Feelings

Chapter 15

“Who’s...Tzuyu?” Jennie asked.

“She’s used to be Lisa’s roommate.” Jisoo whispered and she was elbowed by Rosé. “What? She deserves to know the truth.” She said to Rosé.

Jennie put her attention to Lisa and she noticed the anger in her eyes.

“Are you okay Lisa?” Jennie asked as she softly squeezed Lisa’s shoulder.

“Yeah. Of course.” Lisa answered with a hint of bitterness in her voice then she looked away from Tzuyu.

Tzuyu noticed Lisa so she walked to her, looking a bit guilty.

“Uh-oh. She’s coming.” Rosé said under her breath.

“Hey, Lisa—” Tzuyu softly said. But before she could even finish her sentence, Lisa stood up and picked her bag and head out of their room.

“Awkward.” Jisoo silently chimed and she gained an elbow from Rosé.

Tzuyu sighed and her eyes met with Rosé. She sadly smiled and greeted her. “Hey Chaeng.”

“Hey.” Rosé nervously chuckled. “It’s...good to see you...again.”

“Can you do me a favor? I really need to talk to Lisa. It’s important.” Tzuyu pleaded.

“Uh... I’ll try. But I’m not making promises.” Rosé said.

“Thank you so much.” Tzuyu sadly smiled. “I’ll see you around.” She said before she took her leave.

“I’ll be right back.” Jennie said in a hurry and sprint out of their room to find Lisa. “Lisa?” Jennie called and when no one answered, she continued her search.

The class was about to start but Jennie didn’t feel like going to their class unless she finds Lisa. When she got tired of thinking where Lisa was hiding, she went to sit under the stairs and she was surprised to find Lisa sitting there as well with her earphones in her ears, arms folded across her chest and eyes closed with her eyebrows knitted together. Jennie sighed in relief and cautiously sat beside Lisa. The latter got a bit startled and she quickly removed her earphones out of her ears.

“Hey.” Lisa said.

“I was looking for you.” Jennie softly smiled and Lisa raised an eyebrow.

“Why were you looking for me?”

“You just got me worried back there. You seemed mad at her.” Jennie paused. “Would you mind if I ask why?”

“So you’re just came here to ask that? Being nosy like the others huh?” Lisa scoffed as she shook her head.

“No. I—”

“You want to know why? Fine. She’s a horrible person and she ruined me. There, are you happy?” Lisa sarcastically said and then she stood up and walked away, leaving Jennie confused.

“Lisa, wait!” Jennie shouted but Lisa continued to walk away.

Jennie didn’t bother attending any of their classes so she spent her time writing lyrics for their song that she wanted to propose to Henry at the library. While in the middle of writing, she got startled by someone who tapped her shoulders which happened to be Henry. The latter smiled at Jennie at sat across her.

“Oh, hey Henry.” Jennie quietly greeted.

“I’m surprised you’re here, I thought you’re in class right now.” Henry said.

“I’m more interested in writing a song than listen to a boring class.” Jennie chuckled.

“You’re writing a song? That’s awesome.” Henry smiled.

“I’m just trying, but I’m pretty sure it’s lame.” Jennie sheepishly said.

“Can I have a look? I won’t judge.”

“Okay...” Jennie hesitantly said and gave her notebook to Henry. Henry took his time to read Jennie’s words and when he finished, he smiled a little and gave the notebook back to Jennie. “Yeah, funny.” Jennie lightheartedly said.

“No, it’s not that bad actually.” Henry honestly said. “It’s just that it got me curious, did you write this for someone?”

“And it’s obvious, I see.” Jennie mumbled and Henry lightheartedly laughed.

“It’s actually kind of cute.” Henry remarked. “I can help you with that if you want.”

“Really?” Jennie lifted her head.

“Sure. Only if you’d tell who inspired you to write that.”

“I like someone okay.” Jennie sighed, giving in. “I made this person mad at me for just caring. I’m actually planning to sing this on College Day if that’s okay with you.”

“Of course it’s okay with me, let me handle the music. I can take care of it.” Henry smiled.

***

Rosé and Jisoo sighed in relief when Lisa went back to their room. Lisa sat on her seat, ignoring the piercing eyes on her.

“Wait, where is Jennie?” Rosé asked Lisa.

“Why would I care?” Lisa said and Rosé and Jisoo exchanged looks and shrugging eventually.

“Do you think something happened?” Jisoo whispered to Rosé.

“Probably. Since Jennie’s not here yet.” Rosé answered then she sighed as she tapped Lisa’s shoulder to get Lisa’s attention and the latter turned to her, seemingly annoyed. “Okay, you might hate me for saying this but don’t you think you should go talk to Tzuyu? I mean should you let her give a chance to explain herself?”

“She asked you to do that, didn’t she?” Lisa glared.

“She didn't.” Rosé lied and Lisa rolled her eyes. “Okay, it doesn’t matter if she did. I just want you to let go of the hatred that you still have there.” She pointed at Lisa’s heart. “Maybe talking to her and having a closure with her will help you breathe better.”

“Easier said than done.” Lisa said and returning to her previous position. Rosé felt annoyed by Lisa’s attitude.

“You know what Lisa, the person that has a problem here is you. Always acting like you’re so tough yet you don't even focus on the people that cares for you. Don’t be surprised when you wake up one day alone and lonely because of your selfishness.” Rosé snapped and leaned back to her chair.

“Don’t you think that sounded a bit...harsh?” Jisoo whispered.

“Yes, it is.” Rosé shortly answered and Jisoo didn’t asked further questions because she sensed that Rosé needed to cool herself down.

Meanwhile, Lisa felt guilty for acting that way and realized that Rosé was right. She already pushed Jennie away by her actions but she didn’t want her best friend to pull away from her. She’s the only one she had and if she lost her too, then she doesn’t have anyone and it only means she would be alone just like what Rosé said.

After that realization, Lisa finally made a decision. She thought maybe her decision would be the right thing to do. So right after their professor dismissed them, she quickly hung her bag on her shoulder and went out of their room, not even saying goodbye to Rosé or not even Jisoo. She didn’t know where to go and she felt stupid for tiring herself and not even thinking first. She went to the nearest water fountain to hydrate herself and rest for a while. After a few moments of rest, she decided to go home and continue her plan tomorrow. As she was walking, she unexpectedly saw Tzuyu walking with Momo in her direction. Lisa halted as she felt her heart skipped a beat and the two stopped in their tracks as well. Tzuyu turned to Momo.

“I’ll catch up later.” Tzuyu announced and Momo nodded and left, smiling to Lisa first before going. Tzuyu sighed and slowly walked towards Lisa while the latter felt a lump in her throat building up. “Lisa, I—”

“Can I talk with you? In private.” Lisa stiffly said and Tzuyu didn’t expect Lisa to say that.