Finding Sky

CHAPTER 19

Sky's POV

I drove back to my mother's house and sat in the car once again mentally preparing myself for what may lay behind those doors.

I sighed got out locking the vehicle, as I'm about to walk in a noticed a bulky man in a suit watching me.

He nodded his head at me and continue observing my movements.

I smiled knowing that Dee had someone protecting me everywhere I went because I noticed him before but I never felt threatened by him once.

She give me the option to do everything on my own but still make sure I was protected at all times.

I must say I love them both.

Wait love???

I love them?

I pause again thinking of them and I have to admit to myself that I do love them.

Wawwww!!

I don't even what to think about not being around them.

I think I need to speak to them about this but not now.

As I reach the door before I could open the door it opened revealing an older version of me.

The woman smiled and unshed tears fill her eyes.

"Hello Skylar, I'm your grandmother Maya Benson. It's a pleasure to finally meet you. And I must admit you're more beautiful than I could've imagine."

I froze, my grandmother?

I had a living grandparent?

I wasn't actually alone.

I didn't realize I was crying till I felt her trembling hands wiping my face.

She pulled back when I looked in her eyes. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have touch you without permission."

"It's ok!"

She smiled again, "Would it be okay if I hug you?"

I smiled, "Thank you for asking. I have to say no though."

She nodded but fold her hands around herself as if shielding herself from me.

I'm not sure why but seeing her like that affected me in a way I can't explain.

I brushed off the feeling and I stepped inside to find Jared walking to us.

When he saw me there was a flash of surprise, then confused look.

"I didn't think you'd come."

I didn't respond just passed him straight and sit on couch.

I heard him sigh and tell his mother to give us some space.

I felt her eyes on me then she went into the kitchen.

"Did you bring the tape?"

Silence.........

"Okay Skylar I get you resentment towards me but you should know that my family was cut off from you.

I hated them and so I only showed them how "wealthy" I became but I cut ties with them.

So they weren't allowed to see you."

"I'm sorry if I don't feel pity for YOUR family.

The fact of the matter is you all had me feeling like a unwanted orphan for almost 7 years.

Then you decided to use a frail old woman to try and get in my good grace.

I must say Jared you are living up to everything I thought you were."

I continue glaring at him.

He sighed again, "I deserve the mistrust from you I earned it actually. I caused my family their grandchild/niece/cousin that was my doing. Please don't deprive yourself any longer by hating them for something I did."

"I'm not blaming them for anything that isn't well deserved.

My mother wouldn't have let me go on not knowing them, had they reached out to her.

She would've let me meet them regardless of your views on it.

She most likely thought they didn't care, which they didn't because they didn't try to be in my life.

Even after my mother died making me an orphan slave in my mother's house.

They never TRIED to get to me.

So no I'm not blaming them for anything, they are to blame."

Jared watched me, shaked his head and said, "I now understand why the Lewiston are so wealthy.

Their bloodline is so strong that each of you are intelligent and wise beyond your years.

I'm sorry that you had to grow up faster than you should have.

I will make it up to in some way.

You may not believe it but I was excited when I got the news that you were coming.

I took part in everything up to your birth.

When I cut your umbilical cord, I knew I'll love you forever.

I send Sandra a bouquet of roses and a card saying that I no longer desire to be with her.

That I only want my wife and daughter from then on.

I had no idea she sent if back to your mother and insinuate that we were together while I was married to your mother before you were born.

I loved your mother, I still love her even though she's not here.

My jealousy for the attention she gave to you, while ignored me cost me my family.

I lost the time I had left with her and I never been a father I wanted to be to you.

For all of my wrong doings towards you and your mother I'm deeply sorry for.

I will continue trying to be a better man and father for you.

Even if you never forgive me I will continue to play the part I should've been from the day your born.

I'm really sorry princess."

He then kissed my forehead and wiped away the traitorous teardrop I didn't notice slipped out my eye.

"Are you saying all of this for my family's money, job or this house?

If so you're wasting your time."

"No Princess I don't care about that anymore. I only need you to give me time to do better by you.

I actually already gotten another job and I'm looking into apartments before you came."

I just looked at him wondering if I should believe him or not.

"Ok let's just watch the videos."

He nodded his head, took the tape from my hand and proceeded to put it on.

We watched the entire thing again just to hear her voice, as shocked as I was Jared was the one who asked to watch from the beginning.

"My forever love, you my beautiful girl have blessed me this pass 12 years." This video my mother looks more sickly than before assuming this was when we learned of her Cancer and started her treatment.

"I'm sorry that I didn't take care of myself well enough to see the wonderful woman I know you'll grow into.

I'm not sure how long I have again but I'll fight as much as I can to stay with you.

I'm afraid that when I leave you, your life will become hard unfortunately.

I know your father and the witch he chose over us very well.

So I placed all our money in our family trust fund and locked completely till you turn 25 years of age.

Your allowance till you are able to access the trust is enough to maintain your current living expenses.

It will increase to be able to pay for your education.

I am really sorry I won't be able to see who you choose as your partner.

I hope you have better luck than me.

Seeing that you took after your father in looks but took my personality, mannerism, intelligence and submissive demeanor.

I pray every day that you get a dominant partner that worship you the way a sub should be worship.

As we're on the topic know that being submissive doesn't mean you're beneath anyone.

Being submissive takes strength to submit your mind, body and soul to someone.

In an ideal Dom-Sub relationship the sub has the most power.

You get to decide when something is okay and when it isn't.

Being submissive never means someone can control you with physical, verbally or emotional abuse.

They are supposed to dominate you based on what you allow.

They are responsible for your mental, physical and emotional health."

She went on explaining the do's and don'ts of Dom/Sub relationship.

What's ok and what isn't.

"I wish I can have the conversation with you face to face when you turn 18.

However I must be realistic and prepare for the worst."

She started crying and it was really hard to watch then she switched off whatever she was using to film this video.

The silence was unbearable.

"Well I'll be heading out now."

Jared seemed to snap out of his daze at those words.

Wiping his face he asked me, "can you stay and have lunch with us, possibly?"

Was he crying?

No way.

"Who's cooking? Sandra?"

Testing him to see if Dee's information was the truth.

"No Sandra isn't allowed in your mother's house anymore.

I'm sorry again for disrespecting you both with her presence."

This time I'm sure he had tears in his eyes.

Still I think this is all a stunt to make me trust him.

"Your gran.........my mother and sister is making lunch and my siblings and their families are supposed to come in a in an hour or so.

You can meet them if you like."

"No thanks!"

Soon after I said that the kitchen door opened my senses are attacked with the aroma of whatever they made.

"Well maybe I can stay for the food."

Jared chuckled and covered it with a cough.

I blame the supplements Dee has me taking.

His mother saw me and held herself again but still speak.

"What should I call you?"

"Skylar is fine."

She nodded, "Well lunch will be served in 10 minutes.

You can help us if you'd like or relax and we'll bring out everything."

"Oh well once you're done you can have Jared bring out the dishes while you and your daughter get some rest."

She looked taken back at my tone referring to her son.

She looked at him for confirmation, which he nodded too.

Soon after the doorbell rang, I looked at Jared and he had the nerve to shake his head at me, smiled and walked to let in the rest of his family I suppose.

I excused myself, deciding to wait in the library.

I felt Maya eyes on me watching me as if she wants to say something but is scared too.

Not even two minutes I heard the door behind me.

"Can we talk please?"

Another woman looking like me stepped in.

"Who are you?"

"I'm your aunt, May. Your second name is after me actually."

"Funny I never met you till today."

"Actually this isn't the first time we have met."

"What do you mean?"

She walked to me handing me a book I didn't notice in her hand.

"I know you've have a difficult life so you'll need proof."

I opened the book, which I now know is a photo album.

What's most shocking is it's my photo album.

I've never seen these photos nor do I remember ever meeting them.

But seeing the age I was it's understandable why I don't recall.

"Your father was a different person before whatever transpired between the both of you for him to change so drastically.

In fact he seems more like the brother I had before Sandra came in.

We were ecstatic when he introduced us to your mother.

Then you came and he turned into someone unrecognizable.

He banned us from seeing you but your mother kept in contact with us.

She visited as much as she could, then you had a fit when you didn't get to see your Mama Maya one weekend.

Your father realized then that your mother had us around you behind his back and he had a fit.

He broke your mother, my mother and your heart that day.

He was relentless, so your mother decided it was best we stayed away to keep the peace.

We didn't even know she had died till a couple years back.

My mother and I came to see you and we were chased away by Sandra who made it very clear if we tried to see you that she would make your life harder.

I'm sorry that we listened to her and didn't fight harder.

We didn't have to money to fight them in court.

No matter what we tried we were shut down.

So we stayed away.

Can you give me a chance to be your Nay Nay again?"

I watched her tear filled eyes with a raised eyebrow.

She laughed, "that's what you called me.

I'm not sure why nor did I care.

I was NayNay and that's what mattered....... matters to me."

I watched her for what felt like five minutes but it may have been thirty seconds.

I sighed got up and hugged her which made her cry harder.

"I think I was saying MayMay.

I have a tendency of renaming everyone."

We both started laughing in the hug.

"I think I need to apologize to my grandmother."

"You could but she understands."

"No I need to apologize because I felt something the minute I saw her but I ignored it.

I thought it was the idea of having a family.

Now I know it was my subconscious mind recognizing my grandmother."

My Aunt May nodded at me.

I walked out and and saw my grandmother standing by the dinning table.

As she saw me she hugged herself again.

I sighed, "I'm sorry Mama Maya."

I hugged her while she sobbed and squeezed me like I would disappear if she let me go.

As I looked over her shoulder I saw a lot of people and most of them looked like me.

I smiled at them and everyone breathe out a sigh.

Waw who knew a Submissive 5 2" woman would have everyone in a gigantic family so nervous.

"Can we eat now?"

A little voice said and everyone laughed, but filed in taking their seats.

I can get used to this, though when I think of home my mind goes to Dee and KeKe.

I smiled at the thought and continue to enjoy my family time.