Feelings

Chapter 5

“I’m what now?” Jennie asked,confused.

“Yeah, of course. I’m guessing Lisa hasn’t told you yet.” Jisoo said as she took a bite of her sandwich.

“Told me what exactly?”

“Eh, I don’t think I’m in the right position to tell you. I think it’s better if it personally come from her.” Jisoo carefully said as she scratched embarrassingly the back of her head.

“Now I’m curious.” Jennie suspiciously said.

“Okay, I’m gonna tell you.” Jisoo gave in and she deeply sighed. “But don’t tell anyone I told you, okay?”

“Yeah, sure.” Jennie seriously said and Jisoo leaned closer to her.

“You might want to be careful when you’re close to Lisa.” Jisoo whispered.

“And...what’s that supposed to mean?”

“She’s into girls. That’s the reason why her last roommate left and she hasn’t had another roommate ever since that’s why you’re the talk here. There’s a chance that she would like you too.”

“And that’s a bad thing?”

“No, not for me at least. I’m cool with it. But you know, the world is full of judgmental eyes and it could be hard to deal with.” Jisoo simply said. “Are you cool with it?”

“Well, I don’t see the reason why it’s wrong or bad.” Jennie shrugged.

“Now that you know about it, it’s up to you now on how you’re gonna deal with people.” Jisoo said and smiled. “But don’t worry. I’ll be here always.” Jisoo winked.

“Thanks Jisoo.” Jennie sympathetically smiled.

***

“Why didn’t we wait for Jennie? Are you avoiding her?” Rosé asked. “And we’re eating outside on purpose, aren't we?”

“Of course I’m avoiding her. I can already imagine what you’re gonna do when she’s around.” Lisa said.

“I promise to be in my best behavior when you introduce her to me.” Rosé swore.

“Cross your heart?”

“Cross my heart.” Rosé drew a cross on her chest as she raised her right hand.

“Okay.” Lisa took a deep breath. “I’m gonna invite her to walk with us to our dorm.”

“You should be.” Rosé said. “And hey, it’s been a year. I think you should come back to our club. Everyone misses you there.”

“Yeah, I think I’m coming back. I miss dancing.”

“And I think today is the best day to start anew since it happened.”

***

“Since classes won’t start just yet, would you like me to give you a tour here?” Jisoo offered.

“Yes, please. Thank you.” Jennie politely said and they started walking.

“This building might look big but only few rooms are important here.” Jisoo explained. “That black door with a happy and sad mask on it, that’s obviously for the Theater Club.” She pointed to her right and Jennie just nodded. “While that room with a glass door upstairs, that’s the dance studio for Dance Troupe. That room below that is for Fine Arts Club.” She said. “At the end of this hallway is for the Music Club and then the other end is for the Young Voices Club. At the back of this building, you’ll find the room for Spoken Poetry Club and Magic and Illusion Club.” Jisoo ended explaining.

“What club are you in anyway?” Jennie asked.

“Young Voices and Music. I’ve been there for two years.” Jisoo answered. “You can actually join as many clubs as you can as long as you can manage.” She explained. “There are still a lot of clubs in other courses but what I’ve shown you are for starters. Anyone can join even though they’re from different courses.”

Jennie nodded.

“What about you? What club are you joining?” Jisoo asked.

“I’m thinking...maybe I should join in Young Voices and Dance.” Jennie answered.

“Wow, interesting. Well, good luck on that.” Jisoo smiled. “There will be registration here tomorrow at the front of every club’s door. I’m really excited for you to join our club. It’ll be fun, I swear.” Jisoo beamed.

***

Time passed by quickly and everyone was very excited to go to their homes and rest. When their professor dismissed them, everybody stood up quickly while the others stretched their arms. Since Jennie was sitting in front, she was the first one to go out between her and Lisa since the latter always sits at the back.

“Come on, quick before we lose her!” Rosé said then she dragged Lisa by her hand.

They ran a bit faster to catch up with Jennie who was walking and talking with Jisoo. Rosé gasped and walked slowly.

“What now?” Lisa said.

“She’s with Jisoo too.” Rosé quietly squeaked. “Okay, we have to act cool.” She took a deep breath and dragged Lisa closer to Jennie and Jisoo.

When no one was talking between them, Rosé eyed Lisa.

“Do the talking!” Rosé whisper shouted.

Lisa sighed and took a deep breath before clearing her throat, making Jennie and Jisoo turn around behind them. The two was shocked when they saw Lisa and Rosé but Jennie managed to smile while Jisoo was frozen at the sight of Rosé.

“Hi, Jisoo.” Rosé sweetly smiled and waved at her.

“Um...” Jisoo looked away from Rosé and glanced at Jennie. “I’m gonna go ahead, I’ll see you tomorrow!” She quickly said and bowed before running away.

Rosé’s face fell down when Jisoo left until Lisa cleared her throat again.

“Um, hey Jennie. You gonna head to our room already?” Lisa uncooly said which almost made Rosé face-palmed.

“Uh, yeah.” Jennie answered.

“This is Rosé by the way.” Lisa pointed at Rosé and the latter extended her hand happily.

“Nice to meet you, Jennie. You can call me by my Korean name which is Chaeyoung or Chaeng, whichever you prefer but I don’t really mind. Lisa has told me a lot about you.” Rosé bubbly said and she gained an elbow from Lisa.

“She's kidding.” Lisa dismissively said as she chuckled nervously.

“I live three doors away from yours.” Rosé said. “So, where are you from anyway?” Rosé began.

Rosé kept asking Jennie questions about her life which Jennie doesn’t seemed to mind since she had to make new friends while Lisa was just silently listening while walking with them. She would sometimes elbow Rosé when she asked beyond the line questions like if she has a boyfriend or how does her love life doing.

“Wow, I guess I know you a lot better now than your roommate does.” Rosé jokingly said as they arrived at Jennie and Lisa's room.

“Nice knowing you too.” Jennie smiled.

“I’ll see you both tomorrow. Bye!” Rosé bowed her head and started walking away from them.

Now the two of them was left alone outside. Lisa automatically became awkward when her best friend left. When Jennie noticed that Lisa was just standing as if she’s just waiting, she opened the door for them.

“Aren’t you coming in?” Jennie asked and Lisa snapped out of her trance.

“Y-yes.” Lisa slowly and awkwardly stepped inside and put her bag on her bed.

“Um, Lisa?”

“Hmm?”

“Can I ask you something?”

“Yeah, sure.” Lisa didn’t know why but she began feeling nervous.

“Is it true that...you like girls?”