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Vipin Knows

I lay staring at the ceiling, replaying the moment Adbay and I came together as man and women with a goofy grin on my face. I am no longer a virgin, and I can't help but feel free. I was being held down by so many shackles that I could not see, and when Adbay entered my life, everything changed. No, not just Adbay but destiny. I was made for him, and the things we do together are beautiful, so there is nothing to feel ashamed about. Well, then why do I feel shame in the pit of my stomach like I have lost or given up something. Why can I not just be happy or content? How can I feel both free and shame from the same act?

I shift in the sheets as I watch Adbay sleep next to me, trying to gather comfort from him. He is a beautiful man with his long black hair and brown skin. I hover my hand over his face wanting to touch him. I want him to wake up and have me again, but I know I am too sore even to try. I remove my hand from above his face, and his eyes flash open, startling me. He looks at me and smiles like I am the best person in the world, and for a fleeting moment, I forget that shame was even an emotion I was feeling after our wonderful time together.

"Did you sleep well my princess?"

"Please if you must use a name to call me other than by my first use another. I am adjusting but only so fast and I still can't handle the princess title as of yet."

Adbay sighs before laying his head back down on the pillow; he turns his head to look at me with a serious look on his face before sitting up abruptly and taking my face between his hands. I feel the warmth upon contact, and tingles shoot down my body. My eyes flutter close as I feel his breath skate across my face.

"How do you feel? Are you hurt anywhere?"

"My womanhood is sore but other than that I feel fine. Better than fine."

I look away from him, realizing I have told a little white lie, and I'm not sure how to tell him about the shame I feel. Adbay places his fingers on my chin before directing my face back to meet his.

"Tell me what's on your mind. We are in this together right?"

His question leaves me feeling more shameful as I realize I was shutting him out. Tears start to fall down my face as I am once again feeling conflicted. Adbay wipes away my tears and whispers words of encouragement, asking me to open up to him. He is asking me to trust him, but I do already.

"I do trust you Adbay, this is just so hard for me. Everything has changed within a few days, my parents are dead because of me and then this big moment happened and all I can think of are negative things that leaving me feeling ashamed of what I have done. How can I lay here happy with you knowing I am the reason for the death of two people."

Adbay lets me get out the words I need to say, and when I am finally finished, my breathing is labored, and I am shaking, but I feel lighter for having told the truth of how I feel for once. He rubs my hair and my arms before moving to my face again with a serious and no-nonsense expression.

"You did not kill your parents nor are you the reason for their death. We don't know what happened to them but we will find out. Your parents loved you very much Amita and I am sure they were relieved that you were not home that day."

Tears are now a constant flow down my face, and I don't hold them back or try to hide them as I listen to him speak.

"You were a shell Amita, you walked around and spoke but you were a ghost with no purpose or so you thought. It killed me to watch you hate life all these years but I had to wait. These negative thoughts that haunt you will be stomped out by me and your other mates. When we are all together we will lift you above them so they will not torment you any longer. You have nothing to feel ashamed of you have done nothing wrong. Making love with the person you feel love for is not a shameful act but a beautiful one that I hope to do as often as possible with you."

Adbay's soft and sweet voice turns to a sultry and dark rumble that I feel deep within myself. My eyes start to flutter close as I notice a feather-light sensation run over my skin.

"Adbay, what is this feeling? I yearn for you, no more like I ache for you."

"Where do you ache Amita, tell me where."

"My women hood grows hot whenever we are like this."

"Pu**y. Your pu**y gets hot whenever we are like this."

I moan as he captures my mouth with his and lays me back down on the bed. He kisses my neck and lightly sucks on it before moving to my breast and n*****s that beg for his attention. He swirls his tongue over one than the other and back again, making me wither on the bedsheets. Finally, he moves lower to my belly, leaving kisses, licks, and nips along the way, sending sensation all over me.

"Tell me where you ache Amita."

"My pu**y aches for you."

"Whenever you want my mouth on you just tell me that and I will make it happen."

I throw my head back and pant out the words he needs to hear to make this beautiful torture stop when we hear a huge commotion outside followed by horns and screams. Adbay quickly sits up and pulls me off the bed. We dress quickly and run outside to see Vipin's guards plastering posters all over the buildings and rounding up the Vin people in a massive circle while Vipin's people look on with amusement like we are cattle.

Adbay grabs my hand and starts moving us to the circle as the horns go off again. Everything falls quiet as one of the guards steps forward with a gust readying to read from it. My skin turns icy the more my anger grows at our treatment. Where this newfound fury has come from I, do not know, but I like it. The guard that stepped forward clears his throat before we hear his voice ring out for all to hear.

"Vipers." He begins. "Lord Vipin has sensed a new magic in the air not of our own from the Great Lord. He believes this new magic belongs to a slave."

My blood turns cold, and the world stands still for a moment as I try to process everything. Vipin knows about me. He knows a queen is here, and he is looking for her. The guard's booming voice jars me out of my mind and back into reality.

"Anyone who suspects their slave to have magic is to turn them into the guard at once and you shall receive a reward. Watch them closely so that our lives shall remain the same with the Vin people under our boots."

My anger begins to rise as his speech continues. How anyone can be OK with owning people is beyond me. A fire starts in my belly as the realization dawns on me that I have the power to change things. I am the Princess and rightful ruler over these lands. I can save my people and deliver us from this hellish life that Vipin has forced upon us. Adbay quickly grabs my hand and draws my attention to him.

"Amita, you have to calm down." He whispers to me. "Your emotions are tied to your powers, and right now you are making the wind pick up."

I look around us and watch the wind blow the posters off some of the buildings.

"How? How do I make it stop?"

"You need to calm down, think of control. What do you want the air to do and see it happen."

I close my eyes and take a deep breath as I picture the wind calming down into a subtle breeze that can barely be felt. The air is stubborn and seems to have a mind of its own, but mere moments later, the wind follows my command and turns into a slight gentle breeze. I sway on my feet, feeling light-headed, and as I open my eyes, I see a guard to my left has taken notice of me. I quickly look away from him and focus on the one that is still speaking.

"The penalty for aiding a slave with magic is death. That is all."

Adbay tugs on my hand and leads me through the crowd of slaves, and we slowly make our way back to his home.

When we are safely inside, my body starts to shake even harder. I know that guard saw me, but could he tell that it was me controlling the wind, or did he think I was just distraught by the news. I lift my head and turn around, searching for Adbay when I see that he is not in the living room. Instead, I head toward the hall and make my way into the kitchen, where I find Adbay making food.

"How do you seem to have a house all to yourself with no one questioning it?" I ask

"I am an outsider, remember. When we first came here, I only needed to find a family for you. My father taught me how to build and hunt, so I took care of myself. I didn't need a job until I realized we would need supplies. So I work odd jobs and saving the money or getting what I knew we would need. Speaking of supplies I need to go over the plan with you."

"Plan?"

"Yes, you have to unite with all of your chakra mates to gain full access to your power and the closest city-state to us is Manipura."

"I had a vision from Spirit and all the fallen queens the other night and they showed me the faces of my mates in the chakra colors. I don't know anything else about them. How are we suppose to find one person in an entire city-state?"

"You will be able to see their aura remember and you will feel a pull toward them when they are near. You can do this Amita I know you can."

"OK then, lets go over the plan, when do we leave?"

"Tomorrow before dawn. Vipin knows someone other than his people have magic and that is not good. The clock has started ticking and we have no time to waste. The stronger you get the stronger our people get, when our queen gets her power so do her people thats how it works, we will all be able to fight back."

You are not alone. Those words are whispered into my mind again, and they bring me peace instead of more dread.

I look to Adbay as I pull my hair up, ready to listen to what he has planned.