a special day for us so he asked me out. We went to this restaurant miles away from our house. Favourite niya daw ang restaurant na ito. Nang makarating kami doon ay takang-taka ako dahil sa walang tao doon kundi kaming dalawa. Well, the staffs are there but you know what I mean.

"San ang ibang customer? Akala ko ba the best restaurant to? Bakit tayo lang ang nandito?"

I asked him beguile. Inilibot ko pa ang mga mata ko sa loob ng restaurant. It really is beautiful. It's a Victorian style restaurant. The interior looks like we were in a 80's period. Kai's arm's wrapped around me.

"Babe, I rent this restaurant for a whole day. It's only us here. No other customer."

Gulat akong napatingin kay Kai. A grin is on his lips. I beamed at him at pulled down his face to kiss him lovingly. We were gasping for air when we pulled away from the kiss.

"Babe, sinabi ko na special day ito di ba?"

I stared into his black orbs. Several emotions are swimming in his eyes. I can't even pinpoint which emotion is winning but I can sense something is about to happen... Something bad. I just hope I'm imagining things. I just hope.

"But before that lets eat first. Baka gutom na kayo ni baby."

We settled in our seats and food were immediately served. We are in silence. I don't know how it happened but the atmosphere became so intense. It's as if the air turned heavy making me feel uneasy. Ilang beses akong sumulyap kay Kai at napansin na seryoso ang kanyang itsura. Parang hindi tuloy ako makahinga. Bakit naman ganto? Kanina lang ang saya-saya naming dalawa. We were both smiling and laughing and then now...

"Dyo..."

I was startled. He called me by my name and not by the endearment he always use on me. I nervously took a quick glance at him and saw him looking ahead of me. His face is stoic. Napalunok ako dahil sa kabang nadarama ko.

"Are you... breaking up--- mali pala, dapat pala are you divorcing me? Kasi di ba kasal na tayo?"

Pilit pa akong tumawa sa ginawa kong tanong. I was joking about it but then I think I just made a big mistake. I didn't know that the joke I made will become my reality. And f**k, I will never make a joke again - ever.

Days flew by and it's been three weeks since I went back to living with my parents. Kahit na sinabi naman ni Kai na sa akin nakapangalan ang mansion ay hindi ako tumira doon. There are a lot of memories there and living there will only stress me. Ngayon pa nga lang stress na ako ano pa kaya kung titira ako sa bahay na yun. I will only remember him. The mornings when we wake up and cuddle, the afternoons we spend watching chick flicks, the nights we make love to one another... Or at least tried to make love.

"Anak, are you okay?"

Nag-aalalang tanong ni dada sa akin. A question I never answer. What's the point of answering a question so obvious? I'm not okay. And I think I will never be okay. Siguro si baby na lang yung reason kung bakit ako nakakatagal ng ganito. My whole body is numb. Ni hindi ko na iniinda yung pananakit ng balakang ko. I just feel so numb.

"I'm worried, anak. Hindi mo sinasabi kung ano talaga ang nangyari sa inyo ni Kai. Basta ka na lang umuwi dito. You don't even talk to us."

How can I tell them what happened that day? I've been trying to forget that God awful day. I don't want to talk about that day. I don't want to think about it. I don't want to remember it. I just want to forget. I just want to...

"Oh, Dyongin, baby. Please don't cry. Everything will be alright."

Oh, I'm crying. I didn't notice it. Bakit ganun, ang sabi nila kapag umiyak ka mababawasan yung bigat ng dinaramdam mo pero bakit parang wala namang nagbago? Mabigat pa din sa puso. It's still there, the heaviness in my heart. It won't go no matter how many tears I've shed at night. It just won't go. And I feel so tired of it. Of feeling so lonely... So hurt. So numb.

"Are you... breaking up--- mali pala, dapat pala are you divorcing me? Kasi di ba kasal na tayo?"

It was supposed to be a joke. I never meant for it to be true. But I guess I should have known this will happen. This is why I'm scared of being to happy. I always knew the happiness I felt is only for limited time. I should've known it will end sooner or later. I should've prepared myself for this but I didn't and that's where I went wrong.

"I'm sorry. I just... I realised that I'm not ready for this. Being a husband is not what I had plan for myself. I was never the kind of guy who will settle down. And being a father, I cannot. I will only fail if try doing it half-heartedly. I'm so sorry."

My world shattered in front of me. So much for a special day. Hindi naman to special e. Eto ata ang araw na namatay ang puso ko. This hurt so much but why can't I cry? Ah, right, because I don't want him to see me shed tears for him. I don't want to look weak in front of him. He broke my heart, yes, but not my pride. It's the only thing I have left. My pride. I will protect it no matter what.

"Okay. You file the divorce and send it to me. I'll sign it whole heartedly."

A bitter smile escaped me but I willed myself to not cry. At least not in front of me. I took a deep breath as I tried to calm my rage.

"I want to go home. Dun sa bahay namin. I want to stay with my parents."

Tinignan ko siya ng diretso. Mukha siyang nag-aalala sa akin. Para saan ang pag-aalala niya kung siya naman ang dahilan kung bakit ako nasasaktan? He is such an asshole. Such an asshole.

"I'll take you there."

Umiling ako. Hindi ko kaya na makasama pa siya ng mas matagal.

"Ayoko. Ipahatid mo ako sa driver natin o kaya naman ipatawag mo ako ng taxi."

I was pulled back in the present time. Both dada and daddy are inside my room. Kahit mga kapatid nandito rin. They're worried. I tried to reassure them that I'm alright but who am I kidding? I'm not alright.

"Ang sakit, s**t. Sobrang sakit."

And I freely let my tears fall down my face. So much for being strong.