One Night, One Baby

Chapter Seven

Chapter Seven: "It's a smile of happiness. A smile of new hope. A smile of love."

I don't know if I'm dreaming or not. I hope I'm not because if this is a dream then I don't want to wake up anymore. I rather stay here than wake up and face my cruel reality. But I have no other choice. I have to wake up. Not for me, not for Kai, but for our baby. For my little princess.

I slowly opened my eyes and the white ceiling is what I first saw. I'm so exhausted but I want to see my daughter before I fall into sleep again. I want to hold her in my arms. I want to see here beautiful face, I want to check if she has all sets of fingers. Kung yung ilong ko na e nakuha niya pati yung labi niya at syempre ang mga mata niya. Gusto ko ding malaman kung malusog ba siya at walang problema.

"Mr Dyongin can you hear me?"

I turned to my left and saw Dr Jeon. He is wearing his white lab coat. Nakangiti ito sa akin. Doon ko lang din napansin na nandoon si daddy, Jongsoo, Kyungie at Soo In. Where is dada?

"Your dada is with your little princess."

Napatingin ako kay daddy na nakangiti sa akin. I gave him a weak smile. It's all I can offer right now. A weak smile. Pagod na pagod pa ang katawan ko. My body feels so heavy and yet my heart feels so light. After weeks of being depressed, I feel like a new person now.

"I...want to see her. My daughter."

I croaked and daddy nodded his head. He then turned to look at the doctor and they both walked out of the room. Nilapitan naman ako ni Soo In. Hinawakan nito ang kamay ko at pinisil. Nginitian ko siya.

"Oppa, I'm so proud of you. For carrying our little princess for nine long months and finally giving birth to her."

Tumango ako at pilit na pinipigilan ang mga luhang nagbabadyang tumulo galing sa mata ko. Yes, nine long months which changed my whole life. Nine months ago, I didn't know I'll be carrying a child in womb. Ni hindi ko inisip na sa loob lang ng siyam na buwan ay ikakasal at magiging diborsyado ako. But here I am, after nine long f*****g months, I gave birth to my little princess.

"You are such a strong man, oppa. And we're so proud of you. We love you so much. And we're here for you and for baby princess."

Bumakas ang pintuan at iniluwa noon sila dada, daddy at ang doktor. Behind them is nurse pushing a carriage-like thing. Inadjust ni daddy ang higaan ko para naman makaupo ako kahit papaano. From my position I can see the curly hair of my daughter. Hindi ko na napigil ang mapaluha. Agad akong inalo ni dada.

"Ssh, baby, don't cry. You have your baby to love and cherish now. She's so beautiful, just like you."

I bit my lip to stop my crying. Ibinaling ko muli ang tingin ko sa nurse na ngayon ay karga-karga na ang anak ko. Ngumiti ang nurse sa akin at lumapit. Daddy adjusted my bed so that I am partially laying down. The nurse laid my baby on top of my chest. And the moment I looked into her sleeping face that's when I realised that losing Kai does not mean I should stop loving... Losing him means I have to be stronger. I have to be strong to be able to love and protect my new bundle of joy.

"She's so beautiful. Her name will be Kaileen. She is Kim Kaileen."

I took her small hand and brought it to my lips. Kissing it gently before putting it back on my chest. She sleeps just like me. I was silently thanking the God for making my baby healthy. She has ten fingers, ten toes, a cute nose, a pouty red lips... I just hope she gets my eyes because by looking at her I can tell that she got her looks from Kai.

"Beautiful name, anak."

I looked at the people inside the room and smiled at them. Finally, I can say that I smile whole heartedly. It's a smile of happiness. A smile of new hope. A smile of love.

"Dyo ipasoot mo tong gift ko na onesie ha? Bagay to kay baby Kaileen kasi ako ang pumili."

Napairap ako. So ibig sabihin pangit kapag ako ang pumili? Inabot ko ang yellow onesie na regalo ni Dada para kay baby. Isinoot ko yun kay Kaileen. Buti na lang at busy siya sa pagtingin sa bagong stuff toys niya kaya hindi ako nahirapan na isoot ang damit niya sa kanya. After dressing her up I carried her back into her crib. Nilingon ko si Baekchan na inaayos naman ang mga gamit na dadalhin namin para sa outing.

"Bakla do you think I should allow Kai to see my baby?"

Baekchan stopped putting clothes inside the bag to face me. His face is blank. Hindi ako sanay na seryoso siya. Nakakatakot tignan ang itsura kapag ganyan e.

"Honestly, yes. Kahit naman kasi asshole yun ay siya pa din ang daddy ni Kaileen. Do not deprive your daughter of the love that Kai can give her. Kahit man lang dun ay makabawi siya."

I bit my lip and nodded. He has a point. Kahit naman sinaktan ako ni Kai ay alam kong mabuting tao siya. It's just that the marriage thing isn't for him. Noong kami pa naman ay ramdam ko ang pagmamahal niya kay baby. I maybe hurt by him but I don't have the rights to take away the love that only Kai can give to our baby. Syempre siya pa din naman ang daddy.

"I don't know where he is. Kahit sila mommy Dara at daddy Jiyong hindi din alam kung saan siya pumunta."

It's true, I have no idea where he could be. When I gave birth both mommy Dara and daddy Jiyong went to the hospital to check on me and of course baby Kaileen. Pero sinabi nila sa akin na hindi daw nila alam kung saan nagpunta si Kai. He's just gone... No calls, no texts, no emails. No anything. His parents are both sad and disappointed with what happened between me and Kai and they were both asking for forgiveness. I gave them forgiveness kahit na hindi ko alam kung bakit sila humihingi nun. It's their son who hurt me not them.

"Missing in action ang peg?"

Hindi na ako nakakibo. Hindi ko talaga alam nasaan si Kai pero kung nasaan man siya ngayon ay sana nasa mabuti siyang kalagayan. Kahit na asshole siya ay hindi ko maiitatanggi na mahal ko pa din siya. That asshole stole my heart without preamble and didn't even have the guts to return it to me.