Rejected but still desired

No good deed...

Selena POV:

I was in my room, too anxious to take a nap. I had started to get hungry but I was too afraid to leave to go anywhere. f**k! I hated Ethan! I hated all of them! I rolled myself off the bed and walked over to the window, I wish I had a wolf. Then I could shift and run and be free for a bit. I opened the window and felt the cold air push through me violently but I didn't move because I liked it. The cold was one thing that made me feel alive and trust me the will to live is not an easy find when you've been abused for majority of your life. There was a knock on the door and the pit in my stomach seemed to sink deeper. Slowly, I turned around and walked towards the door. My heart beating with every step. "Selena," came Ro's voice, she couldn't even look me in my eyes. Did everyone in this pack think so little of me? "Ro," I breathed back, defeated. "You have been summoned by young Alpha Ethan," I felt myself burn up with anger and wanted to slam the door then and there in her face. "why?" I asked and for the first time her eyes flashed at mine, she grabbed my arm and shoved me into the room, the door slamming behind her. "You are summoned. It is your job!" I was terrified by Ro's behavior but it did nothing to dull my arrogance, "well, I refuse!" I spat and she dug her nails deeper into my arm, "you are playing a dangerous game Selena!" She warned and again, nothing seemed to add up. "What are you talking about?" I asked and she looked away again, "The Alpha and Luna want to ridicule you," she said as she turned around and pulled out a maids uniform, I stared at the the black and white lace outfit. This was insane! "I did nothing wrong Ro!" I exclaimed as I stared at the slutty outfit, "yes, you did nothing wrong, however, Alpha Ethan threathened to claim you if anyone touched you and so his parents want to parade you like a piece of meat so that your life is made more difficult. There is a special guest attending tonight, I cannot assume where he fits into all of this but for once Selena," her eyes begged me and carried a strange emotion, "be grateful!" She left me with further instructions that I would be collected once I was made to be presentable. I showered, shaved and washed my hair with the sweet smelling soaps and moisturized with even sweeter smelling lotions. I brushed out my long red hair, which was currently proving to be too tiring. I left it in irritation and pulled on this wretched outfit. It was a mini french maid dress, it had a matching black with lace trims stockings and I was instructed to wear a pair of black heels with it. My face looked pale and sick and contradicted whatever they were trying to advertise with this outfit. I felt uncomfortable at the sight of my bare thigh and how much cleavage could be seen. In that moment, I couldn't look at myself. I had never felt beautiful and now I had been made to dress like a free for all slut and it did not do anything better for my self esteem. There was a knock on the door and I carefully opened it, Ro came inside and looked me up and down and even she was not impressed. "I will braid your hair." It was all she said, it was all she could say. I sat down at the vanity as she started to braid my hair, my hands were shaking. I'm not sure if I could be strong enough to weather this kind of humiliation. "All done." She said and stood up, "don't you want a bit of make up," she asked as she rummaged through the bags she brought, "no Ro, please don't make me." My voice was small and weak and it caused her to look up at me with pity, she nodded and put the bag down. "Come, the guards are here to escort you to the private hall where the dinner is being held. You are to serve them in any way they require." She couldn't meet my eyes again and I felt sick to my gut, my legs were jelly in these heels and her words had unnerved me in a way that not even I could laugh or try to be arrogant about it.